Every girls dream (specially teen-agers) was to have a great and perfect body shape. We wants to have a perfect curve, and as sexy as everyone can ever imagine. 36,24 and 36 vital statistics was perfect to be called perfect. But what if you were born chubby and losing some weight was hard as harder as you could also imagine?

How willing are you to do some diet? But what if your diet isn't really working? Or what if you lose weight but you also easily gain weight?

So basically I came across to this kind of topic because of what I have seen in Facebook. It was a vedio about this woman in YouTube. She's an influencer but because she's a foreign I don't know her. But because of the disorder that she's going through, I made this blog to share with you my very own experience with this kind of disorder. A kind of disorder that one's not treated can kill.

Anyway I will put the link so you can also watch the vedio clips and maybe you can also share your thoughts about the behaviour of this girl.

https://fb.watch/cjpbb5e5lo/

So the girl was called Eugenia. She's 27 year's old and she's suffering from eating disorder.

Eating disorders are a range of psychological conditions that cause unhealthy eating habits to develop. They might start with an obsession with food, body weight, or body shape.

Source: Healthline.com

An eating disorder is defined as an eating habit which hurt's you physically and mentally. The three most common ones are anorexia nervosa ( this was when you are starving your self just to not gain any weight), Bulimia nervosa ( you eat large amount of food then throwing up), and Binge eating disorder ( uncontrollable eating large amount of food) .

Did you know that tens of thousands of teens have died because of them? In fact anorexia nervosa has one of the highest death rates of any psychological disorder which I think the issue of miss Eugenia.

Millions of teens have an eating disorder. You probably know someone who does, or maybe you've got one yourself.

Personally I would admit that I also suffer from this disorder before. It happened when I gained a lot of weight unintentionally during my 20's. Imagine how ugly I am during that time, specially with my 4'9 height 🤣 . In six months my vital statistics was 34,34 and 34 😂🤣.

Actually at first I don't bother about my weight nor about my physical appearance. All of my concerned that time, was my tummy is always full. I don't stop eating until I get my satisfaction.

But then because I got bullied by my own cousin, I suffer with anorexia disorder.

Well it was one time, I went outside of our house as my mom asked me to buy something in the store. My siblings aren't home that time and so I had no choice but to go. While I was walking, I meet my cousin in my way. My boy cousin to be exact. When he saw me, he suddenly burst into laughter. He's laugh has something bad effect to me and so I asked him what's funny? Then he burst into more laughter as he was trying to describe me as a duck 🦆🙄😒. He even asked me what had happen to me and why do I look like my parents locked me inside our kitchen and I got bigger than they expected.

While he was laughing, I am hurt. I got insulted and so I hurriedly run back home as my tears was about to burst too.

I cried so hard that time. I got insulted and bullied by my ugly cousin 🤣 and it's so hurts, you know? Lol.

I then try looking at myself in front of the mirror and from there I literally saw a different person. I was shocked as I really saw myself as a duck, lol. My feet become much shorter than it used to be because I gained a lot of weight 😂. Insecurities has arise and I felt shame for my self 😅.

From that day I decided to do some diet. Improper diet to be exact, as I come to the point where I am already starving myself. I even become so cautious with my food intake as I am afraid to gain more weight. I mostly feel afraid to eat anything and that even my water intake I become cautious.

Since I gained a lot of weight, losing my excess weight was hard. It's killing me. I continue skipping some of my meals, until I got sick. Because of not consuming enough food, my body becomes weak.

My mom notice the changes of my behaviour and when she learned that I am on diet because I got bullied, she then advised me that I should not starve myself because it won't help. For me to lose some weight, I should do it in a proper way.

I then decided to run(jog). Every morning I always woke up at 4: 30 a.m as I have to jog before I go to work at 8:30. But after doing it for a several times I also stop. Well honestly I just stop jogging because I got into accident 😅. It happened because the road was still dark, I didn't saw that there's a whole in my way and so I fell and that makes my knee bleed.

Oh let me show you my beautiful scar😂.

The cut was big and so I had no choice but to go home and stop running 😅.

But because I still wanted to lose some weight, I then decided to drink a diet tea. (Unintentionally I didn't notice that I am become obsess on losing my weight). The tea was recommended by my close friend in my work place. As she says the tea can help me lose some weight so without a second thought I take the tea. But I just need to drink it every night as I am gonna experience diarrhea 🤣. Oh yeah it's actually not recommended to lose weight as it is not also healthy. As it also bring a negative impact to your body, like dehydration.

So when my mom find it out she got mad and just convince me to do some exercise and continue to run every morning as she don't want me to get into any trouble with the side effects of the tea.

I do Zumba everyday, after I do my jog and at the same time I'm still on diet. After three months I finally got the body that I wanted.

Summary;

As a teen with a future, you need to have a strong and healthy body. You can't afford memory loss, disorientation, constipation, deterioration of muscles, slow irregular heartbeat that leads to heart attacks or any other symptoms that goes with anorexia disorder. Don't let your self get suckered into this unnatural and unhealthy lifestyle. Eating disorder are hard to shake and can stay with you for life. If you wanted to be sexy and physically fit, do it in a proper way and with a healthy diet.

Being skinny isn't sexy. Sexy is being healthy through proper diet and self discipline. Don't die meaningless.

Closing thoughts;

Within the whole journey of losing my weight, I was thankful that I have a very supportive mother. A mother that always motivates me and encourage me to continue, whenever I get tired. A mother who never gets tired of listening with my tear's.

If you knew someone who's suffering with this kind of disorder convinced them to do the right way before it gets late.

I hope this blog serves as an awareness to everyone.

'til next time and thank you for reading.

Lead image was screened shot from Facebook;

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