Life is a gift that is appreciated.
Greetings my dear friends of read.cash. Today I am not going to tell you an inspiring story, I just want to write the trivia that is in my head.
I think I've been struggling a lot in all these years I've been writing. I'm writing different pages at the same time, one side and the other, and I think many here do too, but there comes a time when like today I'm feeling tired.
My mind, my body, is asking me to take more time for me. To take my days a little slower, because the effort is disturbing my peace of mind.
I am also in a time of mourning, seeing how some of my friends and colleagues die gives me a feeling of emptiness in my heart.
Grief is something normal to live because it is a feeling of loss, of detachment, of seeing how people who mean something in our lives are leaving this plane.
I am a person of faith and I am grateful. I pray to God for my deceased, for my losses. I thank God for the time He allowed me to be with them in this earthly life. I thank Him for having known them.
Paul the apostle of the Most High says in one of his letters that death is gain. Why? Because it is when we will go to meet the Lord and 'stand before his face' which is what we all want. The thought of God's promise being fulfilled as everything he says in his word is fulfilled comforts us.
But knowing that only fills a space in our hearts and it’s what makes us gradually fill ourselves with strength to endure the losses.
It’s hard to see and feel that this person who was with us for a while is no longer with us and prayer calms our pain and absence.
My dear friends as you can read I am not feeling well at all, because my heart is full of pain. When my friend died I was convalescing with disorder for having eaten a bad dinner, so I had no strength for both of us.
My grief is repressed in my heart. I feel it tight with so much desire to go out and cannot. She died in another country, she offered her life for others and those others gave her this terrible disease. She has already died, there is no presence of the body, no last farewell, no meeting with her relatives to express our feeling of union to the mourning, there is only a repressed pain in my heart.
That's why I didn't want to make an inspirational post, because today I am in mourning and like everything else I know this too shall pass. As it passes I live it and suffer it. Now I share it with you.
Those who are living this feeling of mine will understand. You know that this too will pass, because everything passes, but while it passes it hurts, it squeezes and squeezes the soul and leaves an empty space.
Because when someone leaves who has been an important part of our life, they don't leave alone. He or she takes a part of us with him or her, they take with them the memories and experiences that brought us together, the graces, the disappointments, the moments of pleasure.
Because when someone leaves, he or she also takes with him or her a part of us, that part of our love and that part of our heart where the memory of what we have lived is kept. That is why the heart is torn, why it has been broken, why it has been taken away.
And while that wound heals in our heart due to the detachment, we mourn the wound, the separation of that piece of our fiber and we hope for a very quick repair.
My dear readers, I am grieving, but I am also confident in the promise of our Lord that we will see each other again, today it is her, tomorrow it is me, then the others and we will see each other again.
I hope I have not disturbed you with my litanies, perhaps tomorrow I will be better, today I only wanted to write my pain. Tomorrow I will write again my joys.
Thanks to all the sponsor renewers like my friend @Pantera and to all those who still support me.
I could only imagine how you feel right now, and I really admire your strength. You are a big surprise inspiration to alot of yong people here ma'am.May the good Lord heal your broken heart and mend it with layers and layers of joy and and strength. May the souls of your dearly departed ones continue to rest in the bossom of our Lord .Amen