More Than Just A Name Tag

"Talk to me about your name, and about you. I want to know the meaning and significance."

Have you ever wondered about the meaning of your name? Some of you may have asked your parents (of course, LOL) and their answers must have surprised you, or touched you in some way. Well, whatever, my name was something I just mentioned. Whatever.

I ain't saying my name is Whatever. But, yeah, can I say that my name is Michelle for some silly reason? Yes? Okay, thank you so much.

A fellow writer here, @King_Gozie , asked me about this recently. You know, that short post where I asked for your help. (Raise your feet if you know it!) As I've said, I'll answer all the questions I was not able to include in my interview-themed blog yesterday. I will start today.

Thanks for this interesting question, King_Gozie.

I remember asking my mom randomly what the meaning of my name is. The history, in short. My older sister's name is Mary Grace, and the reason is pretty much explainable, I guess. She is a blessing to our parents, and mom has a "Maria" in her name, so she included it to sis' name; thus the product, Mary Grace. What a beautiful name.

My younger brother's name, Melvin, is from a celebrity's name, as far as I remember. Mine, I am actually shy to ask it again. So, I'll just try to explain it as how I remember it.

My name is supposedly not Michelle. It should be Jessi, a name may parents got just from watching their favorite sports channel. Jessi is a name of the usual sports reporter that they watched on TV. They thought it's a beautiful name, so they planned to give that name to me. Whether I am a girl, or a boy (which they did not know yet that time), it would be fine.

However, at some point they wanted to make their children have similar initial name letters. Therefore, mine should also start with an M. They were successful though as you can see. (Haha!)

Michelle is another celebrity name they found beautiful. Moreover, it would be easier to write and remember. I apologize that I am not also knowledgable of who exactly that celebrity is, but I hope I still explained it nicely.

I personally like my name. It's like a name that suits me really well. I also like writing it, especially in a cursive manner. About my nickname, as surprising as it maybe, no one calls me Elle in reality. Except here in read, of course (maybe because I used a reversed version of my name here). Instead, people usually called me Mich.

I actually got curious, so I did some research about my name meanings. I will put a single explanation of the similar result that I found:

• Feminine version of Michael

This one gotta be obvious, haha! I also know this already, but just in case some of you may not know.

The name has both French and Hebrew roots and is the feminine version of Michael, meaning "gift from God" or "who is like God."

-sheknows.com

I love how it means being "Gift from God". Really? I guess I am a gift to my parents, (even I am a headache to them sometimes. Peace!)

Even if you'd try to look it up, I guess we're gonna have the same results. You may want to research about your name. Who knows, you may find interesting facts about it. Mine, I think, is pretty common, so I easily found it in the internet.

About Me Again? Why not.

You may have known lots about me, especially if you visit my works regularly. So, what I am telling you are things I may not have mentioned yet (at least, as how I remember it).

• I hate gossips.

Yeah, even you'd try to make an excuse about it, that it ain't really gossip, but you just wanna talk about it, whatever. Listening to other people talk about someone is a waste of time, don't you think?

I personally think I won't gain anything from it. My friends know it. When we go home, I wear earphones. Music is life. (Laughs). Anyway, that does not mean I ain't interested. If I am, I just give in to my curiousity for a bit, then lose interest again after a minute. I don't know, it just ain't my style.

• I am weak when it comes to patience and self-discipline.

Is it surprising? I don't wanna be harsh to myself, but this is what I see. In fact, I always include these two things in my prayer. To develop patience and self-discipline.

First, patience. I am impatient, but in a limited sense. I am not like that hot-tempered hag you see on a store or something, not that. I grow easily annoyed, and I mean, PISSED OFF at slow internet connection, laggy devices, people who likes to argue on nonsense things, and inconvenient stuff. Really, even I wake up with a good mood, these specific situations can easily make my blood boil. That's why I work on this everyday. I try to inhale and exhale deeply, multiple times, before I actually throw my phone for lagging (that happened a lot, in the past), or almost curse, or mutter a string of bad words (not really curse words, but adjectives not pleasant to be heard).

Second, self-discipline. Look, it's ten minutes past ten now, my scheduled sleep time. But because I was distracted by the television show, I am writing late. I won't do this tomorrow. Sigh.

To-Do lists helped me practice self-discipline and I can see I have improved much compared to my past self.

I am not actually confident to say that I am a good person.

I am not at the other extreme though, like being bad or delinquent. Maybe, something in between. All of us have that dark, ugly side that we choose to not bring into light, and I also have that.

I can't say I am a kind person, just because that's how I am to other people. Because I know I have resented myself many times for hurting my loved ones. During those times, I know I am a bad person that only thought of my feelings, and neglected theirs. I also get annoyed at some beggars I see on specific days, having some thought, for example, that they can work, why do they beg for other's hard-earned money? Some bad thoughts like that.

I ain't saying these things because I am proud, but to reveal that I am not fond of this side of me, as well. There are times I don't say good things to mom's noisy cat, or get mad at our dogs when they brk nonstop (when I should think forst of their reason).

I feel embarrassed saying these, but it is the truth, and it must be said. There is always something I regret everyday, and I wonder when will a time come I will not have regrets anymore.

Did you get to know me more through this?

I hope I was able to carry on nicely, this question of King_Gozie. I have shared something about my name, something about myself, as well.

I am shocked I just started writing things I am not proud of, but it feels like a burden has been lifted because I got to be real again through writing this one. I hope you'll still stay with me, even you've known these not so nice things about me.

Before I forget, let me give a late greeting to BITCOIN CASH' birthday yesterday. I just knew about it yesterday through some reading, but I hope I can still express my greetings and gratitude.

I am thankful I got to know about BCH, along with these two platforms, read.cash, and noise.cash. I was introduced to something where I could gain the "real-est" concept of financial freedom and security. I hope I am able to share the love of BCH through my simple acts of giving back, through this platform, and noise.

A little more time, and it's already 11 pm. One hour past my scheduled sleep time. Oopsie. Promise, I'd start earlier tomorrow, so I could sleep earlier. Self-discipline, Elle!

Until Next Time!

Thank you in advance for supporting me in my humble journey. My sponsor block is always welcoming of new people to fill it!

Come start writing and earning here, if you haven't yet!

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I am also on noise.cash. Same username, let me know and let's talk there!

https://noise.cash/u/Ellehcim

To God be all the glory.

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