Some Things I Want To Change

July 11, 2022

You probably have to meet Chinco, my partner for the recent Ecency-Dreemport Challenge.

Thank you, Janey. That was his response to my 2nd-day post about him. Nigerians are really cool, aren't they? I met a lot on another platform and added more to my list from this platform. They are everywhere, spreading their wittiness and awesomeness. And I like their natural sense of humor and honesty.

In his recent post, I was asked a set of questions that I owe an answer to.

What's your favorite food?

I used to love sweets such as ice cream, cakes, chocolates, and more. My favorites are Filipino-style spaghetti, Filipino-style salads (any kind), and mango-graham cake. I like making sweet foods as well. In our country, I used to prepare desserts during special events like Fiestas, Birthdays, Christmas, and New Year.

However, those favorites just became my guilty pleasures when I found out that, I have lactose and gluten intolerances. The symptoms are still tolerable though, but annoying. And I know that, if I keep eating forbidden food over and over again, it would impact my health negatively. So nowadays, I eat sweets occasionally and moderately.

I am into a healthy diet now, but sometimes hard to maintain, especially when the food in front of me is enticing 🤣. But I like eating vegetable salad now instead of sweet salad, steamed food, and other not-so-seasoned food. I realized that healthy food is yummier.

What genre of songs do you enjoy?

I love music, any kind of genre, as long as it is not noisy to my ears, rap, and rock music for instance. I don't like the deafening ones. Although they're a kind of art for others, for me, they aren't music anymore, but rather noise. But sometimes, I can go along with the flow and would dance along with the beat of rock music and rap songs. It depends on the occasion. But I only like them when played at parties.

I mostly like those with soothing melodies, the chill ones, not so noisy, but relaxing, the pop, RnB, and even classical ones, lol. You'll find me boring though 🤣. I just don't like too noisy songs.

Do you have pets?

I don't own a pet, but we have a lot at home, cats, dogs, parrots, and fish, including some rabbits, goats, and chickens. We even have ducks and pigs before 🤣. My father is an animal lover, so don't wonder if our house is like a farm. We have, not just pets but a lot of plants too since my father has a green thumb. So our place is like a mini jungle 🤣.

But the pets I like the most are cute dogs, tamed ones, naughty is fine, but not the fierce-looking big dogs, I am afraid of them due to an incident in the past (a long story to tell). I like furry dogs. They seem huggable and cute.

If you could turn back time, what would you change and why??

I know we can't turn back the hands of time anymore, nor change something in the past. But if there are things in the past I want to correct and change, they are the wrong decisions I made (in the financial aspect) and my unhealthy lifestyle back then.

I mentioned in one of my posts that I've been saving cryptocurrencies for more than 2 years now. They were saved for my future and I thought, the more I collect, and the longer I hold them, the bigger returns I'll get. Of course, that is possible. However, in the recent crypto market crashes, I realized that it's also best to save more fiat, not just cryptocurrencies, and take as much profit as I can.

I did a lot of mistakes in my crypto investments and I lost a lot too. I had a lot of chances to recoup my investments and get some profit, but I was too weak to let go of my assets because I thought they'll grow more once I hold them longer. Unfortunately, I just lost more instead. I feel like my efforts were just wasted.

Looking at my portfolio, it's too red and it is still uncertain when the crypto market will recover so I could recover my losses too. I hope it's not when I have white hair already, lol. They are supposed to be the fruit of my labor in blogging, trading, and investing in DeFi. But I can't see them anymore. I thought I'll gonna have a million worth of crypto (in our fiat), but I only lost a lot. I was too close to become a millionaire, but an unexpected and unfavorable crypto market crash happened. Not just once, but many times.

And I need to wait longer again to see the seeds I planted growing. sigh I'll be going back to my homeland two years from now, and I hope that my portfolio will turn green again by that time. It's a lot of time to save more though before I become jobless. I just need to make my crypto asset management more effective. I should be practical this time.

Another thing I want to change was my unhealthy lifestyle in the past. I'm not getting any younger anymore, and the consequences are now showing up. Sometimes they make me uncomfortable, and they are concerning.

It's not too late though to make it right. That's why I opt to make my diet healthy too by scraping my favorite off my diet. I'm still rewarding myself with some sweets sometimes 😅, but moderately.

It is still hard to stop sleep deprivation though. But how to? Maybe if I'll stop my online side-hustles. But that's too tough to do. Adulting is really a pain in the ass. The most complicated and challenging stage of life. You can't do things you really want, as there are more priorities on the list. Less rest, more grinding. But at least, I am giving myself some time to unwind on the weekend. That's the only way I know.

Another thing I want to change that I forgot to mention in my post is being too introverted and shy. I was too shy in the past to the point that I wasn't able to do some things I wanted and reach some goals. Applying to a company I wanted was one of them. I was this person that always think ahead negatively and wasn't confident with my skills and knowledge. There were always a lot of what-ifs in my mind, especially when seeing people that seemed to be better than me. I felt too weak, so oftentimes, I ended up giving up some of my goals and dreams.

This is something I want to change and I've been working on it by socializing with others once in a while. Interacting with others through blogging and facing the camera also boosted my confidence a bit. Traveling also helped me a lot to overcome my shyness and fear of facing other people. Oftentimes when I travel, I don't care what people will think about me. I just want to enjoy the place. Through that, I am boosting my confidence and not afraid to face the crowd anymore.

So don't hesitate to step out of your cocoon, acknowledge the changes, go with the flow, mingle with the crowd, and face the world confidently. We are all humans, so why be shy? We are all beautiful and skillful in our own unique way. We just need to unleash our gifts and appreciate life.

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