Off "Corpse" I Love You!

Hi! I am Jason. I am Embalmer. It is my parents job actually that I also become one. But that's not my main reason why I like that job. Yes I learned to love it too despite my disgust of that kind of job. At first I can't really take dead bodies coz the way my Parents dissect the body of those corpses is sickening. I even thought I develop a phobia because of it. But one time while waiting for my parents, they arrive with a dead body and in a stretcher a corpse is lying. I think it's not even an hour since that person died base on the redness on her foot. I saw it. I also saw hoe smooth the skin is of that body.

I got mesmerized that while my parents is busy preparing for the tools they need, I on the other hand is busy examining the body of that corpse. I didn't feel anything at first but when I touch and felt in my hand the smoothness of that body's skin I can't help but to feel elated. A sudden rush of feelings flow in my vein. And I just continue examining the body of that corpse. I am running my finger to it's skin like I am just tapping the board in a piano. Carefully and with rhythm. And my hand reach that thing that is sacred to every woman. And because of curiosity I decided to open the little fabric that is covering that sacred "thing".

I almost lost my breath grasping and also because of what I saw that very moment. It is the most beautiful thing that I ever seen in my whole life. What I saw that day made me a little bit dizzy that maybe because of this feelings that grow inside of me. I can't explain it but I like this feeling. What I did that time is the most unforgettable. I am in hurry because my Parents might discover what I am doing but I think that what's added to the excitement that I am feeling. It is hard to explain but it is the feelings that I want to feel and experience again. And that day, I lost my virginity to a corpse. And I want to do it again if given a chance. I will surely make it happen again.

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And this is where the unexplainable love that I felt to a corpse started. I let my parents believe that I like embalming a corpse just like them. But they are wrong with that thought. It is no not that I like it, but the subject on that job is what I love. I can't do anything with it. And, no one will sue me to what I am doing coz they are already dead. They are dead but even so, I make them experience such happiness that I am sure they will never experience in hell or heaven. I do them some favor. And while having this job I discover that cold bodies has more effect to me than the warm bodies. It makes me feel more alive and excited.

And doing this job is the best ever. I will never replace this to those high paying job that I can get. Money can't give me this kind of happiness so never. I thought I will never feel the feelings that I can get to this. I thought oy dead bodies can make me feel this excitement but I was wrong. Because of this woman. A widow and the wife of the corpse I am currently embalming. I thought the bereaved should be sad when a family leave them because of death. But this woman is not. I can't see any sadness in her eyes. More like she is a dead inside without feelings. She's still young and very beautiful but there's is nothing in her eyes. She is like an empty shell.

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I thought I will never see that beautiful widow woman again. But one time while I was busy preparing the tools for the dead bodies that was delivered to me. The unexpected visitor visit me. And it is her. I am wondering what she wants with me I am actually happy. Maybe I develope a little crush to her? Not sure but I find her really pretty. I am even imagining her while having a date. Very different to what I always thought when looking at the dead bodies. I thought that time I really like her. I even courted her. And we become a couple eventually we got married. I thought that is the happiest time with me.

I stop doing things to those dead bodies. I just suddenly felt tired doing it. There's no thrill anymore. And I am happy with her now. But after just a year of being together, I also get tired of it. And then I started to look for those things that I love to do when I am just an embalmer. I want to to back to that time again. But my wife won't allow me. She never said it before of made me feel anything with my job but she said she hated that job. She also said I don't deserve to be in that lind of place. And that's where I started to resent her. How dare her, insulting the job I love to do. I got mad at her and killed her.

It was an accident that happened while we are fighting because I want to go back to my old place. And while I am resisting I just saw her fall to the staircase. I got scared and so I brought her with me to my place after I cleaned up the place. I know she don't have a family anymore so I am sure no one will look for her. I thought I can still save her but once we reach my place and check on her, I just find her lifeless on my car. Still as warm so it is not an hour yet since she died. Maybe she died on the spot to her house. I don't know what I am going to do with her body but then a memory from before reappear and I was delighted.

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Yes! That feelings! That feeling that I miss. This is it. I thought I will never feel this again. I thought I loss my love for this job but no. It just hide after seeing her. But I got it again. I just leave my wife body in the table and ready my tools. I leave her there for 12 hours. After that I cleaned her body and face and remove all of her clothes in her dead body. I can't help myself from admiring the beautiful body she has. She really has so much care for her body and that's why I like about her. And just like the first time that I discover that I have a fetish for dead body I started to admire it more by doing the things I love to do with it.

The feeling that I am inside with thr dead body is enough to make me feel more hot. This is different to those what I felt before. This one is more hot than it. Maybe because she's my wife. And she's only mine.

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Written Date: June 07, 3022

Date Published: June 15, 2022

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