Another blog is up. I have a question to all of you, have you ever lost a someone? Not literally gone (if you know what I mean), what I mean is that a person who is so close to your heart and then suddenly both of you went back to stranger. In just one blink of an eye, all the good memories you’ve spent together are totally forgotten. Sad right? But I do believe that “People always come and go”, they left a mark in your life though but it could be good things or lessons to learned.
I can sense that most of you thinking about your past relationships 😅 but you know what is more painful is when you lost a friend, a very good friend (supposed to be). Let me share to you my story.
I had a very close person in my previous work. We we’re so close like we shared everything that we had; money, food, clothes, things, etc. Others may see us as a couple, well honestly we really acted like one sometimes but for us it’s normal. Even at work, we helped each other. Like if she’s having a hard time with the task, I’ll be the one who will do that for her (even though it is against the company’s policy) and vice versa. We are always together at work, outside work and most of the time she’s at my apartment otherwise, I’m the one whose in their house. I really cared for her like I will make sure that I will do my best to keep her safe, help her with her problems in life and be always with her. I believed you notice something already 😁, why “her”? Let me tell you something about myself. I am proud to be part of the LGBTQ community. I’m a bisexual person.
So going back to my story, for 3 years that we’ve been together both of us are single. What happened was I met someone (which is my partner now) and then suddenly everything had changed. It’s seems like she don’t want me to be in a relationship. The saddest part is she even posted something on her social media about it like she said that my relationship is a joke. Like, why in the world she could say that. I know to myself that nothing will change even though I’m in a relationship because I explained to my partner everything and she understands. What my partner did was she’s always supporting us which I somewhat realized she’s just like the “third party” instead. Which later on I apologize to my partner and she forgave me though because she understands our friendship with her. She witnessed how close we are in the office. So after that incident, that’s it we are back now to stranger. Honestly, it hurts me the most. It is more painful compared breaking up with your ex, I swear. Like we never talked after that.
Fast forward, 3 years already had passed and still we never had contact not until today. Our mutual friend told me, she asked where am I currently living and makes me smile though that she still remembers me. Maybe you might wonder if given a chance that we will see each other and talk, is there any possibility to make friends with her again? My answer is, NO. Maybe sounds cold hearted but honestly it is still a no. If she’s really my friend, why she did not support me? For 3 years of no contact, why now? I’m happy with my life now. I’m done crying with her, yeah I cried of course but I moved on. Life must go on. So if ever we see each other, maybe just an acquaintances. No more, no less. 🙃
Lesson is that we should love our self more. No one would love you more than you. Yes, value people but if they made something bad that will totally hurt your feelings, forgive but never forget what happened. Okay? 😘
That’s it, loves. Thanks again for dropping by. I hope you are not bored while reading this 😁. I wrote this because of our mutual friend. Just want to express it here not in my social medias because you know, a lot of people there are judges 😅. ‘til next time.
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August 23, 2021
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