Day 20 of 356- Nothingness, and a short poem
20th of January 2022
It’s the 20th day of the new year, I didn’t realise this until I took a look at my calendar and realised how quickly time flies. I was born just yesterday, and yesterday (5 months ago) I joined this platform; time went by so fast and here I am. I remember the happy new year scream and celebration of a new year. Everyone wrote resolutions at some point in their lives- “at this date I’d do this, and at this date I’d do that”. Today is the 20th, and how far have you gone? A lot of people simply write goals and intended achievements out of excitement and emotions, without considering if these resolutions are realistic, if they’d work, or if they are plausible based on environmental factors and state of things. Today is the 20th and so many haven’t begun chasing their goals, they keep procrastinating, keep telling themselves today is only the 20th and I still have 345 more days to chase my goals. Long story short- begin now and you’d be glad you did!
I do not intend to be a motivational speaker today, neither do I intend to jeer anyone up into being better persons. I’m simply passing by, while stating my observation. We’re all at some points guilty of the above-mentioned scenario, after all we’re all humans. Point is- it’s not too late to begin, if you have not begun to work towards your goals for the new year, I’d suggest you begin now, it’s better now than never!
Enough of new year resolutions and blah blah, let’s talk about me- I’m my favourite person hence this should be about me.
The weather here at Ondo state has been weird since I arrived and been finding it difficult to adapt. It’s been cold since I got here, I sincerely didn’t expect this kind of weather but here I am. I’ve had to cover myself up completely each night so I wouldn’t freeze to death, been boiling water before I can take my bath, while also putting on thick long-sleeved shirts all the time, my socks is a part of me, so I need not mention (I put it on every time), but I need to get new pairs if I intend to survive this cold. The cold is not a huge problem for me but the dryness of air, this results in a lot of dust. I’ve got a very sensitive nose hence I can literally smell the dust in the air. My nose has been itching ever since, thus I’ve been putting on a facemask every minute and hour of the day. I only remove it when I’m going to bed so I wouldn’t drown in my sleep lol. The air is so dry that I almost used up an entire tube of moisturizer this morning in a bid to keep my body moist. Unfortunately, it keeps drying up as soon as it is applied on to my skin, almost like this moisturizer is sinking into my blood stream as soon as it is applied. I had to give up at some point and decided the quantity I had on me was enough. My body feels whitish like a ghost from a Yoruba horror movie, hence I had to seek an alternative- Vaseline. If only I could get a glove, I’d feel even better because my skin is too sensitive, especially to dust, hence my hands being exposed feels really weird and dry, almost like no fluid exists under the skin. My laptop is so dusty that I can literally see the dust all over it. I had to scrub the entire surface yesterday, especially the screen and keyboard, yet the dust is back once more, thus looking like it hasn’t been cleaned in days or weeks.
I feel weird about all this, the dryness of air is killing me, the dust is making things worse, but it looks like I’m the only one complaining. No one else in the house is talking about it, it’s almost like they simply flow with it like it’s nothing but for me it’s a big deal. My nose has been itching, my skin has been feeling weird, in fact I’ve been sneezing for about three days now, hence the face mask as a preventive measure. Taking a walk down memory lane, I realise that I’ve always been weaker than other children my age since childhood, I get sick easily, spent more time in the hospital than I can remember, needles have pierced my skin so much that the pain that comes with piercing is now negligible, plus have always been allergic to a lot of things. This allergy is the reason I have to put on socks all the time, while also ensuring I stay away from dust by every means possible which includes using my face mask all the time and avoiding body contact where possible. You may find it weird, but I do not like being touched except you’re special, or in inevitable situation.
Today, I intend to take a walk down the street so I could get new pairs of socks and gloves as a preventive measure from dust and all things dryness of sir which is killing my sensitive skin. I’m tired of this weather, a sign that this country isn’t for me. The cold isn’t the problem but the dust and dry air which makes my nose itch. I’m all about making myself feel as comfortable as possible and no holding back!
Surprisingly, this is the end of todays article- it may not make much sense but here I am! I’m my own favourite person, hence writing about myself shouldn’t be a crime… Lol!
A random poem I wrote out of boredom.
“Disclaimer; I know it makes no sense so don’t judge me”
“In shattered dimensions I find myself, the past and future combined,
But the future a paradox of uncertainty untold.
For a stroll down memory lane I wouldn’t refuse, but in deep space I find myself staring.
More difficult it becomes with my knowledge of its existence in high definition,
Metacognition- Metacognition”.
Your poetry is exquisite! Love it!