March 19, 2022
It was Sunday and I found myself in a familiar place where I've been in the past. People were friendly and kind. I wasn't sure of their names though or if I know them personally. But one thing was certain, they treat me like a family. One day, they bring me to a church where people of the same religion gathered and greeted each other. While wandering my eyes around the place, it seemed like I'd seen it before or visited it in the past. I felt the same vibe but I can't pull the memories out of my mind.
The leaders came and we started our prayer meeting. They weren't Filipinos but missionaries from other parts of the world. Yet, they seemed comfortable to talk with us and share stories with. All members were happy to see and talk to them. I, on the other hand, was just listening at the corner as I was like out of place. I seemed close to them, but my mind was reluctant to approach them. However, hearing their stories and how they motivate people made me want to know them more or even talk to them.
The meeting was over and we bid goodbyes to each other. A group of kids came to greet me and they seemed familiar to me again, yet, I wasn't sure of their names or if I knew them personally. That bizarre feeling was worrisome and I don't like being in an uncertain situation.
I never mistreated those who are good to me, so I just went along with them, smiled, and acted casually as if I literally knew them. On our way to wherever we were heading, we saw a group of gangsters holding sharp and dangerous objects in their hands. We sensed that something wrong would happen and our feet unhesitantly dragged us away from them. We started to pace faster and ran as fast as we can but the gangsters chased us while aiming the sharp object in their hands at us.
The other one got caught, he was stabbed, and blood spurted out of his cut flesh. Fear ran down my spine causing a loud and fast throb in my heart. I was worried not of myself, but for the kids who were crying and begging to spare their lives. We were running and running. My feet seemed to give up but my hope to get out of that merciless situation don't want to.
The gangster drew nearer to me and aimed the sharp object at me. I blocked it with my hand but it didn't bleed. I was able to escape from him and saw a sharp object too. We fought but I was too weak to defeat them. I was losing hope and accepted my faith. "Soon I'll die," that was what my mind told me.
As I moved an inch, I opened my eyes and the place was still dark. My hands gripped my chest as pain pierced hard in it. I can barely breathe nor move to another side because I felt the pain as I exhaled. I stopped breathing for a while and slowly breathed out. But the pain was still there. I knew I can alleviate it through deep breathing in and slowly breathing out and massaging my chest muscles. But it was different, it was more painful than the previous episodes which interrupted my sleep.
The nightmare woke me up in the middle of the night, and I slept intermittently because of the chest pain. I felt it at night before going to sleep and I thought it would be gone once I fall asleep. But it got even worse and kept me awake the whole night. A pain reliever was taken in the morning to alleviate the pain. It subsided after a moment, but a little pain still lingers in my chest.
I know it wasn't angina or chest pain, but muscle pain in my chest due to wrong posture or over-flexed muscles. Besides, the pain was felt in the right side, not left. I know the symptoms of angina too since I learned about it in caregiving, but the pain in the chest is still worrisome and something that should be concerned about.
It seems like the arm flexing exercises I've been doing recently just put me in a bad situation. Perhaps, I'm executing it incorrectly that over-flexed my muscles in the chest. I might stop this exercise for a moment and find ways to stop this chest pain from coming again as it is truly worrisome, gives me difficulty in breathing, and uncomfortable condition.
So just a little advice to those doing home exercises. Make sure to execute them correctly, or else, it will cause damage to your body or worsen your health condition.
Pardon me for this nonsensical ramblings, I hope you guys are doing fine.
Thanks for reading.
I had a typo in the title earlier. For those who have read that, pardon me 🙈. It was hilarious, lol.
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I don't know when I could i have my exercise hehe but I am sometimes experiencing chest pains which are kinda disturbing especially i can feel it on the left side of my chest. I just remained calm and catch my breath, umo okay naman