A Bird Yearning for Freedom

August 03, 2021

Independent or dependent? If I ask you about this question, you may respond with different answers and reasons. However, some of you may answer in confusion and may ask, what is the context of the question.

As far as I can remember, @Eunoia I created an article about being independent. He said being on yourself is not that easy and can bring a struggle on the individual if dealt without thorough thinking. I 100% agree that being independent is not an easy thing to do but it won't stop me from doing it.

The Curse of Being Alone and Independent

For almost 19 years of living with parents, the majority of my decisions were somehow influenced by them. The university where I will study, the senior high school strand I will take, how I should perform with my academics, what job I should get, and even socializing – all of that were controlled by my parents. Actually, not totally controlled but they would manipulate me into thinking that my decision is not right. And when something goes wrong, they will start to guilt trip me.  This is why as I grow up; I tend to have trust issues with myself.

I don’t want to make my parent’s image bad for my readers. In fact, I really understand that they just love me and are really concerned for my future, and I am thankful for that. But like you and any other individual on this planet , we seek freedom, to live without being held by others. 

It is natural to human pursuit for freedom. For instance, the Philippines were colonized by the Spanish for 333 years and for that long time, our country had a series of civil wars and revolutions just to be free in the hands of the colonizers.

In my case, I feel like I am strangled in my own home. The words ‘privacy’ and ‘personal space’ are not a thing to my parents, I often find myself in a toxic situation, I can’t do the things and decide on my own, etcetera. This is why I thought being independent in terms of all aspects would be good to me. It feels like I am the Philippines and my family is the colonizers, lol. I am screaming kalayaan!

If I am given a chance to be independent right now, the first thing I will do is to find a house that is suitable to my budget and needs. 

This is pretty hard, I think. Finding a house rent that is budget friendly is scarce. I mean, you can find one but I am not sure with the ambiance of the surrounding. I don’t want to live in a stressful environment because it just voids the main reason why I want to be independent - peace. 

On the other hand, If I continue my plan of going to college this year, I won’t be bothered with the budget because my parents (I think) will be the one who will spend for my dormitory if I choose to live separate from them while studying.

Find a full time or part time job 

Of course, if you want to be independent, you should find a source of income. What a shame if you want to separate but you’re still financially dependent on your parents. 

If I am given a chance to be free right now, I will print out my resumes, as many as I can and pass it to different institutions who are hiring applicants. The more resumes, the more chances of winning 😂. 

Or maybe if I am lazy enough, I can just use readcash and noisecash. Here on this platform you own your time. There’s no someone pushing or forcing you to write. It’s on your freewill when to publish works. Isn’t it amazing?

Given that I have my own home and job, I can finally do all I want including dancing and singing alone.

Yes, I am a frustrated dancer and singer. I don’t really know how to dance- I just go with the beat. I neither sing. I can carry a tune but my voice is not pleasant to the ears. If you hear me sing, I might disrupt and destroyed the whole ecosystem.

Here in my house, my movement is just limited. I am not comfortable showing my goofy side. I just became me when they’re all asleep. If you will put a secret camera in our house, you can see that I lip sync across the room and act like I am that specific singer. Just imagine a singer performing on a stage, I’m just like that. 

So, if I have the chance to be independent, I will have the freedom to show the real me without being judged.

Aside from that, I can finally go with my friends without someone restricting me. I appreciate my parents for not allowing me sometimes to make friend getaways because they are just concerned with my welfare, but I am already 19 and I want to decide on my own. I also believe that socializing with other people and exploring the world will help me to be life smart. 

Living on your own doesn’t mean you need to cut your ties with your family. I want to be independent because I trust myself enough that I can grow more if permitted to go out of the cage. I believe that I have something bigger to offer. It feels like there's a character that's waiting to be unlocked and it's to me when and how will I unlock it.

Thank you to my sponsors, upvoters, silent readers, commenters, and critics for keeping me motivated in writing 💯. I am just a speck of dust floating in the wind without you 

Ending remark:

Hello, thank you for reading my work! This is my last article for the rainy day as I am not able to create these past few days because of busy schedule. Regardless, thank you very much for reaching this part! As a way of saying thanks, click this link for the reward :))

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