A man doesn't love you if...
"Tired of yearning to be loved"
When we are in a relationship with someone, we may show our affections to them in a variety of ways. When expressing our feelings towards someone, any sort of gesture would suffice, such as giving flowers, hugs, and expressing support, giving importance, any sorts of love gestures will do, and etc. There are so many approaches to communicate our love. It doesn't matter if you're a lady or a guy, everyone has feelings and both could get hurt. There is no exception to this rule. We fell in love with someone we genuinely admire.
In each relationship, though, there are Red Flags. There's no denying it, because everyone possesses toxic characteristics. Everyone, including me, has one.
Here are the some of the Red Flags shows;
**A MAN DOESN'T LOVE YOU IF...**
**➧ 1. They only have time to reach out to you during late nights.**
Ladies and gentlemen, please pay attention. Someone who genuinely respects you is considerate of your feelings. The only time it's OK for them to message you primarily at night is if they work a lot during the day. They'll explain why they didn't text you and what's going on. A mature partner would comprehend a simple "hey sweetie, I'm going to be busy working all day, so if you don't hear from me, that's why" or "hey babe, sorry for making you worried, I was extremely busy today."
**➧ 2. They seems confused about what you mean to them or how he feels about you**
If they are confused of what you mean to them, that's definitely a RED FLAG. They did not deserve you, and you would be better off without them too though. True love never has any doubts about their feelings. If they do, then their feelings isn't real and isn't love.
**➧ 3. He gives more energy and attention to any other women but fails to truly find time for you.**
This is seems to be so obvious. If the devote more time and energy to other individuals, yet he never finds time for you, you better leave them. All of your feelings for each other should be respected. If they doesn't do that, they probably doesn't love you at all.
**➧ 4. He says "I love you" but never treats you right.**
It's just a lie when words and actions don't match. Lack of commitment, lack of empathy, proclivity for lying, and an inflated sense of self that might imply narcissism are all warning flags. They want to tell you they love you, but they are unable to achieve so through actions, so they revert to words and continue to not treat you right.
**➧ 5. He apologizes without a change of behavior.**
Why do individuals claim they're sorry but don't modify their behavior? Simply because they aren't sincere. Some people apologize just because they believe it is the appropriate thing to do, even if they have no plans to change. You don't care enough about that individual to make a difference in their actions.
Closing Thoughts
If you're with the wrong person, this might trigger you off. If you're with the wrong person, you can even find yourself making excuses and defending them. And I entirely understand; there will be no condemnation here. I simply don't want you to settle for anything less than true love.
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**Author's Note**
I haven't been and published here in read cash in a long time. I have no idea what's going on in here anymore, but I've finally decided to reactivate this account. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, everyone! I appreciate the time and effort to drop by.
-gojosatoru11
**October 26, 2o21**
A Fourths of my life
Every one of us has faced dangers, may it be a less frightening or could be a traumatic incident but still a danger that happened to our lives, a near death experience. Can accident be avoided? Can we do anything to avoid it?
As much as I would like to tag everyone about this but it's better not to nalang hehe.
Hey guys, how's life going? Anyway, whatever we do, do it with caution. Foresee the future! Stay safe everyone. Today I'm gonna share a fourths of my life.
Introduction to myself
I was once a conscious person, not conscious in the sense that I'm alive but conscious in the sense that I would think everything I do to have a better outcome, in short I don't do half baked stuffs, I do it better. I was a competitive person. Whenever I have things I got interest, I would focus on it and learn the fastest way I can.
My grades was good and I perform well in school during my high school days. I could say I was better since I'm not a lazy a$$ person back then.
I came from a stay-in school were phones are prohibited, well, not just phones, I mean all gadgets are prohibited. No chance to hit internet to search school related stuffs just purely books in library, there are also novels. Our fun are just playing basketball, chess, sometimes swimming, sepak takraw, table tennis and watch movies every Saturday and sunday evening (there's an Auditorium for watching movies) . I mostly spend my free time in those things. I had a good and peaceful life there.
Can you live that life ? Well me? I prefer that life, I even miss those times. That was in my highschool days.
We don't stay highschool forever so the time has come to move out and we are already out of the school's custody, nanibago ako sa life sa labas, kaya nung nakalabas may cellphone agad, natuto nadin akong uminom pero di ako nambababae di ako babaero hahaha loyal to kay @Corpsekunno .
Na introduce na din sakin yung dota kaya ayun na adik sa laro, nakakaadik naman kasi hehe.
The starting year of my college life runs smoothly, my grades are good, I even got a flat 1 grade and it's something that I have to be proud of, well at least that time. Still playing dota after class though. My time management that time is still good and effective.
It was in my Second year college where I was completely consumed by dota, started from playing only on a vacant time to unconsciously missed the class time and continue to play to skipping classes whole day. Fully consumed already. I became a lazy a$$ person and a procrastinator. I started not attending class just to play and only comes if there's an exam, Warrior right? Hahaha but hey! The answers and scores I got are product of my own brain.
Karma
It's about time now karma ask for payback. And it really hit hard hahaha. It was a good day and as usual I skipped class to play and of course with friends. We played morning till afternoon, we enjoyed playing not knowing what's ahead. It was fun and games until karma shows.
*good game well-played*
It's time for us to go home and on the way home karma touched me, yeah, We got on a motor crash. I got up right away like there's nothing happened, my uniform are torn tho. but I feel like my left arm are falling, it is numb. I supported my left arm with my right arm and realized it was broken, my left clavicle was broken.
Slowly pain intensified, it's so painful that my face got pale. I was rushed to hospital and got injected a pain reliever and was just sent home since the hospital don't have a tools or material or whatever, suited for my issue. I was having a hard time changing clothes like everything is so uncomfortable and painful. I was in home feeling the pain every microsecond it gives, and just staying an uncomfortable position for sleeping. Regret was all I had that night. I undergone surgery in another province miles away from home and the expenses were really big, I feel ashamed to myself, I was disappointed to myself. I just threw away the chances they've given to me, still I didn't feel any blame towards me instead love was all I felt.
It was already time for my surgery and I feel nervous, they administered general anesthesia to put me to sleep, I tried fighting it because I want to witness how they did it hahaha, I wanna see while they're working it, I don't know how but I just woke up and they're finish already. it was successful and was nicely done. I have my new buddy, the stainless attached to me. I can finally move like how I used to and I'm super thankful that time.
I stayed for a week in a hospital to heal and then go home.
I was out for about two months, without showing up in school I expected that my subjects are all failed, but still I attended school after not showing for two months, it was only Integral Calculus was left for final exam and I took the exam without studying. It was the only subject I passed in that sem, some are marked INC and I didn't bother to comply them.
It's such a dirt in my TOR, well, I deserved it . I stopped school after that semester and decided to work as electrician, I purposely saved money for the next school year, I thought of having a comeback. And yeah until now I'm still studying and quit dota for good, My buddy is still with me haha and I'm working on myself to have improvements. I'm having a hard time about sorting my subjects tho since that incident messed up my pace but I'll graduate next year and short after I'll become an Electrical Engineer. I'm claiming it.
I'll be back at playing dota when I have a stable life already. That game never gets old afterall.
*Life may tempt us to go in a wrong direction to teach us lessons but life will lead us back to the right direction*
Maximize safety everyone! That's all.
Reminiscing the past
I was tagged by @Corpsekunno about the challenge getting to know you more better : when I was a kid. This article gave me determination to accept it since it'll take me to the old me and will give me a nostalgia feels, It's nice to reminisce the past, the happy past.
Made Friends
I made friends mostly in school, and mostly my friends in my place are my friends in school since childhood friends are in the age range so we got to school at the same time. That made the "making the bond" a lot easier. It's the place where we spend the most of our time so no wonder they have a huge part in our life.
Fishing
https://www.google.com/search?q=fishing&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwjVne-Gr_jxAhUGspQKHe6qDuoQ2-cCegQIABAC&oq=fisinh&gs_lcp=ChJtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1pbWcQARgAMgQIABANMgQIABANMgQIABANMgQIABANMgQIABANOgQIIxAnOgcIIxDqAhAnOgIIADoFCAAQsQM6BAgAEAM6BAgAEEM6BwgAELEDEENQtIcLWLKNC2CzlwtoAnAAeACAAcYBiAGZCpIBAzAuN5gBAKABAbABBcABAQ&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-img&ei=Mkf6YNW8BIbk0gTu1brQDg&bih=750&biw=393&client=ms-android-vivo-rvo2&prmd=inv#imgrc=c5Ch9Lg3y5GgwM
We live by the sea side it is expected that we would do fishing.
We would get a bait, usually a worm that we could get just in the shore and find a perfect place to fish. Sometimes we would ride a boat to fish since at young age we already know how to row. Whether we catch anything or not, it's fine since we enjoyed fishing and continue the bond later by swimming all day.
Rubber band
https://www.google.com/search?q=dampa+lastiko&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwijxqOvrPjxAhUB7JQKHVOLAPYQ2-cCegQIABAC&oq=dampa&gs_lcp=ChJtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1pbWcQARgAMgQIIxAnMgQIIxAnMgIIADICCAAyAggAOgQIABBDOgcIIxDqAhAnOgQIABADOgUIABCxA1DKnCZYwKMmYMqvJmgCcAB4AYABwgKIAbkJkgEHMC40LjEuMZgBAKABAbABBcABAQ&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-img&ei=YUT6YOORH4HY0wTTloKwDw&bih=750&biw=393&client=ms-android-vivo-rvo2&prmd=ivmn#imgrc=MjbblCYPj41BIM
This was my favorite when I was a kid, It's my forte and my friends would be scared of me to be their opponent since I'm one of the best in this game at least in our place. I could multiply my few rubber bands from to hundreds or even thousand and sell them, 20 pieces for one peso hahaha, I made a money out of that to have a snacks. I even thought that when I get old will I still have the urge to play this? And sadly as we grow old the interest in the game diminish.
Mountain climbing
It's so much fun climbing the mountain to get some fruits fresh from the tree, the fun doesn't limit to kids though but yeah we have done it.
Any fruits we could get like guava, santol, avocado, coconut and many more. There's even a time where gathering a firewood became our hobbies, even that became fun thing when friends is your company.
Recreational Activity
https://www.google.com/search?q=patintero&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwjB0-Ccq_jxAhVGbJQKHfzDDh8Q2-cCegQIABAC&oq=patin&gs_lcp=ChJtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1pbWcQARgAMgIIADICCAAyAggAMgIIADICCAA6BAgjECc6BwgjEOoCECc6BAgAEEM6BQgAELEDUPzfDlj66Q5gtvIOaAJwAHgBgAHrAYgBtAiSAQUwLjUuMZgBAKABAbABBcABAQ&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-img&ei=LkP6YMGEDsbY0QT8h7v4AQ&bih=750&biw=393&client=ms-android-vivo-rvo2&prmd=ivmn#imgrc=_LrMcaCtO2GqBM
I have played many Recreational games maybe almost all? Just maybe haha. From "buwan buwan" and invasion game "bahaw bahaw" or I don't what's the term in your place, to Patintero in the middle of the road late at night. That time there's still less vehicles so at late at night there's just seldom vehicles will pass, and if there is, we will just pause and let it pass then continue but now there's already so much vehicles will pass late at night at full speed.
The fun they give is incomparable.
Hunting Spider Late at night
Yeah you read it right, we would wander in the mountains late at night with our flash lights to catch spiders late at night, it's the best time to hunt since they just sleep in web, it's a lot easier.
I remember once, we we're chased by a cow because my uncle ( just 3 years older than me) tripped from the leash of the cow and it chased us hahaha. man, frightened as well as fun was the feels that night, luckily theres a leash haha. The leash was the sword and the aid, life saver haha
And that same night, on our way home my uncle again nearly stepped a snake, it was just between his legs slithering not that big though but I'm ophidiophobic. That night was so much fun and excitement.
When we get home our parents were on the outside of the house with other parents who was also finding their sons which are with us.
Hey hey hey! Are you curious? Hahaha! Of course we got scolded! hahaha.
Closing thoughts
There's so much fun in our childhood days , mostly happy moments, pure happiness, no worries , no serious problems. It's good to reminisce the past, we could only wish we could turn back time to those days where we are genuinely happy but that's all we could hope for, wish. Those experience we had, it'll be a story to be told to our children and to our grandchildren, sharing the golden experience we had which they could hardly do since technology is evolving, their childhood way will be different from ours. Maybe the only thing the story to be preserved is to continuously share it from generations to generations and maybeee just maybe, they'll reborn that.
Travelling over the past through reminiscing is so nostalgic that I wanna go back to that time. But life isn't just "past", we live in present and we will live for our future, let's make our "desired" future happen and make it a "past", and again a new story to be told.
I am homesick and I wanna be home
Each one of us has a story of falling in love deeply with the person we can live with forever through ups and downs, thick and thin, storm and calm and through happiness and sadness, the person we call home. What is love by the way? Is it found in looks? Or attachment in just a short period of time? Nope, maybe an infatuation. Love is when two souls merges with an unbreakable bond that when forcefully separated, it'll hurt so much and leave a huge mark that you will carry for the rest of your life. Is this what's happening to me right now?
I met this girl in early january of 2020 in a certain app, I was bored and tried that hoping it would relieve me from my boring days. Hooking a partner is out of my intention, I just really tried it because I feel like it's nice when no one knows you in a certain place. My purpose was fulfilled and I had a great time there just posting my thoughts, the burdens and etc. in a semi poetic way, sometimes lyrics of a song that would fit the mood. I don't care about what others would say since they don't know me. However I'm just any mortal and weak person who have emotions. We exchange facebook and began interacting there, we would exchange voice messages of us singing since she has a nice voice, she also knows how to play guitar, even better than me. I really love her voice. From frequent exchanging messages and voice messages it turned out that it's not just her voice that I love, I now love the whole her and so from months of doing the same, on march 07, we became we. I love her so much in fact the longer our relationship is the more it grows, I had taken out of the equation the thoughts of having another girl and never in my wildest mind that I would end up with another girl, just the thought of it makes me sick. The only thing I found in my future is we and I would like it to be like that. She is my home, my comfort zone. She's the one that I wanna grow old with.
Of course like any other stories there are fights and arguments due to misunderstandings but we would make it through.
We are now a year and 4 months, and things seems not going well. It pains me just thinking of the problem and here we go again with the feels. Every night feels like I am continuously falling from an Abyss, so dark and gloomy. And I know she's in pain too. I'm sorry. Did I just lost my home? Did I just lost my shelter? Did I just lost my comfort zone? Things really doesn't always go your way, harsh life it is but despite of all the things that happened I still want her at the end, I still hope that it will be a happy ending, I love her so much after all.
*Wherever life will lead us, know that I love you so much and will continue to love you forever. If things really get hopeless, I want you to look at the moon every march 07 at exactly 9:36pm, we will be looking at the same time to commemorate the things when we are still together. But right now I am homesick and I wanna be home.*
PS: this event/story is purely coming from my mind.
" Jeg Elsker "(the continuation of this norwegian title is the last word of this Sonnet, do connect it and unfold the whole message)
Idée fixe happened in mid of July
You are; to hold dear most feverishly
Oh brilliant, I'm delighted like the sky
You are my alter ego, completely
Your anthem of heart is mellifluent
Profound and wondrous is your walzting mind
Those tantalizing eyes gives an ardent
A speck of light in your warm smile, I find
The stars align, the moon shines - there it is
The promt drop of my muted, wayward heart
Universe collides, intertwining this
You, the sun - it rises, my most-loved part
Millisecond of everyday, it's you
Even if it pauses, constantly, you.
-Lipovitan
My Story: The Brutal Mind-Exhausting Game
Many of us have our own passion, things that we mostly have interest. We also have some things that interest us for a short period of time and later on when we appreciate the beauty in it, we explore that thing more and before you know it you are already spending a lot of time to it and even took the alotted for your time to rest. more and more we slowly feels like it'll become a passion.
As an elementary kid all we want was to enjoy ourselves playing with our friends outdoor running around and exhausting our bodies, the fun isn't limited to outdoor stuffs, we would go watching TV together and sometimes playing dama or anything indoor games, all the games that makes us enjoy we would explore it although I seldom find these things now. It was at the same days where I got introduced into the game called chess along with playing guitar.
I was with my father to buy some stuffs needed in the house and as we roam around I found the "board" yes, a chess board I stared at it and won't let my eyes go, I want to bring it home
- "*Pa, chessboard oh*"
my father replied " *kamao diay ka?*' (do you know how to play it)
*"di pero gusto ko magpractice* "( no, but I want to practice)
*osige kuhaa* ( okay, get it )
After paying for the things we bought we went straight home and as soon as we reached home I opened the board immediately and yeah, I didn't know how to arrange the pieces haha unlike dama where the pieces don't have the distinct position as long as of the same color of square. My father knows some basic of it so he taught me how to arrange the pieces in the board as well as the moves of each pieces. There and there, at that very moment we played, my mind was still confused of the moves in each pieces nevertheless enjoyed the game, obviously I lost haha. I continued exploring the game and finally I don't have trouble of moving the pieces anymore, I'm already familiar with the moves of each pieces and not long after I challenge my uncle and got mated at 4 moves by the famous scholar's mate, my jaw dropped that time, was it even possible? Well it was haha, we played couple of games, we would play the game the whole afternoon and among those games not even one was won, the ability gap was just too high. But despite of the loses, I learned something. I won't fall for a cheap trick Scholar's mate anymore.
Like any other things, the period of interest diminished and I seldom play the game in my highschool days, of course the ability didn't improve as well, I brought the freezing ability up until now I'm a college student. The best thing is that the urge to learn came back and I'm fascinated with the beauty it gives. there's more to it than what I originally imagined, there's so much variations / possibility for a 64-square board.
The game is so complicated and we can't deny the fact that there are many players who is way ahead than us. Some are gifted where they learn fast and reach Grandmaster in early age, some may even be 10 years old below. Knowing it makes me think there's so much to learn. I consider myself as a beginner striving hard to become a strong player. I still can't beat my uncle though, he's also improving fast haha.
Many have said it is a boring game staring at the board for hours with some wooden/plastic pieces sitting on it but do you call things boring when your mind is active at most and still makes you want to play it? Do you call it boring where there's two brains clashing in the board? Nope! It was the opposite. You are forced to decide for the best and your opponent as well too. That makes it a brutal Mind-Exhausting Game but the fun it gives is incomparable.
CRISPR; Humanity's greatest discovery or humanity's greatest downfall?
INTRODUCTION
Imagine yourself meeting a person in a cafe just to have a chitchat, a chitchat where the topics that are out of the world, topics that are exclusively for high IQ's that everyone around you would drop their jaw listening from your conversation, and not only on the conversation but also on your appearance. You are not from the same family or not blood-related but you two are identical, when I say "Identical" I mean literally identical, everything between you are identical from head to toe including the fingerprint. Except maybe for the outfit?
BRIEF EXPLANATION OF CRISPR
C - clustered
R - regularly
I - interspaced
S - short
P - palindromic
R - repeats
CRISPR is a family of DNA sequences found in the genomes of prokaryotic organisms such as bacteria and archaea. These sequences are derived from DNA fragments of bacteriophages that had previously infected the prokaryote. They are used to detect and destroy DNA from similar bacteriophages during subsequent infections. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/CRISPR
We won't go over the acronym as well as the internet meaning of the CRISPR, I'm going to break this as simple as I can.
CRISPR is more likely the immune system in our body.
bacterias and viruses inject RNA or DNA to your body and overwrites your DNA.
which eventually will kill the cells if we don't have an immune system.
HOW CRISPR WORKS
When Bacteria or Virus infects and injects DNA, the Cas9 along with the guide RNA(gRNA or the CrisprRNA) sniffs the DNA injected by the bacteria/virus and delivers it to the matching target ( your DNA). The viral/bacterial DNA sticks around the target DNA(your DNA). Though along the journey if it sense that it's a harmful DNA, it will automatically kill it.
Think of a taxi, taxi driver and a passenger. Regard the taxi as sa Cas9, the taxi driver as the guideRNA and the passenger as the foreign RNA. The driver then fetch the passenger and takes to the destination safely although if the passenger is a criminal, it is most likely be killed in the journey.
However, human's curiosity doesn't end there and think of pushing further more as to purposely injecting DNA desired to alter. If it succeeded then current's unbeatable disease will be a no big deal already. It will be a huge leap of advancement humanity will take.
ADVANTAGES AND DISADVANTAGES
The fact that DNA can be overwritten amused me in any way. The outcome of possibilities of it being discovered is boundless and among the possible possibilities may be an advantage or disadvantage to humanity.
Advantages may include curing any sickness, altering the color of the eye, improving one's intelligence , skin color, etc. In short all the things that DNA holds can be altered but things , choices, decisions discoveries comes in a price could you even think the level of intensity of distruction incase global war is lit? the egos of each since people tend to think they're better than anyone? We are slowly entering a period where people can be modified and my mind seems not ready to take it all.
The readers are free to think of the possible disadvantages, the discussion is open.
Are these things have blown your minds? Do you think advantages are more than the disadvantages? The possibilities are boundless and hence it begs the question, is CRISPR humanity's greatest discovery or humanity's greatest downfall?
@gojosatoru11
