Facing The Biggest Fear (Of Some Questions and Answers
May 18, 2021
(Drafted this before I started the 30 Days of Gratitude Challenge, so I guess, I have to post this first.)
Life is full of questions and some have no certain answers. There are hypothetical what-ifs too that often make us contemplate the answers and regret the wrong decisions we made. Contemplate and regret the times we didn't choose to do things that are supposed to be done as we opted to choose the ones we thought are right but ended up failing.
I came across this post of @ARTicLEE again that made me mull over the given questions and thought about the corresponding answers. You can click here to check his article and the questions. I opted to only pick some that I wanted to answer. Questions that would make you think deeper and ask yourself, "what if they'll happen? What have I done? Am I good enough?"
Some questions are worth answering, and I have some here...
What would I truly regret not doing if I died tonight?
First of all, I don't want to die yet, not now, not tonight, especially since I am in a foreign land. But what if it happens? We know that unfortunate circumstances come unexpectedly whether we like it or not. And that tested our perseverance and steadiness of our minds under stress and unfavorable circumstances, as well as our readiness to accept and acknowledge things and situations.
But if I die tonight, as I have commented on ARTicLEE's article, I would regret not selling my assets and saving the money for my family. The current crypto market condition made me regret not taking my profits and investments back when crypto prices skyrocketed because of the hope of seeing them rise higher. But unexpected things are meant to happen, especially in this volatile market.
My goal for this year is to reset my crypto assets management and take my profit and investments back. But it seems not a perfect time to do so and I have no choice but to hold my assets and wait for the right time to take action. If I die, then the hardships and Cryptocurrencies will be all wasted.
What would I do if my biggest fear came true?
My biggest fear? That is once I become useless to myself and my family. I grew up being useful to others, independent, and used to work for a living. I have never been a burden to anyone else even in my younger years. From doing school homework to house tasks, I just let my initiative work without other people's supervision.
My biggest fear is when my body would crumble into the bed or wheelchair the whole day, or cross the bridge of life to death unprepared and unwillingly. But I would rather leave this world than see myself suffering from illness and become useless to others. I would rather carry the burden of others, than be a burden to my family, especially to my old parents.
But if there is one thing I want Him to grant me, that is to have a longer life so I could fulfill my duty and live a happier life. And when my life's ultimatum comes, I wouldn't have any regret and I would cross the bridge of life happily and peacefully.
Have I done something recently that I could be proud of?
Working abroad is something I could be proud of in my entire life. But if I will be asked about something I did recently, I guess, that is when I opted to let go of some stressors, live happier, travel more, and chose to see life from a bigger perspective since I'm not getting younger anymore and unexpected unfavorable circumstances are just right around the corner.
Before I tend to make small things complicated, think about things that are not valuable, and worry about everything, about self, family, events, and people around me, to the point, that it affected my mental health and made my mind restless even at night.
I learned not to worry much about unnecessary stuff and focus more on restoring my well-being. I learned how to divert preoccupied negative thoughts and think about how to solve problems instead. I learned not to mind toxic people and calm myself during the toxic situation. Most especially, I learned to appreciate more my life and I wanted to live it happily rather than thinking about tomorrow, problems, and unvaluable stuff.
What aspect of my personality still needs improvement?
When talking about personality aspects, that include mental, spiritual, emotional, physical, social, and moral aspects. Seriously? I guess all of them need to be improved, lol. But among all aspects that are tough to balance are mental, emotional, and physical aspects. I'm currently at the stage of restoring them, but I admit it's quite tough to get that stability, especially in this kind of work where I am into.
Moreover, I also want to work on achieving conscientiousness and mindfulness so I could stay focused on finishing tasks and achieving my goals without being distracted by things that are not worth minding. Thus, I want to improve my mental aspect as I believe, others will be easier to balance and improve if we are mentally stable, especially when facing tough challenges.
I wanna know, what's your biggest fear?
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