This line welcomes me whenever I visit Facebook. It's in the section where you want to post something, anything. I am not sure what am I going to respond about this because there are actually a lot that's going on my mind. I've been thinking about my future, my career, my family and myself. They are renting all the spaces in my brain these days. I am the landlady but I can't make them go away even they give me nothing but stress.
As I write this article, I am really struggling what word to type next. I am too occupied with thoughts. A lot of them that I don't know what to choose. How funny when you have plenty but can't choose any?
Hmm, well, I think I should start with something that I love. FOOD.
This morning, I woke up early and had a quick walk around the neighborhood just to say that I do exercise. I brought my phone with me since it's too boring if I will just walk with nothing to carry or nothing to look at whenever there's an unpleasant situation. While walking, I scrolled on Facebook and saw one of my favorite snacks. It's Crinkles! How can I unlove them?
This has been my favorite ever since I was a child. When we were still living in Manila, my grandma used to buy us crinkles every morning and would allow us to include it in our snack/lunch box. I don't know but this snack is always a favorite.
There are a lot of bakeries selling crinkles here in town but they don't give me the satisfaction I got from that bakery in Manila. Maybe because it's cheaper in here. It's fine though. Better than nothing. But, I will always look for the fluffiness and softness of the crinkles I used to eat before. Not the hard and chewy ones.
Anyway, it did not rain today. Aweee! I am very sad because the rain is the only visitor I want to see. It's so hot again today that's why I was not able to sleep soundly. I kept on changing positions which I think I am comfortable but still, it didn't led me to sleep. That's why I decided to read articles and just write anything though I am not in my best mood.
My friend, @Murakamii.7 and I are also chatting about everything we can think of.
I chat her almost everyday because I am bored and I need her to give me updates about our applications just in case I miss an update. She's the one I would always ask because she's updated with everything. Lol! I miss our late night talks in the boarding house and her sleep talks as well. I wish my problem would be over as soon as possible so I can go to work again and see my previous board mates and eat together with them with our favorite appetizer, ujap. 😂
I was also thinking about moving to another place because I want to breath freely like no one's watching me. Being here in my boyfriend's place together with his family is good but not comfortable. They don't allow me to wash the dishes when I am used to it at home. Me not doing it gives me the feeling of uneasiness. I don't know but my instinct is telling me they feel disappointed about me because I didn't wash the plates. I am also too shy to go to the kitchen even when I am hungry. And when I buy something, I felt like I need to buy something for them too but I am hesitant to buy again because one time I bought something for them but they didn't eat it. Not a single bite.
I am not so sure about this though but I really need to decide for my welfare. What can you advice?
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