Hello lovelies, it's me again trying to be alive and productive 😁 for the Black Saturday. How was your Friday so far? I wish you all had a great Friday with your love ones.

Yesterday I wasn't actually fine. I mean not fine in emotionally state, as I got upset. I did try to divert my attention to my daily tasks but it didn't work. Maybe because the feeling is so heavy to be ignore, that even I make myself busy I still can't forget the reason why I am upset. But I don't wanna talk about it right now, and since I had no interesting topic to share. Please allow me to share how's my Friday went.

So yesterday morning I walk up too early, and I tried to read some articles but I can't give my opinions about the article that I have just read. Have you sometimes felt being emotionally tired? Have you come to the point where you just agreed with everything that you have just read and seen? Like all you want to say is Fine, Okay, yeah and that's it, you'll hold again your silence as you wanted to be alone as your mind was feeling demotivated and empty.

However yesterday I still did bring my son to my in-laws, as our plan. It was actually my plan with the approval of my partner, but because something had happen he fails to come with us, and so I had no choice but to commute just to be there, I mean in the apartment. Actually yesterday was the first time that I travel with my son alone, as I am too afraid to travel alone because I know it won't be easy for me, but surprisingly I did it yesterday.

We arrive in the apartment at around 10:30 a.m. The apartment was so silent, but when we came, it becomes lively. My in-laws was very happy to see their grandchild again, specially my mother-in-law. When they saw us they were surprise as they thought we will come with my partner but it's only the two of us. They ask me where's their son and I told them what happen and they become silent.

One of the reason why I like my mother-in-law is because she won't tolerate her son's behaviour. She wasn't also the type of in-law who would make a decision for his sons relationship, but instead she will let both of you talked and fixed the problem. She also knows how to listen with my rant's even if it's all about her son and she knows how to give a balance advice for both of us. She isn't just a mother to me but also a bestfriend.

Anyway we only stayed there for 7 hours as we still need to travel back home before the night came. My mother-in-law accompany us to the main road and wait for the jeep in the station. My son is with her as my son wanted her to carry him. He's literally sweet to his grandma 😁. It took us 30 minutes before the jeep came, luckily there's still have jeep as yesterday was a Holiday, so the transportation is quite limited and so it would definitely take time for you to get a ride.

Within our trip my son was so quite, he behaves so much and so I didn't get any trouble. After getting off from the jeep we still need to ride a tricycle to get to our house and unfortunately when we arrive at the tricycle station there's no tricycle.

We stayed there for awhile, hoping that we can have a ride and luckily after 20 minutes of waiting I saw a tricycle. It's almost 6:00 o'clock in the evening when we arrive home.

When I open our door my partner was there, watching a movie. I immediately change my clothes and fixed the mess of our home as it was so messy. I was so annoyed that the clothes was being hang everywhere. Oh I was so pissed but I remain silent, I don't want any argument and so when he ask me something I just answer what he ask and continue cleaning the house.

After we ate our dinner, I tried to write an article as I don't wanna miss one day without publishing but I failed to do it. My goal is to publish a perfect number of articles for this month but I already miss one day. I was here last night, reading your articles but nothing is sinking in my mind and so even after reading the whole article I don't understand anything.

It was indeed true, that if you were emotionally stress, your brain won't work and will remain empty. Hopefully today I can cope up so I can make this day productive and meaningful. Wish me luck 😅.

... So that's how my Friday went and thank you for reading.

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