Have you ever made your parents feel disappointed? What are the things that you do to sort things out? Did you came to the point that you just want to end your life? Or work on things to make things right?
Good day fellas! It's the 4th day of September. How's the day going? Did you make it productive? Are you happy then? I hoped you do.
For today's article, I will share to you my experiences in which, I somewhat like made my parents felt disappointed on the things that I have done and how I dealt with it through the blessings that came unto me.
And it goes like this...
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FLASHBACK
Elementary Days...
During elementary days, I was been ranked as the 1st honor from grades one to four, and graduated as a Valedictorian. I was not able to place at top during my fifth grade. Why oh why? So, here's the full story about it. During that time, we have a new teacher at school. She is a close friend of ours tho, but I somewhat felt like, I don't want to be one of them. "Baka isipin nang iba, sipsip ako." During our quizzes and exams, I really studied hard for me to gain big scores. OMG! I was so shocked to know that, she had this habit of, "What's your answer?" and when she heard my classmates saying it louder, she suddenly said, "Yes, that's correct." "That's the right answer." Like what!? I have questioned myself, "Is she really a teacher?" "Why she seems being dependent or something in favored to those classmates of mine, even if its not the correct answer?" A lot of times it happened, to the point that I get tired of studying my lessons at home. I even make absences during afternoon classes. It feels like I am sick of it. "Its not worth it to study at all." I say that. There are times also that she commanded her students to write or re-write her lesson plans. And honestly, I am one of that students that really wrote it. Every after class, she commanded the students to bring "Panggatong" or Firewood and gave extra points to that. (I am not making this teacher look bad to you, I am just telling you the truth. All truth! " I'm so sorry for that.") Up until the end of the school year. And the most silly one I have experienced with this teacher was, when she entered our room she suddenly said, "Ohh, what a waste! I almost win the lottery!" "A slide!" And I was like, "why she even shared that to us?" Only in my mind. So, fast forward, I was ranked second. My other teachers can't believed it. But I didn't protested (the word, lol). My mama was so disappointed. She scolded me many times because of that. She didn't attended my moving up ceremony. My papa did the honor to pin my ribbon and put my second honors medal.
After that incident, I promised myself that I will really do my best during my sixth grade to get my throne back. Haha. And yes, I really made it. Thankfully, I never met a teacher like her again. "Fair and square!" I get back my throne of being the top student and made my parents very proud at the end of my elementary years.
High School Days...
I have grown up with a strict parents. I even missed most of the happy times in my childhood days because of it. I can't play with the other kids outside the house when the weather was so hot and when it rains. When I was about to go outside our house, my mama will rolled her eyes, and say, "Pagpuyo diha!" (Just stay in the house!) I was then so afraid when it happens. My mama was so "Maldita", to the point that I hated her because of that. My papa also didn't allowed me because he don't want me to get tired of playing. "Baka daw siponin ako" , or something like getting sick. I didn't understand it at first.
I was then a 16 year old girl when I made my parents felt guilty, disappointed, and I even made them cry. One time, I wrote a letter in my room about the disappointments I have because of having a strict parents. "Mga hinanakit kumbaga." After that, I went to school in that day, but I forgot to kept that letter in a private place. When I arrived home, my Aunt approached me saying, "Dai, unsa man diay problema nimo?" (What really was your problem?) "Hinghilak man sila mama ug papa nimo." (Your mama and papa had cried) I answered, "Wala man te!" (I don't have any!) "Ngano man diay?" (Why?)
My Aunt told me that my mama accidentally found the letter and had read it. When I went to the kitchen, I saw my mama was sad. She can't even managed to talk to me that day, even my papa. It has been almost a week that they was so cold to me. I realized that I have done wrong for being so careless and wrote that letter. Later on, my mama and papa became opened to me, and they also allowed me to hang out with my friends, but still gave me some reminders. And for them to feel at ease, I always texted them where I was and to whom I am with.
College days up to this days...
My mama was fond of comparing me to my other cousins that already had a stable job right now. Until such time that I graduated college and my mama helped me out to find a part time job. But for me, I was not yet ready to work for it, though I really wanted to gain some money of my own. She asked my cousin's mother for helped, for me to get a job in our Municipality. After which, I was been hired as an Assistant COA(Commission on Audit) Officer. It so happened that before my first day of work, I told my mama that I will not go there because I am still hesitant to do so. My mama got mad at me. I locked the door because I don't want to talk to her anymore. I grabbed myself a blade for I think about cutting myself through it and end it. I made my mama cried. My papa came and asked what had happened. After he knew everything, he was mad at me also. So, out of fear and too much disappointment I heard from them, I packed my things and without any words to say to my mama, I asked my papa to send me off to my Tito's house where I stayed for work. I worked for only a month because I can't focused myself on working and I don't like my co-workers because they talked behind my back. I went home and said to my parents, "I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore."
Fast Forward, I stayed at home for a couple of months as a "Tambay." I don't have enough money to use for my needs and wants, just a dependent woman to my parents. One time, I came across a facebook post about becoming a load dealer and reseller. My cousin also encouraged me. So, without any hesitations, I became a load reseller, for I don't have enough amount to become a dealer. I was happy then that even just a small profit I've gained from it, I have my own income to use for my own necessities and sometimes I also provided some needs at home. But at some point, I am still wanted to gain more income even I was just at home, because you know, we have a pandemic and FYI, I have been rejected many times when I applied for a job.
One day, ate/Ma'am @Zhyne06 ,
"sorry for the mention ate", introduced me the platforms, Read.cash and Noise.cash. After all the introduction, instructions, and tutorials she provided for me, I joined the platforms. I met a lot of virtual friends, learned a lot of things and stories about other people around the globe and EARNED BCH which converted to real cash. As a matter of fact, I have already withdrawn almost $600 for my three months on these platforms, mostly gained from Read.cash. I bought things for myself using that money and for my parents also. I am very pleased and happy to share to you that I am a real time BCH EARNER. "Hulog ng Langit si ate/ma'am Zhyne para sa'kin at sa pamilya ko." :') "Thank you so much ate." And of course, I would like to thanked everyone of you here, for all your love and support on the pieces/articles that I have published in here. For all your likes, subscriptions, comments, sponsorships, and upvotes, I can't thank you enough for that. :') Either small or big amounts you have shared to me, I appreciated it all. <3 Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
"Now, while waiting for the Teacher's Ranking results, I am into these platforms. Well, there are times that I get tired but I will make sure to sort things out and never missed this chance to gain a lot more. I am not a greedy one tho, but its for my PARENTS and for myself, especially now that I can provide for them and for myself as well."
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To my parents:
"Ma, Pa, you may not read this but I should thank you because even though I made a lot of disappointments, you never give up on me. Instead, you encouraged me to push myself to my limits and supported me in my works in Read.cash and Noise.cash. I am very happy that I made you happy also, even if it is the LEAST I can do for the both of you, for now. I can't promise anything to you, but I will surely become a doer and give my best shot.❤️
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Telling my parents how thankful I am for all the things they have done for me is not enough. For me, showing it, is much better. After all, "Action speaks louder than Words." All the disappointments I have done, gave me a lot of lessons, which I can use as my motivation to strive for more and in return, make my parents proud of me!
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Thank you for reading fellas!
God bless us all!😇
_renren16💚_
09/04/2021
Ang gaganda ng mga gawa mo.. keep it up! Can't wait to read more of your works..