This is an answer to a challenge by @JonicaBradley for her Writing Prompt #2: Motivation. Thanks to @Ellehcim for mentioning me in her article because if not there is a high chance for me to miss this interesting challenge.

What motivates me to write?

There is one person who never gives up on me and she is @wakeupkitty. She will inform me about new changes, interesting writing challenges or interesting articles to read on the platform that we join together including this platform. When I read, I get motivated and I guess she notices that about me.

The second reason I kept on writing is that the existence of my favourite authors. I enjoy reading what they read whenever I run into their articles. I am not a loyal reader though. I always remember them but I do not search to read them. Once in a while, I do search for them especially if I felt that they are missing for quite a while from my radar. I started to write My random read curation to make sure I at least have read 5 articles in a week though I am busy with my job. I try to reach as many good articles as I can with the hope that anyone who read them and accidentally put them into the spam section before could release them and they are able to continue writing happily with the chance to earn rewards for their article.

The third reason would be because I need extra incomes to cover my expenses and debts. It might not be much for now but I still have faith that someday, this will make my life become better in term of finances. I believe there is no further explanation needed for this part because everyone wants to be financially free.

The last reason will be because I like writing. I am not sure whether all the things that I have written would make sense to others or will it be able to inspire readers but writing does help me to feel better. Writing can be some kind of self-motivation for me. It also helps me to ease my thinking and reduces stressful thoughts that come to visit my mind.

What motivates me to live?

I did long before tried to end my life. That is an old story of my life but then I did not die. I have three attempts but then all failed. If I died, I probably would not be writing now.

My father becomes the reason I need to live. I need to show him that difficulties can be settled and happiness can be achieved though it might not be the one he expected. He always feels burdened, probably because I am not fully independent yet though I am already married with one child. He is partially the reason I am in debt but I am thankful for his attitude that taught me to be stronger inside. I would never become this strong if I do not want to live just to prove that he is wrong about life.

The second motivation would be my daughter. I need to make sure that she will not go through the life that I already went through. Well, at least while she is under my care because I cannot predict the future. I need to prove to myself that I can be a better parent. I need to know whether all the things that I said to my father is possible. I need to live to prove that life is not as miserable as he thinks it is. It can be better.

Last but not least, I need to pay my debts before I die. I cannot leave the burden to my daughter. I do not want history to be repeated through generation. It needs to be settled during my generation so the next can live at ease with new problems of their own.

Everything happened for a reason.

With all of this, I start to create a principle that I can sow inside of me. I will share a few with you today but I guess you also have principles of your own.

• I will not get anything by doing nothing today.

• If I give up now, I will end up regretting it.

• I can have a better life if I want to.

The basic of motivation is me. If I chose not to let myself be motivated, the motivator will be useless. Motivation first comes from ourselves before others succeeded in motivating us. We chose to be motivated and it is gratitude to the other for making it better than being alone.