Peter In The Deep.
He said "even though I don't know the way out, I will continue to act like nothing happened and perhaps I drown in this deep blue sea. I have had enough cups of this blue water being served to me, I am not scared of drowning and by the way, who cares?" These were the words of my friend, Peter. Truly, behind every clothed human is nakedness. Everyone has their own story to share for everyone has their share of life.
Peter and I have been good friends since our secondary school days. He was one of the friends that have stayed while others left. He has been a whole vibe and an energetic person even to date but since the inception of our friendship, I have noticed that he doesn't talk more about himself. When it comes to himself, he only talks on the surface, nothing deep.
At first, I thought he was just being unserious about his life but he has ambitions so I erased that thought about him. Peter was born into a comfortable family of six, he has three sisters and he was the only son too. His parents were high-rank civil servants and they could afford all the family needs to be comfortable.
Peter and I attended a boarding secondary school and he was everybody's kind of guy including the seniors and teachers. When we resumed for the then 2012/2013 session, we started our preparations for the secondary school certificate examination, although rumours had it that a female teacher had eyes on my friend, Peter. I didn't believe it because I don't know why a teacher will have such feelings for a male student. Even though I noticed that Peter and the said female teacher were quite close, I took it for mentorship because other than mentorship, there should be nothing that would make a male student and a female teacher THAT close.
Immediately after closing hours, Peter would find his way to the staff quarters without informing anyone about it and when I try to ask about his whereabouts, he would tell me that he was either in the juniors' class or the table tennis court. I wasn't a fan of table tennis, so I wouldn't know if he was lying. It was when he decided to open up to me years later that I realized that he wasn't lying because he wanted to lie but due to fear and shame.
He said the teacher had instructed him to always report to the staff quarters immediately after school before other teachers arrive at the staff quarters. The first time he was instructed by the teacher to go there, he thought she wanted to send him on an errand around school until the teacher expressed her emotions to him. He said she told him that anytime she sees him, she loses focus and she always feels like Peter should just grab her, kiss her and sleep with her.
Peter said he was trying to comprehend what she was saying at that moment only for him to look up and see his teacher naked before him. He pleaded with her to allow him to go, he told her he wouldn't do such to his teacher. She then told him that she will do the job herself, she then grabbed Peter, and forced him to her bed where she pinned him down with her body and raped Peter!
After the incident, Peter was warned by his teacher never to tell it to anyone and he must continually report to the staff quarters after school, this went on and on. He was threatened that if he dares to tell anyone, she would ensure he was expelled from the school for a crime he didn't willingly commit. Peter had no choice but to dance to her tune.
This occurrence drained Peter's energy and he lost focus on his studies even though he was still trying to be himself, but really, scars can never be hidden. Teachers started to complain about Peter's grades and he tried studying harder but he just couldn't focus. The Secondary School Certificate Examination came and went. Everyone went home until it was time to check the results.
Everyone came back to school to check the results, although it wasn't only Peter that failed his exams he wasn't just part of those that I expected to fail. I was disappointed in him even though we still kept our friendship. His parents were disappointed in him too but who knew that it wasn't his fault? "Despite the plans I had for you, I can't believe you couldn't pass your examination once, you'll have to resit for the exam with your juniors in the same school the following year" his father said. Peter pleaded with his father not to make him go back to the school, he even begged his mother to plead with his father but his mother said "You should have passed your examination once if you know you didn't want to sit with your juniors."
Peter explained that the issue wasn't about sitting with his juniors but his issue was going back to the school he left but all his pleas fell on deaf ears. How would he explain to them that he was being harassed? His parents have always told him to be a man, how would he express himself to them? His ego as a young man went down the drain with it.
Peter was made to go back to school, the harassment continued and since it wasn't new to him, he was able to cope this time. Luckily for him, time flew and he passed his examination. His parents were happy for him but deep within Peter, he was sinking in the blues. He was a sad and depressed soul but he had to move on with life because who would believe him? He got into the university and this time around, he was the one having sugar mummies (older women who pry on sex with younger ones) around him.
I thought he had gone wayward and I've even decided to cut off the relationship between us but before I made up my mind, I decided to call his attention to it. At first, he didn't want to open up but I was finally able to earn his trust and that was when I heard his part of the story.
Till now, no one knows about Peter's story except me, although he has permitted me to share his story he isn't ready to leave the path of life he is used to. He still doesn't know the way out and all his parents want for their only son is that he succeeds in life. Truly, success is good but what about the deep blue sea that he is drowning in? When will they have time to have a deep talk about life with him? When will they be able to earn his trust and understand his story? What will be their reaction? Society wants a man to be strong, so who would believe his story? He thought to himself many times too.
I have read many life stories, what it gives, the inbalances and all, I have judged many actions thinking the actors are wrong and insensitive but I have come to realize that I am the insensitive one. The truth is that experiences make each and everyone out there. Shall I speak of how the world has been stereotypical too? Placing value on one over another. The girl-child is this and that and the boy-child is this and that.
The fact remains that both genders need the same energy; the same energy you give to a girl-child should be given to a boy-child. Never tell a boy child to "man up" while telling the girl child to express her feelings, it doesn't work that way. Every male child is a Peter, Pet-her (in this case, Pet him), pity-him too and let them know it's okay to be embarrassed and cry. Behind every male is an invisible "FE" which stands for feelings and emotions. Men are allowed to hurt too and we shouldn't always tell them to man up even when they are crumbling inside. Who doesn't need help?
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Awww this is so serious nowadays but before I didn't hear of female raping a male, but nowadays the whole world has really turn to what we don't understand anymore. I can vividly remember one of my friends who once escape from the same problem, and what surprised me most is that the woman in question was a married woman, and I wonder what could cause a married woman to involve in such act. I really feel this is totally wrong.