When I'm gone

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Yesterday we discussed giving a trusted family member or spouse our seed phrases in case the unforeseen happens. Death is something certain for everyone but the time it will come is unknown to everyone, and no one wants it to come anytime soon. From there I  was directed to Mr Felix’s article and I stopped what I was doing and thought of it for minutes.

As a rule, I hate talking about death because it reminds me of the friends I’ve lost. Especially in the year 2020. When I read a post about what will people say after one’s death a few weeks back, I felt like voicing my fears and thoughts too but I chose not to. I think ate Jane wrote the article, I can’t remember well. I guess it’s high time I wrote my thoughts down.

Even if I have a smile on my face, it is just an act, deep inside I fear death. Heaven or hell - I fear this even more than death itself. Where am I going?.

Where am I going after I die? We get so little time to live on this earth, what will happen after? What if at the end of everything there is something new awaiting us on the other side. I have so many questions running through my mind. I know this is the type of thing people don't like hearing or reading.

Who will miss me?

Who will miss me after my death and for how long will they? Won’t I be forgotten just like the way the wave washes away the words written at the river bank ?. Who are those that will miss me, my children or grandchildren? Or will I ever marry and have kids that will miss me?. These are questions that come to my head every time but I keep pushing them away. And the most painful part is, one can never know this.

What will they say about me?

Won’t people be glad that I’m gone? I’m afraid some might have nothing but bad words about me. Even when alive people say bad things about others. Someone once worked up to me and called me a snub. Apparently, he waved at me the previous day and I didn’t reply despite looking in his direction. How do I start explaining to everyone that I’m four-eyed? Though my case might not be extreme but I can’t see you when you are far away. This is when I’m still alive. What will people say when I’m no longer there to defend myself.? will it be positive or negative?. But I know these are questions I can never get an answer to.

What legacy will I live behind

Will my name remain immortal?. we have people that died centuries ago and their names are still mentioned till date. Either because of their good deeds or the bad things they do while they were alive. Another form of legacy can be how I  raised my kids (if I ever have one). Will they be a menace to the society or a blessing to many?. This I might know a little, but the full detail can't be known while alive.

Where am I going?

I believe in life after death or an “afterlife” as some people call it. Which of the two will I go to? Am I presently living a life that is worthy of going to the good path?. Are my sins not too much?. Won't Christ get tired of forgiving me each day?. This is one of my biggest fears in life. Even greater than the fear of death itself.

My Decision

I believe the purpose of life is to be happy, impact lives and live a life worthy of emulation. From now on I will do all I can to pursue a happier way of living. I'm a peaceful person, I don't want to spend my time thinking about things I might never know. I don't want to live my life in fear. I'm just gonna take it one day at a time. Grateful for every single day on earth, every battle won and the lost ones. I will live an happy life today and let tomorrow take care of itself.

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Death is certain, I don't think I fear death itself, I fear what will happen after and the life I lived was I able to achieve anything. I have made up my mind to live in the moment.

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2 years ago

Everyone will surely die one day but we are praying to live long to see our children's children. About living one day at a time, we have to live it with sense but not anyhow all in the name you want to enjoy yourself.

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2 years ago

Death is inevitable , I think we should all be prepared for it one day

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2 years ago

I have already said it on other occasions. I'm terrified of being forgotten in time.

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2 years ago

We ought to live lives that are worth remembering. But I can't quite help to think, as good as that is, it's not the rule. Most people wont like this, but I don't see the wrong in living your life for yourself alone amd being inconsequential to anyone, not that I want that kind of life tho

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2 years ago

We only live once and we don't know when will be its ending. Just surrender your life to God everyday and you don't need to worry about death. Death is just a symbol of sleeping, when Jesus comes He will give us life again and that is the first resurrection.

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2 years ago

Everything about death ends here, it is good when you talk about it always just for a reminder because it would serve as a guide.

Not thinking about it or thinking about doesn't change what would happen when the time comes, we should be prepared by doing the needful.

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2 years ago

Death is where we say her life ended. Why we have this quotations? Because we have seen this reality in human nature. If a person died, he or she will be remembered for 5-10 years after that only the deaths date is marked. So i guess it is not new that after we end our lives, we will be soon forgotten.

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2 years ago

I don't really dear death to be honest, I'm ready anytime lol. But I also want to know if how they will react when I die. If only watching them on the side while they are mourning is possible rigjt.

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2 years ago

Death is the eternal we all have to taste it one day. We should live it happily and we will be miss by no one for long

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2 years ago

Do you know that most people fear living more than dying? Yes, they fear to live for today by denying themselves the benefits of life which are giving and sharing. They would never give anything to themselves or to others, such people have no legacy to leave behind.

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2 years ago

Sure, I want to always live every day being happy and allow tomorrow to take care of itself. This is what the Bible also says too. Let's not worry at all but keep living a good life and expect that someday, we would reign peacefully with Christ.

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2 years ago

I know its not right sometime thinking about death, but I do, like, what will happen to my mom and dad, including my siblings if I die today, how will they react, how will my girlfriend feel, my friends, sometimes I want to know, but I don't want to die now though😅

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2 years ago

This is definitely a lot to think about. Some of these questions are quite heavy and we can't possibly find definite answer to them but I guess it's good to actually find time to self reflect.

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2 years ago

@HappyBody, this act of self reflection is a vital part of life. Everyone should be in the phase you were when you coined this compelling issue to life. By so doing, we will be tasking ourselves to reprioritize things that reek of relevance. It will also help to reevaluate ourselves and adjust accordingly to best serve our purposes on earth.

You have made a challenging case and I'm sure you will act accordingly, seeing your resolve. I wish I could say it would be easy but life in itself is coined out of pain but I'm sure you are equal to the task and would do just fine. I'm glad I read this well drafted craft you've birthed in the waters of wisdom. Thank you for a wonderful read.

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2 years ago

Even if we spend our whole life trying to please everyone, people will still have one or more bad words to say about us. We just have to live life to fullest, that's if God permits us Sha

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2 years ago

When we die, there will be people who will remember the cruel things we have said and done. There will be people who remember the kind words and deeds. There will be people that will remember our darkest moments that most of us rather not admit we have. There will be people who will remember laughter.

The real question of life and death is not how and when it will end, but rather what kind of memory we choose to be.

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2 years ago

hmmm, you are right brother.

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2 years ago

Why we're still living in this world, we should live a purposeful life. We should meet people. Let's radiate positivity to other people and be somebody worthy to be emulated. ❣

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2 years ago

The great thing is leaving a great legacy behind. But before we think about those things, we should focus on the present and do good things so that people will remember that we at least did something before we leave this world behind.

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2 years ago

We should live for the moment instead of thinking death as it is inevitable.. let's just do our best to be a better person hehehe

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2 years ago

This is the reason why we must do good when we still have our lives Because of what is left after we have gone

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2 years ago

This makes me sad at some point. Let's make every minute worth remembering.

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2 years ago

A deep breathe just came out of my chest. One question just made me uneasy and forced to rethink. What legacy will I leave behind? Damn... No clue about it.

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2 years ago

Make a good legacy while we are still.. But that matter really worries me. I want my life to last long and spread BCH to each member of my family hehe..

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2 years ago

It is so scary to think of life after death because we are not even sure where we are going, and there is no way to know. It is best we live the best way instead of thinking of the best way to die

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2 years ago

You're just overthinking bro. Rid those those thoughts. Don't let negativity eat you.

Mind the present and let tomorrow solve it's day.

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2 years ago

Thanks! It was just for a brief moment.

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