10/31/2021
Faced with the blank page, my finger won't move. I could not make myself think of ideas. It's an ocassional trouble I always work hard to fight off.
It's hard to focus because there is my biggest distraction: my phone. This device is also the thing I use to blog, and at the same time, an accessory to my procrastination. I heaved a sigh as I tied to gather and associate stuff that I may write. It was vain.
After some minutes of pondering in the world of nothingness, I let go of the phone and proceded in doing other things first. We ate dinner, watched TV for a bit, then I brushed my teeth. Did the usual skin care routine that I subtly changed because I am having lots of acnes lately. Maybe because I am a bit allergic to the new puppy in the house. But I love to play with Bambam, that's her name.
I did my bed afterwards, and got a hold of my phone again, and switched to Facebook, Instagram and Youtube to watch videos. I got bored, so I watched the Korean drama I downloaded yesterday. This one's the second one I have seen just this long weekend. I am halfway through it already. It has an interesting plot, and characters whose chemistry is also beautiful.
Watching the episodes, one thing has been evident, it's about the power of money. Why people tend to do things they don't want, or why others change drastically. Why people get hurt, or hurt others, or why relationships are affected. Money is, indeed a helpful tool to all of us—it is created to help people, but in a way, it ruled the humans instead, at least some or most of them.
Does money really rule the world? I wonder. When you have lots of it, you suddenly have lots of friends, and aquaintances, even relatives. But when all of a sudden, you are deep in debt, these people are nowhere to be found. They change their numbers, they ridicule you, they refuse to help. Anyway, who'd lend money someone who has low possibility of paying back? It's a sad reality, indeed, to see how the world has become.
We need money to survive. Otherwise, we can not put food on the table, let alone pay our bills. In this world where almost nothing is free, money has become really vital, and somehow evolved to be a symbol of power and prestige. It sounds twisted, maybe, or exaggerated, I don't know. It's just what I think for now.
I suddenly imagine a world where everyone would have the same level of wealth. That there'd be no such thing as rich or poor. But then again, that's such an impossible dream. You know, all of us has at least once, or continues to dream of being wealthy, or having enough money. If not, then we'd not be working like this, right?
I stopped by here to write this one while the next episode is still pending to download. I heard gentle raindrops right now. Oh, I guess I'll get a good sleep tonight. It's cold, it's raining, and it's quiet here.
Long weekends are the best. Don't tell me I am lazy to say that, because I already know Lol. Kidding aside, it meant more time to pamper myself, buy some things that needed replenishment, and of course, more time to clean up notifications here in read.cash. In fact, excluding the articles written 6 hours ago to the newest, I already got as far as the notifications from four days ago. I did well, did't I? Let me give myself a pat in the shoulder for that.
Anyway, something came up just this afternoon. It's not about me, but a close person to me. I will not go into details, but this unexpected event made me shiver in anxiety for a short while. The commotion made me see a person in a different light. I used to look up on this person so much. I have high respect for him. But seeing him changing colors like that in front of me, made me really, really disappointed. Honestly, when I went back home, I immediately looked for his profile in Facebook, unfollowed him, and unfriended him, of course. I was really.. I can't explain it but my mind really went like "I did not expect him to be like that. He should know better rather than taking sides." It made me sad. Those years of looking up to him all went down the drain in that one single encounter.
I did not let what happened break my spirit, though. God will make a way to fix everything somehow, I believe it. In Jesus' name.
One of the things I hate most is when people at fault act like a victim when cornered. When truth is slapped into their faces, they suddenly become crying crocodiles, intentionally gathering sympathy from the people around. Seriously, if you can't handle a responsibility, don't make a promise out of it. If you can't work out the promise within the deadline, be humble and inform the other person. If you don't update that person, expect him/her to be angry, because it's normal. The person you asked for help to is not a fortune-teller. Tell that person nicely what's wrong so he/she would understand. There is actually no need to have the louder voice, saying words that will guilt-trip the person who gave you help. For real, is that how low people can go? I can't believe it. The person who helped you has nothing to do with the issues you're currently facing. You promised to do something for that person, then period. Don't be suddenly so touchy and speak as if you've been wronged.
People like these are the reason why we are hesitant at helping others. They know they should humble themselves, but they will suddenly be willing to bite the hand that feeds them, just because their pride is hurt.
I am sorry, if this rant sounded immature or whatever. Yes, I am ranting in the latest paragraphs about what happened earlier. I wish karma would visit them early. I won't say a word anymore. I don't want to sin any longer.
Okay, I think this random train of messy thoughts has been so long or too boring for you to read. Again, I apologize. You can skip this through if you want. I won't stop you. It's just that I breathe through writing this out. You see, I can breathe just fine now because I have said what I wanted to say.
This is a late October article that was published on the first of November. Because I have my personal reasons, ya know. LOL.
Moving on, it's not so quiet anymore, this night. I suddenly hear people singing a few kilometers away. Yes, people having karaoke at 10 p.m., they exist. Let me just inhale and exhale deeply. Let's not get deep in frustration, I still have to work tomorrow.
Oh, so I was still able to write something, after all. I though earlier to not publish anything tonight since I am really out of ideas to write, but I figured I'd just do a random free-write again. More formal articles can wait for the month of November, look forward to that. People in this platform do NOT discriminate in topics, anyway. Right?
Tomorrow's gonna be a happy day, I claim it, in Jesus' name!
Thanks for reading this random blog. Hope to see you again, until next time!
-Elle ❤️
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MONEY.Just the sound of it makes my saliva drop. Hahahaha😂 Well, even how many times we tell ourselves that money can't buy us happiness, it is actually the other way around. A newbie here by the way. Nice to meet you.