And I panicked again

As I am writing this, my hand are shaking because I am worried and afraid. I never knew I would feel this way as I live. I was nervous before but not as nervous as now. I realized that being a mom is not a joke. And now I understand why moms over react whenever their babies got sick. We really don't understand the feeling whenever our baby gets sick but what we really wanted is to for them to get well as soon as possible for the fear of losing them is always in our minds.

I included in my article yesterday that here in my boyfriend's place, we are all sick except from Clea. I was really careful whenever I am nursing her because I don't want her to get sick too. We even wear masks when we get close to her. We even always check her body temperature and she's fine.

This morning, Clea was still fine. Her temperature is normal and she's lively as she is. I even let her cry during morning because that's our daily routine. She doesn't refuse feeding too that's why I didn't worry. Her temperature is also below 37 °C. But this afternoon when my boyfriend checked her temperature, it was 37.8 °C which is considered already as fever. Me as a first time mom doesn't know what to do aside from giving her paracetamol. I even covered Clea with blanket and put her cap on which is not right. I chatted her pedia but she didn't reply for she's not online. And so I chatted my friends here who are moms too.

I chatted mommy @Zhyne06 and @yhanne for they are my friends on Facebook. I asked for an advice from them because I know they have been through it. They advised me to get a towel and soak it water (with a little vinegar) then pat it on Clea's armpit and other part of the body that is hot. I followed them immediately. After an hour, Clea's body temperature gets low. It became 37.5 °C. However, it was unstable. It will go up to 37.7 °C then go down to 37.4 °C. But I am a little bit happy because it didn't go up above 37.7 °C. I chatted my aunt as well and she advised me to put kool fever on Clea's forehead which I did.

As of now, her temperature is 37.2 °C. I felt so relieved. Hoping that it won't get high again.

Her grandfather (boyfriend's dad) making Clea feel better.

I am now planning to take Clea to my grandparents' home as they are not sick there compared here in my boyfriend's place. I also have my sisters there who cam nurse her as well. However, we don't have an electricity there compared to here, we have generator. I'm now confused. Dear God, I hope Clea gets well already.

I also observed that most of the people nowadays are sick. Maybe it's because of cold weather and continuous rain. We are not yet over with the typhoon but not here is this rain making floods and landslides to some places. Why this has to happen? We should be happy because it's the start of New Year, right?

Dear Almighty, please heal our land. Please include my baby Clea in your prayers too! 🥺