MyInsecurities: So Many To Counts!
Talking about insecurities? Uhh, mine is too many to counts. It's not even insecurities only but inferiority complex. Those times where I can never be happy for myself and for others, whenever I see other people happy I felt sad and angry. Angry because why I don't have what others have, then I starts to find people to blame.
Although my situation way back, there are people to be blame (parents) but I should stop blaming since it doesn't help me at all. Growing up, I started to understand things better and started to embrace my imperfections to overcome my insecurities.
So here's some of my insecurities way back, it's still lingers on me until now but it's already controllable;
My Nose 🐽
I have a flat nose, it seems boneless in between my eyes. Most of the time it looks like a ripe tomato 🍅 if I keep pressing it when it turns red 😂. My partner always tease me with my nose, but he said he likes my nose because he said it's cute. I am insecure why I don't have a lil bit long nose because some people are so bully, I even asked before “Lord why have you given me nose just to breathe, not to look better?” it seems my nose purpose is to breathe only not really to add on my facial features 😂😂 but I should've not ask God since my mom has flat nose too, it's genetically acquired LOL.
But now I don't care about my nose that much, I even told my partner if we have money I'll do nose surgery and he's against it HAHA! I was just kidding though, we will die anyway LOL.
My height
My height is only 5'0 and I was very insecure with some girls that has better height because there are a lot of opportunities when your height is good. I felt this when I was applying a job, especially job that requires height and pleasing personality. Especially front end jobs, they don't hire dwarfs maybe customer will have hard time seeing us hahaha!
Sorry for the photo, I used it in my fire meme entry haha! I just reused it for this blog.
My teeth
I don't have a nice set of teeth because our family has this weak teeth, it's like inherited too even if we keep brushing our teeth everyday. I think I lack calcium because I also have joints problems, my bones doesn't have enough calcium. I am still young to have rheumatoid arthritis.
I am insecure whenever I saw some people who have nicer teeth, because mine is not and I have false teeth in front already.
Closing Thoughts
Those are just some of my physical insecurities, I have so many actually but these three I mentioned are the most.
Now that I have a child, I don't mind so much about my physical attributes anymore although I still care about myself or how I look, it is not a big deal to me anymore.
Good thing my daughter didn't copy my nose and I think she'll grow taller than me too, I let her drink cherifer vitamins just so she'll grow taller when she grow up. But she has weak teeth too, when her teeth will be permanent I'll make sure she'll have dentist check up just to make sure her teeth will be given extra care.
This is a prompt article made by @Theblackdoll #MyInsecurities I said I give it a try to write about it, if you want just click the hashtag.
Thank you for reading!
Date Published: December 28, 2021
I think that you are beautiful, and dynamite comes in small packages! We are always very hard on ourselves, thank you for sharing this. It's a beautiful way to start to allow everyone to share their most vulnerable side which will allow everyone to understand that it's okay to have these thoughts. You are beautiful, inside and out!