Your pain

Dear Mary

I understand how you are feeling right now, I know your skin has been stretched out with weariness and exhaustion, it's been a long year and you've survived so much.

I know you are so tired right now and you want to huddle in bed now instead of taking the stress to write this.You have changed, I could feel your struggle through out the whole year, you started this year with skeptical talons with an uncertain direction yearning to achieve a purpose.

You've been bruised with scars in the process, you open your heart to all and was left with a broken, grieve, and betrayed spirit, but you let go. You let go of friends who didn't stay because they lose you, you don't lose them. You have to stop fighting for irrelevant things by letting it go.

You've chosen not to be a failure who couldn't do things up, instead, you choose victory by not holding God responsible for not fixing your problem because you see possibility in everything around you by clearing the doubt and being smarter.

You have gained so much and you've lost so much, you've learned how to be patient with life, you've learned how to listen, you've learned how to ask questions which helps you to solve the puzzle along the way, you've also learned to be credible, and I'm proud you learned all this yourself. You've learned that all your passion, your fears, and your dream are all yours and they are not symptoms of illness. Be strong dear, you're beyond your illness.

You've learned not to blame yourself for any bad occurrence, you've learned to forget the irrational feeling, the tears that's twirling down your eyes, the tiring sweating day, the hollow moment, the uncertain moments, the panic tackling you from nowhere, you have learned that all those downhills and rants won't define you.

People who left you and whom you left for good won't define you, their deficiency won't define you either, you have to look forward to things that define you, which is hope, love, and you. You define you.

Your struggle has refined you to be a better you, you've given yourself hope to stand again on your talons to oversee your wound. You are a strong lady growing stronger each day to overcome all your battles, you're a survivor and not a victim, you're a warrior in your own time because a warrior doesn't give up.

The distress and pain you are passing through are not your faults, you don't have to blame yourself. Feel it's okay and you'll gain the strength to move on. It's okay to be in pain, it's alright to say you're in pain. But you should have it in mind that you are not your pain, you are not your scars, the scar nor the pain is nothing because you are more

Remember that when you fight enough, you don't have to find your way alone out from the darkest part, you don't have to hide in shame, you can always call people to help you out so that you'll not sink. It's very important because you've been squabbling.

Look at you! you're just so strong to overcome the hard year, you keep on hopping in the dark place for you to survive, even when you felt broken, you still believe in your worth. That's more to say to yourself.

How did you get to know all this? It's because you're still here, you're still pushing, you're so brave to see yourself beyond your pain and you never stop to inquire for knowledge. Girl, you are amazing!

This is letter to my humble self, while writting this , I feel so strong within my self, I did not plan to make any post because I'm not feeling to good, I've been suffering from migraine for the past three days, it it becomes worse anytime I tried to read or I want to operate my phone, I've been managing to engage with other writers , just few people.

i was about to lay down my head then I decided to write this before going to bed, presently I'm still having a slight headache, but I believe I will get over it....I believe I will get over it, I just feel like writing this to make me stronger. if I've not been visiting your post as I ought to, you just have to bear with me, not to easy for me to read while having migraine and at the same time still be active here, I cannot but read because of my exam. I tried to rest for the whole of today, I still wake you having the same feelings, but you know what?...

I'm greater than my weakness...you are always in my mind, love you all to the moon and back to read.cash

byeeeeee, I have to sleep now.

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