Self Weakness: Trauma Flash me Back!
This is what I hate everytime I have my period. I have my dysmenorrhea and it's really painful. It's really hard to move. What are those things I hate everytime I have this? I know mostly of the girls can relate this.
• Demotivated
Yes! I felt demotivated everytime I have it. I don't have a mood. I cannot focus what I've been doing. If there will be a task I wanted to finish but my body didn't cooperate. I can't concentrate. It will change my mood.
Yesterday I wanted to cook some viands, I wanted to have a soup but when I started to get the ingredients I felt my body doesn't cooperate and it gives me a headache. I didn't have a choice but to put back all the ingredients I get that's the reason I hate it. Being demotivated running inside of me everytime I have this.
Yesterday there were a lot of clothes to be laundry too but at the end I didn't do the laundry because of this kind of feeling. I felt demotivated all the time. It's really hard. This is the most disadvantage if I have this.
• Pains
Yes! Pains make me feel demotivated. Having a dysmenorrhea is not a joke. It's really painful. Sometimes I cried because of the pains. What I did sometimes I went to the bed and hugged a pillows so that I couldn't feel the pain a lot. This is the part I have fears when my dysmenorrhea get started.
Sometimes it makes me dizzy that's why everytime I have a dysmenorrhea I didn't walk because my body and head felt dizziness. The hardest part when the dysmenorrhea became worst. I hate it a lot because it's really painful!
Unending cry happened everytime I have it. When I was still in our house everytime I have a dysmenorrhea I always cried that's the reason why my mom always worried about me. Sometimes it makes her panic.
• Uncomfortable
Yes that's true! Everytime I have it I felt uncomfortable that's the reason I didn't go outside. It will ruin my mood then. I have a lot of worries so it's better to stay at apartment everytime I have it. There's a lot of what ifs in my mind.
If there's a time I went outside I always hurried to get back home. I'm not comfortable in the outside everytime I have a period.
The Experience makes me Trauma
It was Saturday morning, my sisters and I went to town to buy some school supplies and have a supermarket too. It was a sunny weather that time and I have my period.
When we went inside the boutique to buy some school supplies for my sister, I started felt dizzy. I felt like I wanted to vomit. I felt worst. I didn't know what I'm going to do. I felt pains in my body. I felt scared. I ran outside from the boutique and ran to the side of road. I waved my uncle to get me but he didn't understand me immediately and he waved me back also.
The pain getting worst, the reason I fell on the ground my uncle got shocked and shouted. They ran to me with the other drivers too. They took me to the hospital immediately.
It's the reason why I'm really scared to go outside if I have my period because of that experience. I have a trauma already. I remember the pain that I felt that day it was the worst and it was really unexplainable.
Until now, I remember that day. It was one of the most painful experience I had. There were a lot of people in town got panic when they saw me fell at the ground especially my sisters and my uncle.
I was really scared what was it and what could be the reason but it was my period. A traumatic experience that teach me and give me an awareness with all my actions during monthly periods.
Yesterday...
Since I was in my room only, it was already evening then I was glad because the pain lessen a bit and it gives me a little comfortable that's why I get my bag. I love collecting cosmetics since I was in college. It's been a long time I didn't use it. Now I only use lipstick only because that's my partner wanted to. He don't want me to wear any make-ups.
I missed it already that's why I tried it again and put it into my face. When I was done, I took some selfies.
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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.
God bless everyone. Stay safe always. 🙏
-JRamona20 💜
grabe ka naman ate magka period huhu ako eh simula manganak ako eh naging normal na din cycle ko tapos halos wlaa na matinding feeling di tulad noon na gusto ko na magpa ospital. pa check up ka ate baka need na din ma check ano lagay ng ovary? minsan ganun un diba?