Preggy Moments

December 02, 2021

There's a challenge that mamsh @Momentswithmatti created solely for Mother's out there as per her article How Did I Find Out I was Pregnant? - A CHALLENGE! . I also want to share my preggy journey.

If you're one of the few who read my past article you probably know that I'm a brat. That I only allow my decisions and it shouldn't be change and I don't believe in marriage also or even having a partner. In short I'm a bitter person.

So how come I became a mother?

Year 2015 was the month that I became desperate to have a child. When I became 24 I became desperate to have a baby that even my friends thinks I'm crazy and weird.
Yes, you can say that. In fact mostly who knows my story thinks I'm out of my freakin normal mind to think of being desperate to have a child.

Actually there's nothing wrong to have a child at that age, if you're responsible enough to nourish it. The crazy part is, I don't want commitments, I don't believe in love and dating. So my friends knows that what I'm desperate to have is impossible to achieve given the fact that I'm a single asshole.

Luck came to me, when a stranger....lol...kidding, when a friend over his eggssssss to me lol!!...end of story about that lol!!

Early symptoms..

First week of October.
I am not monitoring my fertile schedule for I am lazy doing that and I have an abnormal periods, same as I have abnormal mind. So I will never ever know if I was delayed or not.

I'm a fan of Nescafe Great Taste white before, but that day as I prepare to work early morning. I feel nauseous from the smell of the aroma of the coffee that I made. And then I vomited everything I ate.

My elder sister, the one I'm sharing rent with, ask me if I was sick. I told her no because I was fine not after smelling the aroma of the coffee. I brushed it off thinking it's not something to ponder about.

Note: we didn't meet with the man I am with for I was busy that time with work and stuff.

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At work, I became sleepy every time I sit on my area. I can't focus at work for I always feel drowsy. My Superior keeps asking me if I'm not feeling well because I look pale. I just said I'm fine but I always feel like I'm about to throw up every time I smell something unpleasant may it be food or desserts.

It continued for weeks and my co-workers kind of detected it. I expected it to be a sign. But I don't want to celebrate first if I can't confirm it with my own two eyes.

So I bought two pregnancy kit. I tried it on both and it came out with two lines.

I want to leap with joy but I can't because I'm afraid my sister will scold me. I hid it from her for three months. She told me she already knew the moment I became weird. When eating pizza at two in the morning, or when I eat mixed sotanghon and lucky me pancit canton together, and mostly eating more than five burgers in one go.( matakaw is meeeee).

I also had this weird habits of hitting her and then crying instead of laughing because I hit my favorite sister in the world. Or when I watched some movies on her laptop and then delete it after even if she's the one who downloaded it. In short messing with her is my favorite thing while being preggy hehehe.

March 2016 I ended my contract with the company I'm working at. I didn't plan to continue working under probation for I want to focus on my baby first and planned to work months after giving birth.

I went home and told my parents about my decision and since they don't have a choice anymore so I became a bystander at home until I gave birth. Yes the father was also with me during my pregnancy but we don't share bed anymore because I don't want to caught sight of him for I really hate him hahahaha. Maybe that's the reasons why my son is a carbon copy of him.

I don't have preggy pictures for I hate taking one or having taken any. And I hid it from them so I don't want any evidence hahah.

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I keep on laughing whenever I reminisce the crazy old me who became mature and responsible (i think) when my son came into my life. He's my greatest blessing ever received for that year.

I guess I cut it to the shortest I can get hahaha. I guess I'm coming back to my usual self now. I just hope this continues and the anxieties be gone forever...

Thank you for reading!
Keep safe & God Bless!
Fin!