What I Hate Being A Woman
This visitor of mine is giving me a sign that she'll be here near soon. It seems like yesterday from its last visit and now want to stab me again. Hays! It's going to be a bloody week! Grrrr!
If only I can re-schedule it to the year 2030, or forever it won't come, I will be glad, but my body will get complications if those filthy blood won't come out. Hays!
My whole body feels swollen today, that every time I move I feel hurt. I don't have a fever but I'm so hot. The pressure inside makes me feel weak. I wish to be a man just for 1 year to escape this monthly visit! (sigh)
I bet other girls also hate this feeling. Swollen breast, abdomen cramps, get dizzy, and feel headache. Everything is annoying when this menstruation is near. My vision is spinning and I want to spew. I put my cats in their cage today because I don't want to see them moving.
I remember when I was in my 2nd year in college, I went to school even I'm not in my state because it was our exam day. My guy friends didn't know that I'm on my period. They thought I just have a bad day and they want to make me laugh. They didn't leave me till they don't see me smile. They created corny jokes that well, got me.
I want to curse them that time. I'm laughing while I'm crying. The current of my period gets stronger every time I laugh and at the same time, my abdomen gets hurt that's why I cried. I told them to stop but they still laugh seeing me crying while laughing. Haha.
The exam was done at 12 noon and we don't have class right after. So I ran quickly outside the school and waited for a jeepney to go home but still, they don't leave. They ask me to hang out. I told them I'm not okay and they say "We know that's why we're here to make you happy. Let's go to the mall. Let's go to the arcade!" (Lol! They are so childish that time even we were already in college. Haha until now.)
My sweat falls like grain and my body feels cold even the sun is striking outside. My knees are shaking and at any moment I will fall. I feel dizzy seeing them talking and I didn't take it, I vomited.
They panicked. They quickly carried me back to school and bring me to the clinic. Lots of students saw us and I heard they are talking about me. They said I collapsed because I'm pregnant. Lol.
Even I feel so weak, in my mind, I'm cursing my guy friends, especially the ones who touched my butt when he was carrying me back to school. I know it was not his intention but they know I don't want to be touched. I heard one saying "You're dead pre! (buddy)"
I didn't talk to them for 2 weeks because I'm super annoyed with them. I blocked them on Facebook and leave to our group. They keep apologizing every time we have class. They also offer their snacks to me but I ignore them. They are very naughty childish that's why after 2 weeks of resenting haha I forgive them. By the way, the guy friend who said "You're dead pre!" is my boyfriend now. I told you he is my mortal enemy before. Haha.
I'm super moody, weak, and unproductive when the sign of my period comes. I just want to sleep and no sound will hear but sad I have a feeling king and queen neighbor who acts like they own the whole building where I live. They are very insensitive to other tenants and get mad when others do it to them. I'll be suffering here for 1 more year because the house we get in Bulacan needs a fence first before I move out for my safety. Gaaaad! I want to leave this place and live peacefully in the forest!
This is just my blog rant for today. Hehe.
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