It's the last day of April and like on the previous end of the month I am making this article as a recap but unlike my previous articles every end of the month, this one is not about my earnings and not about my Bitcoincash journey but it is all about what happened on my life in this whole April.
This month is a tough month for me and for my family. April welcomed us with sorrows and tears when my grandmother passed away last April 2. Some of you guys know that I always write about what's happening in my life here in read.cash and it's like my online diary where I can share my thoughts and feelings.
Death is just a temporary goodbye.
I wrote here what happened to my grandmother and all she's been through before she passed away. We never had a chance to say goodbye to her because after she died she needs to be cremated because she was tagged as positive in Covid 19 but the true cause of her death is Pneumonia.
After the death of my grandmother , another challenge came into our life. It's when my son acts differently like he was seeing something or heard something. It's also the time that we talked about the ghost in our house or maybe my son saw my dead grandmother. As a first time mom I don't have any idea what happening on my son and I have no people to asked on what to do because my mother left the house.
Been so scared on that moment.
I search on the internet about the related topics that I found with the keywords I have search and it's a little helpful in some point. I also ask other moms like me and found out that the other child of my friend also experienced it and we thought it's a part of development. I do my best to take good of my son and gain back his activeness and energy. My husband and I also prayed for my son and we do it every until our son will be back to normal.
With the help of prayer and also of the people who I reached for help , my son back to his activeness but not 100 percent because until now he was afraid on the bark of the dog and the sound of the chicken but it's not like so worst than before like he always wants to stay in room.
Another article that I have made was about forgiveness. I thought of this topic because of my mother who committed mistakes to my father. My father accepted my mother again because of the request of my younger brother but after a couple of days she leave the house again without saying goodbye.
Forgiveness:Another act of love
My father wants only one thing , he only want my mother to say sorry on all the sin she did but she didn't do that instead she thought about her pride and leave the house again and go to our relatives and spreading fake news there about my father but even if she do that we already forgive her but like the glass who have been broken. Our family will never go back to like before especially the trust of my father. Yes , the forgiveness is there but it doesn't mean that he can give his trust again to my mother because that's a different thing.
Aside from my mother who gave stress to us. There's another stress coming from my younger brother who was not responsible enough to his life and always thought that he can seek help to other whenever he asked for it.
As a eldest among my siblings , I shoulder the responsibility of taking good care of them even if I have my own family but sometimes all of the understanding have limits. I am just a human and I also feel tiredness and when I published this one , I almost explode. I am so stressed on my family and our situation to the point that I just cried so heavy one night just to release the heavy feeling I am carrying. Because of being stressed and anxious , my body already reacts and collapse.
I got sicked because of stress but even if I am sicked I need to continue life because if not , who's the one who will take good care of my son , my niece and my father who is recovering on the motor accident that time. I need to be strong even if I want to give up and take some rest. Good thing I am a loving and caring husband who's there for me and take good care of me.
I don't have a choice but to continue life.
As of now , my I am not feeling well and I am recovering to my condition. My taste is back little by little and my worries is also fading little by little but I still wear a facemask for the safety of the people in the house which is my father who is senior citizen and my son and niece. I practice to eat healthy foods such as fruits that rich in Vitamin C to boost my immunity and lot of water with lemon.
Just days ago , I had an another anxiety which is separation anxiety. I missed my grandmother from time to time. I found myself crying every I though of her.
Until now I still missed her , I want to talk to her just like the old times.
I will end it here and looking forward for month of May with positivity because I am a May baby 💚
Pytings lng momsh... lilipas din ang bagyo at magbubukas ng magandang bukang liwayway