Time isn't enough.

Date: February 09,2022
Author: Sequoia

"You will know if you are totally healed. When you no longer shed a tear evertime you talk about that thing."

Time heals, as they say. But is it really the time? Or the acceptance and realizations that you get, along the process of the thing we called "healing".

Physical wounds tend to heal faster in accordance to its severenity. The shallow ones heal faster than the deep and wider wounds. However, despite of being healed, we can't deny the fact that it will surely left a scar in your skin that proves the wound's existence.

Same goes with the emotional wounds or brokenness. But unlike with the physical ones, emotional wounds usually take time before it totally heals. In fact, there are cases that instead of healing or improvement, things just become worst.

So, maybe, time is indeed a big factor in the process of healing. However, time alone isn't enough.

Today, please allow me to disclose to you all the things that helped me conquered and achieve the total healing that I've been hoping for a very long time.

I think I've already shared this specific experience of mine here in readcash. I just can't recall when and the title of that article.

Howbeit, I will give you a short story about how I got my deepest scar and the 4 things that I did in order to overcome it and became stronger than before.

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Deepest Scar

• Nope, it wasn't a physical scar that you are thinking. Oh how I wish it was. The scar that I am talking about is found in the deepness of my soul and the center of my body. My heart. I was more than broken. I felt like I was shredded. It was the most devastating event in my entire life and I really thought that I won't be fine again. But by God's grace, here I am, ready to tell you my greatest testimony.

• I was molested by our landlord's assistant. It happened way back when I was still in my first year college. As a new girl in the city, my biggest mistake was to trust other people right away. I will no longer go into detail but that moment really broke me into pieces. I blamed myself and shut everyone out of my life. I isolated myself and cried my heart out every night. The only person whom I asked help from was my bestfriend. Atleast, I have one person who knows my situation no matter what happen. That's what I had in my mind back then. My family was clueless, but I know, my sudden behavioural changes, made them worried.

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Four things that helped me Conquer

• Prayer and Devotion

These are my first resort the moment I experienced it. I cried it to God. In fact, I've came to the point where I questioned Him. However, I have realized that the Lord never forsake me at all. It's just that, He can't control anyone. Still God is good. He didn't let something worst than being molested happened to me. Prayer has been my moment of releasing the pain and agony that I've been keeping inside my heart. The Lord gave me strength to overcome. He reminded me that it wasn't my fault and I am still valued. If it weren't for God, I am surely gone by now.

• Acceptance

As what I have said, time itself isn't enough. As a victim, acceptance is very hard for me. How would I accept such event? However, as the time passes by, I have realized thay without acceptance, I will never heal. I accepted that it happened and there's I can do that will changed it. Unless, I choose to move forward.

• Sharing

My bestfriend and other spiritual mentor played a very crucial role in my healing. I have realized that isolation would just make things worst and so, I decedid to open my door again and started sharing what I feel inside of me. I know, sharing serious things like this isn't easy. That is why, always choose the people whom you can trust and help you overcome it.

• Forgivenes

This is the hardest thing that I've ever done. Forgiving the person who hurted and broke me is the hardest thing ever. However, I know in my heart that I will never fine the true healing without forgiveness. And I did it, not just for that person, but for myself as well. I wanted to be free and let go of the baggages that I've been carrying. And so, I decided to forgive by God's grace. However, forgiveness doesn't mean that you should reconnect with that person again okay? It's not what I mean.

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Author's Viewpoint

It took me more than 2 years before I was able to say that I am totally healed. To all the people who has the same situation as me, I hope, I somehow help you. I know it is hard, but please, don't ever get tired of yourself.

P.S: This article was created because of my conversation with ate @Jeaneth in noise.cash.

P.P.S: Photo mot related.