Rusty, Foods and some Problem Talk
I also noticed Rusty's absence the other day. At first I was fine but deep inside I am already thinking because it's been 17 hours already since his last visit. And to tell you the truth, I totally forgot that this kind of thing already happened before for a lot of times already. My forgetfulness is really wow on the past few days, lol. But when I remember it I was like "Ahh, yeah it is just like another rest day. Rusty will surely come back again after that picnic." Hahaha, I just treat it like that. He's having a "me" time too, lol.
And you know what (◍•ᴗ•◍) instead of feeling lazy or demotivated because of his absence. I will become more active whenever that happens. To show that his absence is not enough to make me loss focus on my goals and that is to read article everyday and interact my friends. And actually, I am more affected by my menstruation than Rusty's absence. It's not like I don't care. It's just that I know he will come back. And really there's nothing on my brain in the last few days but food and food and food.
And how broke I am that I can't eat all of my cravings because I currently don't have any cash on my wallet, lol. And my problem ended yesterday when I decided to sell $4 worth of Bitcoin Cash even in dip because my stomach and mind can't take it anymore, lol. My mind and heart is fighting wether I will withdraw or nah but the dragon inside my stomach is much more annoying that I didn't think much and just go with it lol. I should be withdrawing on August 28 but I my katakawan can't wait anymore, lol.
Why suffer if you can just pinch on your savings a little - just a little okay and not that much so that you can still have more savings in your wallet lol. And I am happy that I did it. I am not regretting it. Why would I? If the dragon inside of me is dancing on happiness with all those foods I munch, hahaha. I mean, life is too beautiful to be stress on those problems that we can solve naman. And life is too short to be sad all day. So because my happiness is very important I did what I think is good for my mind.
And nope I am not just making an excuse here to eat what I want - hmm okay well partly yes but it is more on solving the problem that I can solve through doing the things that can make me happy - and my tummy (◍•ᴗ•◍), eheheh. My tum tum is connected to my brain and my brain won't function well if my tummy is not full. So better solve it this way because I think it is still reasonable. Hmm, let just say it is just like - if he don't feel the same way then better just move on and live yourself. Don't dwell into it too much and forget him. Problem solved.
So, ahhhhhh okay whatever I don't know what I'm saying anymore. Let just say that I deserve foods so I withdraw my money and now I am happy again hihi. I'm living my life to the fullest with these junk foods. You can tell that I'm a fan of Clover right? It is one of my comfort food that really comfort me whenever I want to be comforted. Sure a cuddle can comfort anyone too but no one will cuddle me so I will just cuddle myself with this finger lickin' good clover and clover. Simot sarap! Nyurmmm! Being happy in this world is very important.
To some, happiness just won't come to them. Even if they want to, they just can't because they are bombarded with a lot of problems that it feels like it's infinite. Problems after problems. They can't feel the happiness whenever they will solve the first problem because another problem will arise again. Like seriously it's like they are just walking in a very secluded place but they will still ended up in the same place no matter how far they walk. It's hard when you don't know how and when will it ends. So if you have a little reason to be happy, then be happy. And SMILE.
Don't ipagdamot that to yourself. TIME!
IT'S JUST another random blog ehehe. It should be just about my baby Rusty but it will be short if I wrote only about him so I just included whatever comes to my mind. It's fun writing whatever the bumabagabag in your head right? Just letting your finger so the work while your mind is wandering to the unknown.
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August 23, 2022
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Sa akin hindi sya absent pero isang bigayan nalang hahaha point something lang minsan. Hahaha! Pero oks lang kaysa wala diba. Babalik rin. Ang masigla na rusty.