What do I want to study?

It might be hard for some or most of you to believe this but the truth remains that:

It was this year I finally realized what I truly want to study.

Most of you would know through my previous articles that I'm a twin, my twin is a boy. Back then when I was younger, my dad made it mandatory that:

• Whenever my brother goes to have an haircut, I must follow him.

• Whenever I also visit the saloon for my hair to be made, he must follow me.

• And we must go to school and come back home together. Infact anytime I leave him in school, my dad lashes me with some strokes of cane. Believe me, it was terrible, my brother always made me leave the house and leave the school late.

Anyways, due to the fact that I was still young and frail. Anytime I followed my brother to the saloon to have an haircut, I sometimes see the barber counting his money. This made me feel they were abundantly rich.

Fast forward to the day my dad summoned us to deal us some questions.

My dad had asked my elder; twin brother and I, a simple question.

What do you want to be in future?.

Such a great question right?. I felt highly proud of myself, I was so happy and pleased as I boldly said:

I want to be a barber.

My dad was bemused, I'm sure deep down, he would have felt my village people were following me.

Disclaimer: Not trying to say those people don't make their money, but there's a point I'm driving at.

I never knew what i really and truly wanted to study.

I was in primary section then.

I don't know about other countries but in my country, when a child is leaving Junior Secondary School to Senior Secondary School. S/he has to choose from these options, to either join:

Art Class.

Science Class or...

Commercial Class.

Choices are made based on what the person intends to study or be in future.

For example; you can't see an aspiring medical doctor in Art Class, neither can you see a wannabe lawyer in Science Class or a soon to be accountant in any of the aforementioned.

Now, I didn't join Science and Commercial classes because I don't know maths and I'm honestly not intrigued in knowing it. Maths is just not a thing of mine.

In Science Class, one would study:

• Physics.

• Chemistry.

• Further maths

• Maths.

• Geography.

• Economics...

Ahan, do you want to kill me!!!... The calculations are too much, I wonder why one has to further mathematics.

Well, I'm actually glad I joined Art Class though, else my regrets would have pilled up.

That was how I still had no idea even after I graduated from secondary school.

• Six years in primary section.

• Six years in secondary section.

Yet I had no idea whatsoever about my future.

Had I known:

I left secondary school in 2017, taught as a teacher in a school; for two years.

I had this weak mentality that I was too young to be in tertiary institution, I finally wrote jamb in 2019.

I passed jamb, but chose University of Lagos as my first choice... of course you guessed right, I didn't gain admission into the university.

My second choice was Lagos State University, I didn't even bother going for their screening especially because they don't give admission when placed as second choice.

Yaba college of technology was my third choice, but I never took their exams.

All hopes were placed in the basket of UNILAG. Well UNILAG threw my brother and I away.

A little addition:

Even during jamb registration. My mum followed my twin and I to the jamb registration center.

It was so bad... It was on that day, my mum and I deliberated on what I should actually go for.

Political science was the choice, especially since I actually got a D7 in my literature that year.

Continuation.

So no admission!!!... Ah!, I'll spend one more year at home!.

Infact my brother and I had given up so soon, my brother was already making so much from teaching, and he boldly told my mum he isn't going to reseat for Jamb.

Since UNILAG threw him away, and since that was were all our hopes were, he isn't interested in school anymore.

My mum was obviously not pleased; hearing her son say this. As God would have it, she did her best and got us admitted as "Part-time students" into Yaba college of technology.

But still...

I didn't know what I actually wanted to study.

My mum followed me on the first day I was to resume lectures.

I can't forget that day.

Me: Mummy, what am I studying?

My mum: That's your class over there.

Me: Ahan,what am I studying?, tell me, how can I just enter into a class without even knowing what it's all about.

My mum: just go in, you'll find out later.

I was utterly confused, I walked up to my elder brother and asked him, since my mum had refused to give answers.

It was then my brother said:

My brother: You're studying OTM.

Me: Really!!, Which kind of course is this?. What does it even stand for?.

My brother: Office Technology Management.

Disappointment was written all over my face, but can I blame my mum? No!, If I knew what I wanted to study, all these won't have happened.

This is 2022, and it's now I finally realized what I truly want to study.

Five years, gone and I'll still have to start afresh if I truly want to fulfil purpose.

Sighs...

Till we meet again in my next article and in yours.

Thanks for reading.