"He had a heart problem"

• Since then I really don't like surprises, but life never stops on surprising me. Sometimes the surprise makes me feel overwhelmed with happiness, but sadly, most of the time it overwhelmed me with frustration 😫.

But do you know what's really worst about my life this time? The fact that my memory is slowing. I mean, how can I forget things so easily? I don't understand why I become so forgetful. I'm still at my 30's but this thing is getting so serious.

• I think I should start writing about my daily life, about my son, and everything. So if ever the time came, and I can no longer remember anything, I have something to read that can possibly help me remember things again. 😅

Anyways, hello there lovely people of readcash, how's your day so far? And what am I doing here, anyway? Chaaarrr, I'm just practicing. Lol.

Well today is still a holiday to some, but for some they are already back to work though others are still celebrating All Soul's Day.

So far we have a sunny All Souls day here in our area, and that's why my son and I got a chance to have our morning walk. It's been awhile since the last time we had our walked in the morning because it's always rained.

Then when we went back home, I prepare the laundry. I grab the opportunity, so I can dry up our clothes under the sun, because I can't guarantee that tomorrow it's still sunny. Because you know? I have learned from within this wide universe, that we can't guarantee anything. Nothing remains the same.

Moreover right after I finish my laundry I recharge my phone as I wanna call my mother. I didn't get a chance to call her yesterday because I don't have money to recharge my mobile number, and so I did it today.

When my load arrived, I immediately dialed my brother's phone number. My mother has her own phone actually, but unfortunately up until now she's still don't know how to use it even if I have already teach her. She was honestly impatient on learning about gadgets 🤦. That's also the reason why I always have to dial my brothers number so I can talk to her.

So when my brother hand over to her the mobile phone, I immediately asked my mom, if they have already visited my father and brothers graves in the cemetery. I fail to go home this time because the fare is expensive and so I just ask for some updates. Then I asked her about how they we're and how's life there, etc. We talked a lot of things. Like random.

I also heard that all of my niece's are already attending school. They are already in face to face as well. I am happy that even if my sister is not consistent with the financial, and moral support her children's are still doing good . Honestly I hate my sister, because she's being so irresponsible mother to her children's. Our mom is the one who's having a hard time. But what can I do? She doesn't even want to communicate with me.

Then if you could still remember, just last week I have shared in one of my article about my cousin's sudden death. My cousin left his children's so early and it leaves my heart broken.

So my mother mentioned that last Sunday they attended his last burial, and so I got a chance to ask her about what happen to his death and a shocking news makes me speechless and leaves me with worries.

He died because of heart problem, and ulcer. Your cousin had the same heart problem with your older brother.

I was so shocked. I don't remember that my older brother had a heart problem. So I ask my mother about my brother's condition and how come he got a heart problem, and since when it started?

Then my mother say's,

• Sadly, your older brother has a heart problem. He got diagnosed with a heart problem last 2018, and anyway how could you forget about it? Haven't you remember he got admitted in the hospital because his heart got swollen that time?

I was so shocked, because I literally forgot. I just clearly remember everything when I called my sister-in-law to confirm my older brothers condition. She reminded me everything. Again I feel so worried for my brother, most specially that his still working so hard despite of his condition.

With his condition it is already dangerous for him to work in the construction site, but his sacrificing his health just to sustain his family's needs. I really felt so pity for him. I am also scared about his condition. I can't help not feel bad because I can't even help him😫.

How I wish I still have work. But I would pray for my brothers health.

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