I'm a Problematic Girl For today's Blog!

This whole day, I can't focus reading some article so, some of the articles that I am reading start in the morning to afternoon just left with upvotes. Some Unfinished articles that I am reading, I saved it on saved articles. Because, I really can't understand what I am reading since my mind is preoccupied with some thoughts and problems again.

Last last day ago, my Grandma needed to go to the hospital because of her health. They said that her condition was over fatigue due to the reason that she overworked herself. One of the reason of it is because she do the laundry of their clothes, big and heavy comforters, pillow covers of the pillows for their visitors, and other clothes even if the weather is so hot. Don't get me wrong, I did told her and warn her NOT to do the laundry since it's almost afternoon but she didn't listen to me. She is really a stubborn and she didn't listen to us and if you will stop her doing it, we will got a scold so i just let her what she do but at the same time, I also helped her by fitching some water and she will do the washing.

Now, The problem is... we don't have money left for buying our food because she used her money to buy her medicines that she need to take. Looking at our fridge, we don't have any food just a charcoal and ice water again. The money that I give to my Grandma that I recieved from the campaign of some candidators before election was spend already.

Looking at my Grandparents, even though we have a misunderstanding and arguments everytime and I feel pain because of them, I can't neglect the fact that I am still their grand daughter.

It's been how many days that I am thinking at deciding if I will convert some money. I also have this seeing the market prices everytime hoping that there is a miracle and the BCH will pumped even if it's only for one day but that is just only a hope and wishful thinking because until right now, the BCH price is still the same.

I regreted the days that I spend to take care of myself during the time that I became depressed. If only I can turned back those times, I will used those days to grind more. So that I have some more earnings to be added as a budget for our foods.

But, I can't turned back those days anymore and I need to focus to the present because it's already happened and I can't do anything about it.

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Looking at the price of the market and the problem here at our house makes my head dizzy at the same time, Hurt because I can't find any solutions how to solved this problem.

Just this afternoon, i looked every corner of our Kitchen. I can't believed that we don't have any stocks even the basic seasonings for our food. The containers are so dirty and messy and it contains almost empty.

I know that I am just the only person who can solved this because I am just the only one who can provide those since,

1. First, My Uncle and Aunts does not have money too and they have their own family too.

2. Second, my Older sister is still studying so she doesn't have money to give to our Grand parents.

3. Third, I don't like to borrow money to my Mom again because I am shy to asked her and I know that she is now tired working.

What is the reason why I need to buy Foods?

I am just the only one who is living here with our Grand parents now since my Older is now transfered to the house of her Boyfriend because their Face to Face classes was started again and their house is more nearer to their school. So It's my responsibility to bought food since I lived here with them and I am eating too.

Second, I am worried to my Grandma's health. Even though, I am still angry and I closed my heart to them, I don't like her to suffer and becoming problematic because of her condition right now. I don't like her to get tired finding some solution if How or where she can find some money to buy this and that needed in our house.

In the past months that I don't convert money for the house, we stayed being like this. Even though, I like to hodl my Bitcoincash earnings, I can't do anything but to convert some money.

Which is I need Php 10,000 right now but I am shocked when I saw the value of this amount to BCH which is 1 BCH already.

I feel like my world collapsed in just a second after seeing if how much that PHP converted in BCH. I don't have BCH more left to my wallet since I used it for my room. I used the Php 3,000 the other day for buying medicines and check up of our puppies because they was tasted Positive in Parvo Virus and now, I need to convert again this month a 1 BCH for our foods and other things that we needed. If only the foods will just costs cheap but all of the food costs pricey now so even if I wanted to use only Php 2,000. I know that it can't be enough for 1 month food and stocks.

Conclusion...

It's hard for me to decide if I will going to convert my 1 BCH later so that I can going to buy stocks tomorrow with my older sister. It's hard for me to decide because 1 BCH is not a joke amount and it's hard for me to grind that kind of amount.

If only, I also didn't provide the things that I needed too and just set aside to fixef this temporary room and just bought it for foods, I don't becoming like this and I don't have some problems to think. Sigh.

I also think that this condition of mine will be a sign for me to find a work or jobs so that I don't just relay to my BCH earnings here and I have some money to used for our foods.

So, That is all for today! Thanks for reading. Help me to decide please. It's really hard to become an adult my gosh!

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