Crying in My Sleep

They say that people have 3 to 5 dreams every night when they go to sleep. Some even have 7 dreams or more while they're asleep.

I believe that I also have dreams every night but most of the time, the moment I wake up in the morning, I forget about the dreams I have when I'm still sleeping. Meanwhile, most of the time, my dreams are just weird encounters with the people I often think of, and sometimes, meeting unfamiliar people that I have never met in real life but we seem so close in my dreams as if we have already met before.

There are even happy dreams that involve attending a small gathering with my friends and relatives, embarrassing moments, and lonely dreams like losing a special person in my life. There are even metaphorical dreams of losing one of my teeth, which others believe means someone is going to die.

Sometimes, when we're sleeping, we have dreams that seem so real to the point that if it is too heartbreaking, we end up crying in our sleep, and then wake up with tears in our eyes and even have a wet pillow. I actually have experienced crying in my sleep many times before. And just recently, I woke up with heavy tears flowing down from my eyes and have a heavy heart. But when I think deeply about it, I don't know what my dream was all about. I totally forgot everything that happened in my dream.

However, there are some dreams that I still remember because they seemed real, which left me crying in my sleep.

The first one was when my mother died because of a vehicular accident (knock on wood). I was still at school at that time and my auntie called me to tell me what happened, that my mother was rushed to the hospital because she was hit by a car. At first, I still thought she was just kidding but when I realized that she was serious about it, tears began to flow from my eyes. My teacher asked what happened and my classmates started to wonder why I was crying. After the phone call ended, I went out of the room and started to run to come home, but the security guard did not allow me to go out of the school premises because it was still class hour. I wanted to go home so bad at that time but I couldn't go out. Then my auntie called again to tell me that she already passed away, and was declared dead on arrival by the doctor. This was the moment I started crying in my sleep. And in my dream, I was left crying at the gate of our school with my teacher and classmates looking at me.

The second dream where I ended up crying in my sleep and that I wouldn't forget is when it was already the end of the world. I remember before we went to sleep that time, we watched the movie "2012", which is a disaster movie. In my dream, I was sleeping and I was awakened because of the strong earthquake. I immediately jumped out of bed and looked for my parents but they were not in the house. Then my phone was ringing. It was a phone call from my mother telling me to hurry and meet them in a certain place. I hurriedly went out of the house because it's about to collapse. Then water is about to flow from the sea. I ran as fast as I can just to get to the place my mother told me about, but when I got there, they said that I was already too late. They were all inside the jeepney (just like the jeep for our church service) and all of them are our churchmates. Then the jeep started to fly high while I was trying to grab my mother's hand. Then when the jeep was already 5 to 10 meters high, the people inside it vanished. That time, I realized that I wasn't saved and that I was left to suffer here on Earth. So I ended up crying and regretting the bad things I did.

These are the two dreams that made me cry in my sleep. They seemed so realistic and every time I think about it, regret always eats me for being mean to my mother sometimes, and for being a bad person in general.

Dreams are supposed to give us a message and a warning so I guess these dreams delivered their purpose.