What's inside my head?

10|03|21❣

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Earlier this morning, I was so hesitant to open this platform for I might change my mind. I have a fixed decision last night after publishing my article that I will quit.

I am used to open noise.cash first whenever I access my phone. I always post my morning update in there. This platform isn't excluded, I planned to stop using this one too but I don't know why I opened it this morning while working and even post an update. There's something in me that is doing something out of my plan.

I said to myself after posting it "I thought you're quitting, why dare to post some noise huh?" and then smiled. That smile is unexpected, I have never smiled since last night. I guess I am going crazy this time.

I am about to delete my post after such a thought but the bell is shaking in red and is tempting me to open it. Red means some users noticed my post already. I want to disregard it but it never happened. I tapped it and took my time to interact with them. I enjoyed my time talking to them and that's when I decided to think again if I should quit or not.

I closed my app after it and then I saw read.cash. I opened it with my hand shaking. I don't know why I felt nervous that time. Maybe I was afraid to read your comments about my post full of dramas and all.

While reading your thoughts about my supposed to be the last article made me cry. I was crying and was thinking again that I am going crazy. I don't know if I should behave that way but that's what I feel that time. I just feel like letting all my tears flow.

My tears dried and I realized things after reading your comments and concerns. This is what running in my head that time, "Don't quit, take a rest and start over again when you're ready". This will sum up all your answers to my question last night.

To you, all of you, I don't know how to thank you all for the support that you gave me. I never thought that I will receive so much love and care from you all. You are a blessing to me. You all save me from drowning myself in sadness and pain. I will be forever grateful to have you guys in my life. I may not meet you all yet in person but I know how good you are. I can feel all your sincerity. Thank you for giving me full support to continue and grind again.

Goals for this month:

I decided to set some goals to motivate myself more.

▫ Write at least 15 articles

(I know I can't write anymore one article every day because I have to take time to rest as well. So I decided to write and publish a topic every other day.)

▫ Read at least 10 articles a day

( I will make sure to keep interacting with you guys by reading your articles.)

▫ Like, Upvote and Comment

(Of course, as always, I will maintain hitting likes, giving upvotes, and leaving comments every time I finished reading your awesome works.)

▫ Earn at least $1 per day in Noise.Cash

(I am not so active in noise compared to read actually. It is maybe because I meet RC first and get so in love with it. I will try my best to post at least 3 blogs or updates in a day and interact with other noisers.)

▫ Add at least 5 new writers to sponsor.

( I love sponsoring new writers because I know how it feels like when we are recognized as writers in this amazing platform. It's a great pleasure for me also everytime I receive "Thank you" messages from them.)

I am sponsoring 16 amazing writers currently. And I also have 19 awesome writers who sponsors my work.

|Check them out! They're incredibly impressive.

To you, my ever-supportive and impressive sponsors, I will try my best again in writing. I always did but I know it's not that satisfactory compared to others. I thank you all so much. May God shower you with so many blessings in life. Saranghae ❣

So now here I am! I am trying my best to start again. Thank you for letting me stay. I love you all so much.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. ❣