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That is actually the first lyric in a song "Somewhere down the Road" by Barry Manilow. I can really relate to that in my situation right now that's why I wanted to express my thoughts about that lyric. But before that, you may first check the song itself. I loved that song it's very pleasing to me since I'm also an old soul.
Here it is. You may play it while reading this. (Credits to YouTube.com)
In life, we cannot control on what destiny leads us. Because if we can, for sure we will have a perfect future. It's not like a picture or a video that we took on our mobile phones or any gadgets that we still have the right to edit it and will just show publicly those beautiful captures and will just eliminates those unnecessary or isn't a good or a nice pictures or videos. It's really not like that.
Can we control our feelings? I don't think so. Maybe the actions we can but the feelings, it's a NO for me. Maybe other things we can able to control it. But in terms of feelings we can't. Just like for example, ANGER. We can control our actions even though we're angry but controlling our feelings we cannot. Still we felt angry but the actions to show that were angry we can able to control that. SADNESS. We can control our actions to be sad. Were even smiling even though we're sad. But the feelings we felt which is sadness is there. Were just faking our actions but our feelings we cannot fake it for sure, we can say we're happy but deep inside were not. We can say, we don't love the guy anymore but the truth is we still do. They may say, were enough but the truth is we weren't enough. They may say, were beautiful in front of them but the truth is they will say the other way around if were not already in front of them.
Therefore, we cannot fake our feelings. We just able to fake our actions. Since feelings were uncontrollable but actions can.
In LOVE, it has a difference in my case, our case with my partner. We both didn't control our actions and feelings.
The main reason is that, we both created a big responsibility not knowing the impact on it in the future.
I got pregnant knowing were both not yet stable. I just graduated college the time when I got pregnant and still don't have a work. Actually, I had a work right after I graduated college since I was hired in a private school but just resigned after a month because of some complications in my health due to pregnancy. My partner that time were still a student and up until now. He's still in 4th year college doing online classes. We both know the responsibility we will be facing after pregnancy but then we still choose the intense of love we had. (charot ang intense, Lol I don't know what other terms to say Basta Yun na Yun haha bahala na kayo diyan)
The responsibility I'm saying is the fact that how can we both provide the needs of our kid after pregnancy knowing that we were both unstable. That's the reason why I'm saying, we had the right love at the wrong time. I remember my partner told me before, I was still pregnant that time. He said after hearing the song "somewhere down the road", "Beng, you know what we had the right love at the wrong time." Then I just glared at him because I knew what he means. But then, as what I've said we cannot control love as well as the situations. What we can do is faced the responsibility together. Because we can't bring back time. What's done is done. All we need to do is to think things we should do to provide the necessary things for our kid.
At first, since my partner's parents already both in the afterlife. Thankfully, I had mine. My parents were the one beside us at first. But it's not all the time that we should depends on them since in the first place it's not their responsibility, it's ours. Good thing y partner is a scholar, w e received his stipend he bought a computer set for me to be work online at the same time for his online classes as well. With that, I was able to work online since I already moved to his hometown. Then his also doing gardening and sell the veggies that he can harvest in the garden. I also had this read.cash whose lots of big help for us especially now that I'm not teaching online because of some circumstances but of course to be able to continue providing our needs especially for our son. Here I am seeking for another job and I'm already applying for it now. Hopefully I'll be hired.
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