Give a big break, SELF

March 15, 2022

7:22AM

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Hello lovely people here in read!

Happy Humpy Tuesday! How's everything so far? Hmm. Mine is great since today until Wednesday is my rest day but currently I have been busy these days since I am packing my things now because I'll be going back to Cebu CIty for probably one to two weeks. As I said last time, we will be working in the office for quite some time and one of our clients is there and we will be having a one on one meeting with him. Anyhow, I'm still happy for these two days off and for my job since I can still sustain all my needs and family needs.

Anyhow, I've been in my province of Bohol for almost 2 months and honestly this is somewhat a big break for me for everything that happened in my life in the city. Like, I am much better and more calm and at ease since I've been here. It's really true to try a new environment if you really want to be stressed out, this is my biggest tip of all. Maybe you wonder why I mention "new environment"? This is my province, right? It's all because I spent all my adulthood in Cebu city. I've been living there for 10 years and I'm not really familiar with the cost of living here in our province. Aside from that, I don't have any colleagues here at work, it's literally me, all by myself. 

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I do have a lot of self realizations while staying here. One of them is "it's really YOU who can help YOU". I am an extrovert who normally loves to be surrounded by people. I had been always relying on my happiness to other people which is a big "NO". As one of my favorite vlogger "Alex Gonzaga" said that "You're not getting matured if you are not losing people". This is really all true because right now, I lost a lot of people in my life. Not just my ex partner but a lot of so called friends of mine before. At first, I feel sad because as I said I'm an extrovert person. But now, hmm I love to be alone instead or otherwise, spend more of my time with my parents instead. I remembered one of my close friend and of course up until now @Carewind said to me last time, maybe there's really something from me that needs to be fixed and it's only me can solve it and you nailed it and I thank you for that, both you and Begel. I owe you two a lot, I'll catch up with everyhing. I promise that. Going back to my self realizations, let me share this with you all:

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Being Alone does not mean you are Lonely

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To be honest, it is one of my biggest realization here that being alone is okay. There's a side of me before that I am scared to be alone. Like, I thought I can't make anything without anyone sorrounds me. Please don't think of that I'm an attention seeker. No, I'm not. Is just that I thought it's more okay to be with friends always that being alone. If you know what I mean. I spent more of my days with friends by traveling, drinking and other not so good stuffs but of course I don't have any regrets of those,  I swear. It was one of the epic days of my life.

Spend more time with family

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For the past 10 years I was away with my parents, I just often went home to see them. I can say I am really not a good daughter with them. Even though I have two days off which I can always go home anytime, I ended up not to. I can really say that I am truly a bad one with them before. Though, I gave money to them every pay day, it is still not good enough because they are really getting old now, both of them. My mother is 60 years old and my father is 65 years old. So as much as I can, I would love to be with them. Give my full attention and supports to all that they want.

It's okay to block or stay away with people that can cause your mental breakdown

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If you noticed the word "people", meaning to say it's not just my ex partner but a few people as well. On one of my social media like Facebook, I had around 2500 friends and now, I only have 1763 and more down to go. It maybe sounds like over acting "OA" but to me it's not. I'd rather unfollow/unfriend them since I barely knew them too. I unfriended some of them not because we had a fight or something but probably because their posts are somewhat toxic for me and sometimes causes my mental health. Most especially in POLITICS. My vote is already for this person but I'm not bragging him or telling everyone that I will vote for him. It annoys me seeing people bragging their candidates and ended up saying bad things to other one. Like hello, who are we to judge? Do you really think that if your candidate wins the election, they will help you personally? Lol. For me, as long as I am good abiding citizen in our country, paying taxes and stuffs, that's already good for me.

See, my big break was not all about heartaches but also all about self problem that I need to work on. I'm really proud to see, I am getting better. I have moved on from my past and eager to work on for my future. I hope you all too. 

Thanks again for spending some of your precious time with me guys. Yaay, been consistent for three days already and to more for this. More articles to write on and more time with you all, virtually. 

 I need to continue packing up my things guys. Until next time.

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Ciao,

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