My "First Love"
I was scrolling at my Facebook account yesterday. I saw some post about "First Love" then everything was reminiscing back. All the memories the happiness and the painfulness. Love is not about being happy all the time, you may experience heartaches too. It's normal it's part of a relationship.
I want to express my side about my first love...
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"It's rarely happened to me to admire some guy. I am quiet person. My friends teased me always during when we were highschool that they wanted me to have a boyfriend but I don't want to because I wasn't ready yet. They said I was a loner. They said I will be going to be happy if I have that one but it was sounded like a jokes. My friends always teasing at me. All they want they wanted me to smile and happy."
"Then, I met you in unexpected time. You know that I don't have any feelings for you but you were always following at me. You always walk closer at me. You always talk to me. At first, I don't know because I thought you were a friendly person. I wasn't aware. I didn't experience to have a boyfriend since then. I was in my second year highschool that time. I didn't have an interest about a relationship thingy."
"I saw you as a friend of mine. We became close each other but that time still I didn't aware even the others didn't notice it. You were always wanted me to accompany you at the canteen. At first I was really shy because I was a transferee student. I use only "Tagalog" so that we were understand each other. Months passed, I noticed that you were always sit near beside at me but I didn't mind it."
"You always bring me foods and share your lunch at me. The others noticed it. It was the time they were started teasing us. Still I didn't mind it. I wasn't interested about relationship."
"You know that I'm a very shy person but I don't know why I'm comfortable at you. It's rarely to me that I will talk a person except those who are very close to me. I thought it was because we were close already. I just wanted to tell you that I was really happy. You make me laugh."
"Until one day, the other friend called me then when I followed him I saw you. It was you. It was the time you confessed at me. I was really shocked. You said that you like me a lot and I was speechless. I don't know what I'm going to say but I explained to you that I wasn't ready yet for a relationship. You felt sad that time but you understand my side. You said you will wait and the one thing I couldn't forget when you said "True Love's Wait". I know it hurts you a lot because it was like I rejected you."
"When there was a school program, you joined the contest. I was really speechless because you were really fluent in English. You were a genius that's why you were famous at school. It was the time I felt somethin' different."
"After 1 year, you wanted to talk at me. It was lunch time. I was really nervous. It was the time, you asked me again. It was one year already that you wait for my "Yes". I was sure at myself that I was already ready that time. I said "Yes" to you. You were so happy and you jump there because of the happiness you felt. You asked me again and again. I couldn't explain you reaction."
"After 1 month of a relationship, we decided to tell our friends about it. They were so happy. They were truly support us. Our relationship going smoothly. I didn't regrets my decision to gave you a chance to be part of my life."
"Until one day, you confronted me because our friend said something about me but I didn't understand it that's why you decided to tell me the truth. I didn't expect what I've heard. I think it was a minor problem but it was the biggest, the worst that I'd never expect coming from you. I wanted to cry. I was really mad. I was really angry at you."
"Why you did that such kind of thing? You courted some girl while we were in a relationship. I was deeply hurt. You know that you were my first love. I trusted you even it was my first time to be committed to someone, I still said yes. I gave you a chance and the worst you make me fall in love with you. You did this thing. You did that. You gave your best and efforts. You make me believe you are true. You are the one. You hurt me a lot."
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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.
God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏
-JRamona20 💜
Mao ni imo ex maam? Taga T.O. ni? Hmmm