I am feeling burnout for the whole week
As much as possible, I don't want to write about how stressed I am for the whole week. I guess it is not a stress anymore, but rather a body burnout. I was so busy for the whole day, like since I woke up at 5 in the morning until 10 in the evening. When I wake up, I just do some stretches and abdominal exercises because my tummy is getting bigger nowadays. I took a shower early because I know it's bad to take a shower when you are too exposed to the screen for so long.
I am not a person who rants about his life that this happened, like that happened and this is what I am because something happened unexpectedly. Everything is a choice and that choice always comes to you. For the past weeks, my body has been working and blogging non-stop. It has been a cycle since I started here, but this month is not the same as the previous ones because I already started teaching online. I announced before that I am going to teach and I am finally teaching online for 2 weeks already. I thought that I could handle everything in my schedule and I was wrong.
My mind can handle it all, but my body cannot keep up with it. All the articles I made for this month, all the lessons I need to understand and practice, and all the household chores I need to comply with. All these things are overloading and my body was already complaining to me. My hands are shaking sometimes because I type so many words in a single second. My eyes are quite dry because my exposure on the screen is taking longer than usual. My back is aching because I sat for several hours straight and I can only stand up when I have a break in class.
Speaking of classes, although I didn't complain about the salary, the kids are too much for me. I know I can teach for hours and so, that is why I was confident that I can perform my job well. The shocking part is I cannot handle children. Children are too playful. They are not listening when they feel bored or distracted. All you need to do is to keep their attention on you by singing, by calling their name several times and praising them even if they are not really good. I feel like I am faking my job as their teacher in grammar. The thing that binds me with this job is that I didn't want to disappoint my professor who I talked with about the job. He is the supervisor.
As the day went by, the intensity of what I felt was like a crazy kettle that keeps whistling and whistling until you turn it off. The lesson is very basic and I have no problem learning it. The main problem here is how I am going to teach it to a 9-12 years old kid online. My throat is very drained every time the class ends. I am just drinking soothing tea or lemon to ease the dryness of my throat. I napped for around 30 minutes, then I will wake up to open my read cash account to do what I have to do. Like you know, engaging in the community is the most important thing while you are staying on this platform.
Actually, right now I am just happy while writing this because it is easing the pain, the stress and the fatigue I am feeling right now. I don't know why, but writing does magic in my body. I want to shout so that all these things come out and I really do that in our drum at the back of our house. It was filled with clean water and I immersed my head and shouted as much as possible until I felt fine. It felt good after I did that, it was like a thorn in my chest was gone. Surely, I know what to do about this burnout and stress I had. This is the second time I felt a burnout actually so I know how to handle it.
I am just thankful that after all these things happening to me. I am still healthy and well. I guess I am thankful to my father who cooked vegetable dishes every single day, like literally everyday. Our meal will not be complete when there is no vegetable dish on our table. That's why I am still healthy despite all the stress I am feeling. All the vitamins, nutrients and minerals I need for my body to be well were given to me. Also, I am thankful to those people I am talking to everyday who keep me at least alive and well-socialized despite it being online.
I just wanted to end this telling you guys when you feel you are going to be stressed, then rest a little bit. Resting is free and your body needs it. Although you think your mind can handle it, your body cannot. There are so many reasons why we should earn money and also, there are so many reasons why we should rest too. I am actually going to quit my online teaching this upcoming Friday because I know I cannot do it well. I am just deceiving myself that I can teach those kids with the quality education they deserve. No to body burnout anymore.
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Bro you are really trying in teaching children. I prefer to teach teenagers to children. I've once witnessed my friend teaching children and I always get sick on how he's always shouting and faking some things 🤦