A Sudden Change!
I was really happy yesterday. I did a lot of things because I was really motivated. I sang all the time. Dancing a few minutes then sang again. I was just like a crazy. I don't know. I felt it. I was really in a good mood. I felt like I saw some shining stars. I felt the laughter was always in my face.
I keep smiling and smiling. I don't know what happened to me. I just follow what I felt. It was the best feeling. My brain function well. I fastly get an ideas. I fastly compose some things. My hands continued like joining a race. I love it honestly. I was like dancing in the wind with a harmonious sound.
There were a lot of inspirations lining in front of me. I was stilled and staring at it. It helps me a lot. I step by step follow what was in there. I look at it. I read it thoroughly and I was really glad. It jumped in my heart which was the reason I jumped with the joyous inside of it.
I decided to find the memories I have with my old self. It was like a book that every pages was really memorable. I saw the little one. It was me. Wearing my favorite gown where my favorite person gave a beauty in it. I stood there. I secretly smiling. I look at my face within a few minutes and imagining that night wearing that amazing gown.
Where was I? I continued the pages then I saw some of my achievements when I was a little one. I felt somethin' I couldn't explain. I saw my love ones beside at me. I saw the smiles, the unending smiles. My heart was beating so fast. I saw some image I was really happy dancing with the companions. The music pop up in my mind. I love the outfit we wore. I love the music I felt it was in my ears at it was so loud.
The life of yesterday, now it changes a lot. The happiest one turn into a saddest. I want to dance but I cannot make it. I am really down. I want to cry. I want to cry out loud. I want to shout this heavy burdens I have. I am really tired this worries inside in my mind. I want to throw this negative feelings but how. I don't know why I'm suffer like this.
I just wanted to be happy, to be free. I just wanted to be happy enough but I don't have a right to ask God. I am really in pain. I lose my hope. I just want to lock in my room because I'm really scared to go outside. I don't want my anxieties back. It's not easy. I always felt the coldness into my body.
I am stock in this place full of darkness. Why is it so fast? Why it change so fast? It's really painful. I felt like I have a lot of wounds but I cannot find it where. I want to see it so that I will make it to heal. I want it now. It's always in my self. I felt it a lot but I don't know how to make it.
Looking at the window makes me worst, makes me frighten. I felt I'm alone. No one here beside me. No one will listen to me. No one will hear me. I felt broken. It's really fast. I couldn't recognize it already. I couldn't believe it.
Enough for crying, too much pain. Can I stand again? I just want to go back the life of yesterday but I know it's really impossible. I just want to see a word hope but I don't know where I could find it and when it can be. A teardrops makes me weak everytime I have it. I want to stop it but it continue dropping. How will I? Please enough! Please!
LIFE THOUGHTS:
You cannot predict what will happen in our daily life. Today you are so much happy. You smile. You go anywhere with happy faces and unending smiles. Self with a full of hopes. You build yourself and full of motivation. Lining with an inspirations.
In just one day, tomorrow, everything's stop and ruin. You just ended crying without any expectations and that's the life. We shouldn't expect too much because it will hurt you a lot. Life is unpredictable. You must stand with your own self and fight those challenges you've encounter. Be brave always!
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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some thoughts with this article of mine.
God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏
-JRamona20 💜
So it's not just me but many of us feel sad in this past few days. No reason to be sad, but my thoughts kept on overthinking stuffs and leads to me from being sad and feel lonely maybe it will gonna past aways especially that you open up your thoughts ate Jeee. GoodMorningg tk you