My biggest flex

How are you lovelies? It's been a while. I miss it here. I've been busy for a week because my baby Clea likes be nurse all the time unlike the previous month. She likes to be carried and loves to sleep in between the arms of his father. The time she's awake is also quite longer than the usual length of time she used to be awake. Is it what we called growth spurt? Because she seems like not getting full of my breastmilk. She would still want to latch even if she's full already and some milk are coming out of her mouth. I also touch her fists and they are already wide open and they say when they are open, babies are full already.

By the way, I tried to give Clea formula milk because I want her to recognize it and get used to it because next month, I am planning to go back to work. I really don't want to leave my baby but I need to since her needs are growing as she is. I want to spoil her everything she needs. After all needs are different than wants. I want to give Clea the best of life because she's my first and last baby. As much as possible, I don't want to get pregnant again. Well it's just because I only want one baby there's no other reason.

First, I bought bonna because moms advised me to try first the affordable ones then to the expensive ones. I tried feeding Clea with bonna but she's not liking it. Everytime she latches her feeding bottle, it's like she's going to throw up because she doesn't like the taste. She doesn't want to latch again after tasting it but we just let her try again. Sadly, she's not into it and I can tell too because her poop is kinda more watery than the usual. We actually tried it to her three times but the scenario is still the same.

Last night, we bought another formula milk suggested by a friend because her baby likes this milk too and she's also mixed-fed. We bought nestogen and tried feeding it to Clea. It's better than Bonna because she latched it continuously but then a minute after, she began to act like throwing up and will cry after. When we tried again, it was like she was choking. I was thinking if it's because of the nipple hole size. Perhaps the flow is too much for her. Is this normal if it's baby's first time drinking formula milk? Because if yes, we will buy another milk which is the expensive one. I guess I need to wait too for her monthly check-up this December 20 so I can ask her pediatrician about it.

My biggest flex

My daughter is my biggest flex. There's no one in this world that can replace her not even her father haha! Clea came from me and we have that special bond no one else will ever experience. Seeing her healthy and growing made me realize that I am doing a great job as a first time mom. Although my very first month is a struggle and I had a lot of breakdowns, I am still happy because I overcome those. I thought I'll be forever a paranoid mom. Experience is really a great teacher.

I really want to thank all the mommas here who helped me when I have questions regarding to nursing a baby. Your knowledge about it really helped me a lot. Thank you momshies for always cheering me up. I cannot mention you all but I am sure you know who you are. Clea and I are very grateful to all of you.

I really can't forget the help I got in this platform when my Clea was hospitalized for 7 days even she was just 2 days old back then. My baby is so strong for she fought her infection, low sugar and inability to latch. She received a lot of medicines and injections which led her to convulsion and we almost lost her that time. We are so blessed that God made her so strong and for giving her angels. I know God was there all the time healing my little one. Thank you again, read.cash fam for sending your help financially to my Clea. I will be forever grateful about it.

I thought I can't forget that sad memory because I almost lose myself too. I didn't care about my health that time. Blessed enough to get through it all without my anxiety acting up.

Looking at Clea's photos made me remember what she was like before and I can compare to what she is today.

The photo above is Clea when we got home from hospital. She was just 9-day old there. Since she's just 1.98 kg when I gave birth to her, she's so little and being there in the hospital for 7 days made her even more little but she's still beautiful in my eyes. During this time, I was still afraid to hold her, to carry her. I wanna be with her and hold her in my arms but I chose not to because I don't want to make a mistake when I carry her. So I just laid beside her, crying and praying that she will grow healthy and her infection will be gone forever.

But now look at her. She's a big girl with chubby cheeks. She can even play with her eyes lol. She's turning two months this December 19. With that, I am planning to save my earnings today and until the day before her 2nd month because I want to buy her cake and a monthly milestone attire. I want to make her every month memorable and special so she will see her photos when she grows up. She might not remember all the memories but I do and I am keeping those memories in my heart forever.

This would be all for now. Stay safe mga mamshies nga maapektuhan sa bagjo. Well, as of now it's kinda sunny in our place like there's no typhoon. Let's all be safe! Love lots. 💕

Thank you fam for supporting me. I may not be able to respond immediately but I promise I'll make it up when I have the time. Thanks to my sponsors and to those people who upvote my posts. You guys are big help.

I am also thankful to sis @ExpertWritter, ms. @Bloghound and sir @TengoLoTodo for the sponsorship renewal. I am very honored to have your support.

And one last thing, can you help me welcome my friend, @Valjosh09 He's a newbie here and I want him to meet you all. ☺️ Thanks!

Ciao! ❤️