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My mind is working but my body is not moving

My mind is working but my body is not moving. That day I am lack of sleep because yesterday I finished school activities and sleep already at midnight. In the afternoon of that day, I got to fight with my father and household chores is waving at me. I was so stressed at that time and I don't know what will I do first. I am confused stressed and hopeless to finish the task that I have. I just want to cry and sleep. I even think about giving up because I in too suffocated with many tasks to be done. I went upstairs to ready my workplace to finish my other school activities. I don't know if I am the only one who feels it because sometimes I am more comfy reading while lying down than sitting. So I decided to lie down and read my school activities. Since I am lack of sleep that day I ended up taking asleep. I'm sleeping peacefully until I got a dream. In my dream, it is like the real world. But I feel a little scared I don't remember it accurately but as far as I remember it is a happy dream but in the end a scary dream. In that dream, I am just watching people and hearing them (parang magkakapitbahay na nagkukuwentuhan). It lasts for an hour and my mind suddenly think about my real life. I can hear my parents talking to each other. I can feel the couch. I can feel the wind. But the problem is I can't move. I just notice it when I tried to move my feet and talk because I feel like someone is asking me. I want to answer the people who are asking me but I can't. I can't talk I want to shout but my tongue and lips don't move. I want to stand but I can't move my body. I want to move my feet but I can't. I want to move my hands to slap my face to wake up but I can't. I already did all the conclusions I have but I can't still move. You know the feeling you are being stuck on the couch. It is like someone put a lock on your body. I started to feel scared and ask many questions in my mind. I ask my mind that I am dead? But why I can still hear them? Why can I still feel the air? Why can I still feel the couch? It is like my soul is still alive but my body is dead, am I dead or alive? I tried my best to move, I even cried in the fear that maybe I cant wake up. I even beg for HELP! but no one hears me because I can't shout. Only my mind can hear it. I want to move my head but I can't. I am now trembling in fear and I can feel tears flowing on my face. But I never give up I still tried to move my body. I tried to talk and shout. I didn't think about the word hopeless all I think is I need to wake up. I need to wake up because I cant still say goodbye to my family I don't want them to be sad. Then suddenly my eyes opened, my feeling is like I saw a dead person. My heartbeat is fast, I am covered with sweat, and tears are flowing on my face. I thought I was already dead. I thought I will never wake up again. I cooled down and wake my body and soul. Now I can move my body, I can talk and shout, I can even wipe my tears and sweat. Thank God

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