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@Dawn_Dii 18 March 2022

The electricity has just return after 20 hours, Sorry for being innactive, I will get back to you all soon 💚💚

@Dawn_Dii 17 March 2022

His Last Wish and My Promises ***"Please let her finish her studies"*** *That's what my father said before God took his last breath.* Since I was in elementary school, my father was the one that was active in meetings, General cleanings and recognition days instead of my mother. His goal was for me to succeed so that I can't experience such hardships that they encounter, that's what parents always do to their children.  That last word was my motivation to thrive more in order to fulfill his wish. I finished my study like what he wanted but I don't think I succeeded yet, because this is just the beginning of everything that ends. My father was once a disciplinarian of our family, there was no one who could stop him to discipline us or else kasali kang disiplinahin. I remember that time when he told me to get a hammer in my Aunt which was ten kilometer from our house, nung nakuha ko na yung hammer, uuwi na sana ako, but I saw some kids watching a cartoons show in one of the house there and has a tv, and because of my curiosity, nakinood narin ako.  I did not notice the time because I was so enjoying the cartoon movie, when I got home it was almost dark and I left in the morning. I gave the hammer to him and he was just smiled at me and said ***" Take your sit and eat your dinner".*** I thought that everything was okay because he was in good mood, after dinner I went outside the house because I noticed that he put some dry leaves and burned it under the jackfruit tree and then he called me again.  It was late to my realization that he was mad, very mad that he put me into a big sack and tie me upright at the jackfruit tree above the dry leaves that he was burning.  I was like a lechon back then haha, but it never came into my mind to hate him or get angry with him, because I know it was my fault, even though it was not enough for that kind of disciplinary action. When he was sick, my mother left us for another man that is why I am the one who took care of him until his last breath, nung nasa cemetery na kami, I noticed that the grave of my father was different from his brothers who also passed away, they are all buried comfortable with concretes, but my father was only buried in a soil. It was so heart breaking for me because I was just 12 years old back then, I don't have money to atleast make him comfortable down there, that is why I promised him that I will make him comfortable, na papagawaan ko sya ng nitso, at kahit kubo lang. And it is exactly Ten Years today but I forgot all about my promises, Last night I am happy because he visits me in my dream but I am sad because I think he wanted me to remember my promised to him, and that was to make him comfortable.  In my dream, he was lying in a no roof bed where the rains are all dropping on his face, I ran in to him and tell him why he was lying there when the rain was so strong, but he was just staring at me, seriously and then ignore me, I was convincing him to go inside our house so that he can't get wet but no, he was just ignoring me.  I woke up in the morning because my husband shaking me, because I was crying, and I end up crying so hard that I can't breath because this day is his 10th death anniversary.  I know what is the meaning of the message in my dream, it is almost a month or two where its still raining amd that he remind me that maybe I should put atleast a roof where he burried. 10 years has past and I saw the same man in my dream, nothing has change his serious looks and his temper haha, I don't want to promise again but I will try my best to fulfill my promises.  ***"Hang in there papa 💚*** ________________________________________________ I am really emotional while writing this kasi bigla ko syang namimis lalo na at nakita ko ang mukha nya kagabi. Pero hindi pa naman huli ang lahat, matutupad ko parin yung pangako ko hehe. That would be all for today, Thank You always for supporting me, to My lovely and kind SPONSORS, COMMENTERS, LIKERS, VIEWERS, READERS, thank you for your time always 💚💚 This is me @Dawn_Dii , Have a blessed day ahead 💚💚 Date Published: March 17, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 15 March 2022

My Unusual Day `Fiesta, Basketball, Disco, Many sellers of  ukay ukay beside the road, pop corn, and many more, that was the time when we are not afraid to be infected by what they call Covid-19.` The other day  was really hot because the sunlight that hits my skin hurts, so I thought of not going out of the house because the heat of the sun is dizzying, but one of my nieces went to me and said that my cousin wanted me to help them cook ***"Binignit".*** So I went to them and helped. The work that was assigned to me was to make coconut milk (Gata). I did it with Makulit na Sophia because she really wanted to help. So while doing that I was  writing a draft here in read.cash.  I remember when I was still in highschool the most affordable food in our canteen was "Binignit" it was 5 pesos per cellophane so we couldn't be hungry during our recess time because we are full with a five peso, so even i was just had a five peso allowance, I was totally happy. After the hard work, of course we all ate while having funny chats. It was almost a month ago when I did not visit them, that's why they are all asking how I was and  that I could not even take time visiting them, I.was just replied them that I was busy watching KDramas haha, half truth, I was actually busy digging up my garden for my hot chillies. After the long chit chat I decided to go home, I also bought some for my mother in law. It was so delicious eating this kind of food  after the hard work.  I was going home when I saw some of my nieces playing basketball and volleyball, so I stopped by and asked them if I wanted to join, they were teasing me that I should at least play 30 minutes a day because I became chubby haha. I was not offended because it's true. Since two years have passed and due to the pandemic we could not be able to maintain our basketball court, because half of it was not cemented yet a lot of grass grows, so we used only the half court, and it was one of the "***Pangakong napako"*** last election haha, and until now it is still not finished. I was once a three point shooter but after a long time since I got married I forget all about playing basketball since I am more focused on my family. I still remember back then, when there was no Covid,we were all so excited for December to come because of the yearly basketball league, which I was one of the sports committee, that was why I also fall in love with basketball, and I am also present for the basketball young women division. Nakakamis lang hehe. Sophia was also enjoying herself. This happened before she got sick. She was energetic, also playing with the ball, and cried after her cousin threw her the ball. The kids talaga. but for two days and two nights I couldn't be able to sleep because I am watching her 24/7, this one is the most tiring battle of being a mother. A day like this is what I really miss, having time with my younger niece and nephews, because my main priority is my family and since I got married I have more time with my married cousin as well, so I am like relate to their topic about how hard the married life, so having bonding like this even just a day is memorable for me. Good morning read.cash Fam, How are you ? I hope that you all doing good. My days and nights were so tiring kasi hindi pa magaling si Sophia, halos hindi na ako marunong mag type dahil masakit na yung mga kamay ko na ginawa nyang unan, at gusto nya palagi ko syang kina cuddle, hehe laban lang talaga as a mother. ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, thank you for reading, Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**,**COMMENTERS** , **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for always supporting me. This is me @Dawn_Dii , Kindly check my recent articles 💚💚 https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii Tiring But Still Happy https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/tiring-but-still-happy-1c71bd92 Call Sign https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/call-sign-84441f16 My Life Purpose Behind My Name https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/my-life-purpose-behind-my-name-81fc3af4 The Day Has Come https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/the-day-has-come-c5a9320a I Become a cheater https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/i-became-a-cheater-5ac764a5 Affraid Of Falling Again https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/afraid-of-falling-again-1b43aa96 Game Over https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/game-over-7949d087 Date Published : March 16, 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 14 March 2022

Random Election Survey ***As an individual, I have the right to choose who I want to vote for in the upcoming election, but how when I don't know any of them haha, will I vote randomly?***  Today, there are people who came to our house and asked if they could interview us for election survey purposes, and my husband agreed since I was inside of our room, I just heard that they asked what is the complete name of my husband and my complete name and how many people living in our house My husband answered them politely since it was just a survey,When they asked about how the local government here in our community responds in our needs as voter, my husband reply " Pigado" which means there are no response, if there was maybe when we ranked it of 1-10, he gave at least 4 out of 10 at it was only selected, ito yung sinasabi nila na kung sino lang yung may kapit.  I decided to step out and asked if we could remain the interview anonymous, because as we all know politics has dirty tactics, but they said it was okay since it was just a survey. It was just a survey but they collected our data, like complete names, how many people are living in our house, what are their names, our ages, gender, and our address.  It was just terrifying because here in our community politics has dirty tactics, and only one family has ruled in our community over and over the year, that is why there was no improvement, and if we go against them, we don't know what will happen to us. I was not overreacting nor being paranoid kasi ganun talaga ang laro ng politics dito sa amin.  Because they said it was okay, I never answered their questions until they did not agree to us being anonymous.  In the end they agreed because they were desperate with our answers. In our neighborhood many of them did not entertain the surveyor because they were afraid, and the barangay did not announce it ahead of time so that the people will be prepared and not scared of that sudden interview/survey. I laughed at myself because I am not familiar with the people who are running for the elections.I was always saying that " Who is that? and Who is this person? haha, they can't blame me because I have never seen the faces of the candidates. Elections is fast approaching and I never saw one candidate with a motorcade in our barangay haha, nakakatawa lang kasi paano ako or kami boboto kung sa pangalan palang hindi na namin kilala.  There was no candidate who were telling about their platforms and how they can improve our community, there was none, kaya bahala na lang siguro, kahit naman kasi ano ang gagawin namin, mananalo at hindi parin mapapalitan ang nakaupo sa pwesto sa lugar namin.  Early afternoon read.cash Fam, today is one of my tiring days, I can't sleep because Sophia got sick, She has high fever and having an amoeba. My hands were tired of cuddling her because she don't want to sit on her own nor sleep on her own, I haven't sleep since last night and our internet comnection was lost so I have to go to the next wifi vending machine to connect with the sick Sophia with me. I am sorry If I can't leave comments or interact with you guys, I will get back to you soon as long as everything will be okay here, thank You for your kind and understanding. ***Disclaimer: No part of this article is used to advertise nor commercialize and it falls under the guidelines of fair use. All parts and contents are mine and are purely based on my personal learning experiences, personal thoughts, and personal opinions. This article is mainly intended for entertainment purposes only.*** Thank You for reading. This is me @Dawn_Dii , Kindly check my recent articles 💚💚 https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii Tiring But Still Happy https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/tiring-but-still-happy-1c71bd92 Call Sign https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/call-sign-84441f16 My Life Purpose Behind My Name https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/my-life-purpose-behind-my-name-81fc3af4 The Day Has Come https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/the-day-has-come-c5a9320a I Become a cheater https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/i-became-a-cheater-5ac764a5 Affraid Of Falling Again https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/afraid-of-falling-again-1b43aa96 Game Over https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/game-over-7949d087 Date Published : March 14, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 13 March 2022

13 Hours Without Electricity ***Without electricity is one of the hardest parts of our  generation today because from the time we wake up until we sleep we are always depending on the lights and current that the electricity is providing.***  I remember when I was still in grade school, we didn't have electricity back then because my parents could not afford it, so what we used back then was a "Palong-Palong" or Lampara to light our house, and that was one of the reason why I couldn't see in the dark because I was studying before with that lamp on my side. It was okay back then, because we enjoyed our night time without electricity, but today it feels like it was the end of the world, where you can't use your cell phone because it was dead , we can't watch tv, and it was really dark when the night came. ***So my 13 hour brownout story begins here …*** My everyday routines start with waking up early, preparing food for my husband who is going to work and having coffee, with a cellphone on the side. Yesterday morning I never expected brownouts since there was no advisory, so I don't bother charging my phone, charging our flashlights and everything that is needed to be charged, and I was shocked because the lights suddenly turned off and that was it, our whole community has brownout without advisory in advance.  It started at 6 Am, and what to expect when there is no electricity, my whole day was boring since the battery of my phone was drained since I was not prepared for the brownout.  And because I got bored I started to collect all my laundry and I finished it half a day, while waiting for the electricity to come back I went to my cousin's house because there are no people, they were all sleeping since there was no wifi haha, so mingaw jud kaayo..  I did all kinds of house works to kill my boredom, but it was not enough, yung feeling na nangangati na yung kamay ko at gustong gusto ng humawak ng cellphone at manood ng tv. Night came and it was really dark around our neighborhood, they were using "Lampara '' but ours was the darkest because we don't have Lamp, Sophia was crying because she was really afraid of darkness, even she was already asleep when we turned off the lights she was really crying and wanted to turned the lights on, hindi sya sanay sa madilim talaga.  What I did was I made some bonfire in our yard para hindi na masyadong madilim, and sophia was enjoying while catching her own shadow haha, I did some shadows of birds, dogs, and butterfly using my hands and Sophia really like it, it was her first time seeing it, and it was my first time doing it with her since the one that doing that when I was a kid was my late father.  My day was so boring but I still enjoyed it because I was having more time with Sophia, we admit it or not even though we took care of our kids we cannot deny the fact that while taking care of them, we still have a lot of time using our cell phones. ***LESSON LEARNED:***  What I learned from that incident was being more prepared, sometimes because we are so complacent, we forget to be prepared for whatever happens, I know it was just a  brown out, and it was not a big deal after all but the fact that I wasn’t ready, what if something worse happened and I wasn’t ready, that brown out taught me a lot of lesson. Good afternoon read.cash family, it's nice to be back here after the long whole day yesterday,I wasn't able to reached up to you guys yesterday because of the brown out, And I wasn't able to published article until the electricity has back because I was so drained, yung feeling ko hindi sumama yung utak ko sa pagbalik ng ilaw kaya nakakapanghinayang na natapos ang araw kahapon. Anyways, thank you for reading this one,That would be all for today, thank you for reading, Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**,**COMMENTERS** , **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for always supporting me. This is me @Dawn_Dii , Kindly check my recent articles 💚💚 https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii Tiring But Still Happy https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/tiring-but-still-happy-1c71bd92 Call Sign https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/call-sign-84441f16 My Life Purpose Behind My Name https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/my-life-purpose-behind-my-name-81fc3af4 The Day Has Come https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/the-day-has-come-c5a9320a I Become a cheater https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/i-became-a-cheater-5ac764a5 Affraid Of Falling Again https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/afraid-of-falling-again-1b43aa96 Game Over https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/game-over-7949d087 Date Published : March 13, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 12 March 2022

13 hours without electricity, that is why I am not active today.

@Dawn_Dii 11 March 2022

Rewarded Today is friday and I am thankful because despite being emotionally tired and my brain is already drained, I met the deadline of my niece's modules. At this moment I have not slept yet, my eyes are hurting and my hands are tired from writing and typing on the keyboard of my phone since I don't have a laptop to use. My plan today is going to sleep the whole day but I know I cannot do it because I have Sophia who is super energetic, she will never get me sleep unless she is also sleeping, I am thankful because my husband never let me do the housework because he knows that I am tired,so before leaving for work he cooked for our food and cleaned the house immediately. Half an hour ago I emailed my completed modules to my niece, and I am half way through the speech which I decided to finish after taking a nap. But my niece came and gave me a present. It was a cellphone holder, hehe I'm touched as I told her that I don't need it.  **" You don't have to give me this one, hindi naman ako nagpapabayad"** I said to her but she really insisted.  **"Hindi naman to bayad ehh, it's a gift because I am grateful to have you as my aunt, if it were not you I really can't pass my module on the deadline"**  Wow, I was teary eyed haha, She knows that I need a cellphone holder because it was so tiring holding my cell phone the whole day, and she volunteered that she will take Sophia to their home so that I can sleep peacefully, so I think I really can go with my plan hehe thanks to her 💚 How rewarding isn't it ?? hmmmm Before taking a nap, my happiness extended when I received a notification that I had already reached more than one thousand (1000) views in my articles. Congrats to me hehe.  *Helping shouldn’t be bragging, and I’m not bragging haha, I just really did my best to help with my nephews and I’m happy with what I’m doing.* ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, thank you for reading, Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**,**COMMENTERS** , **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for always supporting me. This is me @Dawn_Dii , Kindly check my recent articles 💚💚 Tiring But Still Happy https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/tiring-but-still-happy-1c71bd92 Call Sign https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/call-sign-84441f16 My Life Purpose Behind My Name https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/my-life-purpose-behind-my-name-81fc3af4 The Day Has Come https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/the-day-has-come-c5a9320a I Become a cheater https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/i-became-a-cheater-5ac764a5 Affraid Of Falling Again https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/afraid-of-falling-again-1b43aa96 Game Over https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/game-over-7949d087 Date Published : March 11, 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 10 March 2022

Meeting Deadlines After visiting my mother and taking a rest, I am now back to my usual days where I should meet the deadline.  Today is Thursday and I woke up late because I slept late last night because I had to work overtime just to meet the deadline. My eyes are still hurting. It feels like my eyeballs are going out of my eyes haha. ***I thought that I was done doing research papers when I was in highschool, done doing baby thesis in my first year of college, done doing reflection papers, reaction papers and answering multiple choices and essays, because now? I think that I am back on being an elementary, highschool and a college student.***  Doing essays during my elementary days was not that easy since I am not good in english, I can do essays with filipino but the requirement was to write it in english, and I don't have a choice but to learn more in english so that my next essay writings will be easy for me.  My favorite was multiple choice because even though I did not know the answer I can answer any of the choices haha.  While doing research paper in highschool was so hard because we don't have an android phone, a laptop or an internet connection, what we have was books at the library, newspapers and magazines, we used all the materials we think that was usable for our research because our phone back then was NOKIA 3310 and it was not mine actually haha, It was from my cousin who was my classmate, I remember back then that the famous social media was friendster, and also textmate and call mate.  When I was in first year college I had to go to an internet cafe while doing my reaction/reflection papers as well as my baby thesis, but some of my classmates will pay me if I am going to do their  papers. I had to multitask because I had a lot of papers to do plus projects, quiz and exams. When I was in 4th year college our thesis advisers paired us for our thesis only 2 members in each group, but I think I am doing all the thesis alone since my partner was always absent. If I don't do it because he was absent our whole thesis will be ruined.  My whole school days, I did not depend others in terms of projects and papers. As long as I think that I can do it, I will really do it in order to meet the deadline.  ________________________Last Sunday I was shocked when I received emails from my niece who is studying first year college in DCPC. She sent me her eight subject modules. I was like she sent it to me mistakenly? that's why I chatted her and she replied ***" Te, I can't do it alone, My brain is draining, please help me"***  I just had a deep sigh, thinking of her modules haha and I had no choice but to help her because the deadline is tomorrow friday.  Monday when one of my nephews asked me if I could do a speech for them. There were five of them actually because they were all at the same age and the same grade, it was about Covid-19, face to face classes and political issues and the deadline is this coming monday.  My whole week is loaded about meeting deadlines for their modules. That is why today I'm a bit drained, haha, thinking about their topics. I sleep late at night and I have to wake up early to prepare my husband's food and things and take care of Sophia.  I am not busy haha, because I feel like I am studying again. ________________________________________________ That would be all for today since I am going to be busy again. Thank you for reading.  Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**, **COMMENTERS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys.Thank You for always supporting me This is me @Dawn_Dii Have a good day ahead 💚💚 Date Published: March 10, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 9 March 2022

I had to removed my first short post because I mistakenly type the username of my new Sponsor 💚💚 Hoping for your kind And consideration 💚💚

@Dawn_Dii 9 March 2022

Thank You so much @DennMarc for your Sponsorship 💚💚 May God will give you more blessings and of course More BCH to come in your wallet. Thank You so much 💚💚

@Dawn_Dii 9 March 2022

Tiring But Still Happy Yesterday  was a tiring day for me. I mentioned in my recent articles that my planned visit to my mother was postponed because of the bad weather. Last week it was moved supposedly the other day but I did it yesterday morning. I woke up early in the morning because I have to prepare food for my husband and for Sophia since I am going to leave her at my mother in-law.  I never let myself bother from the mess inside our house since I was in a hurry, I decided to commute with a Jeep since thinking about bus made me feel vomiting haha, I cannot remember when was the last time that I rode a bus, kaya hindi na sanay ang sikmura ko.  7:30 in the morning ng ihatid ko si Sophia sa mother in Law ko, I am thankful because she was enjoying herself while playing "Balay Balay", Almost 8 Am when the jeep was arrived, Sophia cried because she wanted also to ride a jeep, if the weather was fine I could carry her but it was raining so hard. One hour and Forty Five Minutes after we arrived at the town the jeep was always stopping because the driver picked up some passengers while on the road. We Filipinos, kapag may dumarating madami talaga ang sasalubong sayo even if you tell them that you have no extra money haha. And that was true because my money was just enough to buy medicine and other necessities that my mother would need, so ang na afford ko lang na pasalubong is Bread haha.  I rode a motorcycle for at least 30 minutes from the town to my mother's place. It was refreshing because you can see a lot of greenery while riding so your 30 minutes won't be boring.  The place has different plants and that was the source of income of the people there, There are sugar canes, what the people doing there was planting sugar canes, they were paid $4 everyday without free foods, it was from 7 Am to 4 Pm, and when the sugar cane grows the people there cleaned every piece of it, using manual hand weeding. It was heartbreaking because I saw some areas there and there were many old ladies that were doing hand weeding around the sugar canes, at their age they should be resting at their homes and eating healthy foods. At the other side there was a pineapple plantation, it is one of the sources of income for the other people there. When I reached my destination I was shocked to see my brother's house without a roof, since it was raining so hard and the wind was strong at dinala yung bubong nila. I was about to cry seeing them keeping their things not to get wet. I was so emotional that I couldn't even take a picture of them because I helped them keep their clothes. After helping them with their things, I went to my mother's house, Sabi nila hindi dapat kinukunan ng picture ang may sakit, iwan ko and because I was afraid of the sayings, I did not take a picture of her.  I gave her the medicines that I bought and I widraw $30 in my wallet here in read.cash and gave it to her for her food and viand.  I wanted to stay long but I couldn't since the jeep left at exactly 11:30 in the morning and I had to pick.up some of my cousin's order at her supplier online.Here in our place the jeep driver doesn't care about social distancing because of the COVID-19, because everytime I ride a jeep, siksikan talaga, yung tipong skin to skin na kayo ng katabi mo.  My head started aching when I smelled a strong perfume from one of the passengers, and the person sitting next to me had a smelly armpit. All I did was close my eyes and let myself fall asleep and keep calm because of the odor.  After 2 hours, I reached my cousin's house where I should drop her orders and then I walked again going home, and because I left Sophia at my Mother in Law's house I went there after dropping my things at our house.  And I walk again haha, I was so tired and exhausted but Sophia's energy did not drain the whole day, because when we went home, she was running while holding a calculator and a cutix haha.  At the end of the day, I fell asleep and I did not know that my husband was already home, I woke up around 7:30 Pm when he woke me up for dinner. ***FINAL THOUGHT:*** I am so thankful of this platform, the truth is I didn't have every little single penny yesterday, that is why I had to withdraw some in my wallet at least to contribute to them even a little. It was a tiring day but still I am satisfied, so no matter how tired it was I ended up smiling and sharing the good did to.my husband.  ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, thank you for reading, Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**,**COMMENTERS** , **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for always supporting me. Kindly check my recent articles 💚💚 This is me @Dawn_Dii , Have a good day ahead.💚💚 Date Published: March 9, 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 8 March 2022

Today is such a tiring day for me, As I went to my mother's place to visit her.. That is why I am inactive half this day hehe. Full Story Later, I just want to rest a bit.. Abang² 💚💚

@Dawn_Dii 7 March 2022

Call Sign ***Is it weird to have a relationship with a first name basis? like He calls my real name and I call his real name also?*** For me, it is important to have a call sign in a relationship, because it symbolizes the official and the formality of our relationship.  When you search for call signs in google you will be shocked that there are a lot of common call signs to choose from, but I don't want ours to be common (charrr) hehe. During the first day of our relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend with my husband, I let him decide what we should call each other. It is weird when I call him ***Pil-Pil*** and he will call me ***Day-day*** haha, that is not so sweet and of course in this stage of our relationship nandito na lahat ng lambing at ka sweetan. His first choice was "***BUK***", I laughed at it because it seems that we were from **Bukidnon** haha which is true, He said that it was from **Buko Song By Jireh Lim,** and "***BUK***" means **"Buhay ko"** not Bukidnon haha. Pinagbigyan ko naman sya kasi nagtatampo na haha, but I ended up calling him "**Bukayo"**, alam nyo yun, yung minatamis na buko haha Bukayo, some of our friends said that our call sign was new to ear and it was unique.  Everytime we had a fight, a small fight actually hehe, we ended up changing our call sign, sabi kasi nila magtatagal daw kayo pag ganun haha. Ewan pero naniwala naman ako hehe, that was why I ended up listing all the unique call signs but he choosed none of the above. I let him decide again, but he chose ***"Megz"***, we ended up debating about it, I was insisting that it was the nickname of **Miguel Zubiri** haha, and one thing we are more than friends because we can also interpret it as mego or mega, I let him decide another one because I really don't like it. He chose again and that was " **Mhine**" with an H haha, It was so very common because most of the teenager here call their boyfriend and girlfriends Mine, and I don't want it, but he was like I call you Day-Day nalang haha, and I ended up calling him Mhine with an H, at the end of the day I call him "***Toooottt***" haha.  iniba ko kasi ang ring tone or message tone sa number nya, para alam ko na agad na sya yung nag text or call haha since nasabi ko na nung last part hehe we made our relationship secret from my family. Before our wedding was approaching, He suddenly called me "***Gangg***" and I find it sweet hehe that was why I called him also Gangg, sometimes Palangga, It was our wedding day when the Officiating Minister asked us what was our call sigh and we said it was Gangg, he laughed and said " ***I hope You are not end up calling each other Ginanggangg".*** When Sophia was started talking, she never said Papa or mama, but she called us ***Gangg*** that was why we changed it to Pang and Mang haha.  ***FINAL THOUGHT***: Call signs is not that important to put an effort for, but when it comes to the one you love haha, mapapa effort ka talaga, and we girls are finding it sweet and cute when our boyfriend or husband calling out our call sign, it seems like a mark on their and our face na may nagmamay ari na sa atin haha, it’s just a human way of expressing love. ________________________________________________Good evening fellow read.cashers 💚, I was unable to update early since it was raining so hard and our internet connection was lost again, It is happening now everyday because of the weather, luckily it does not brown out or I will be bored the whole day. Supposedly today I was going to visit my mother because it was almost a month when she was sick and It was almost a month when I haven't visiting her due to the bad weather, but this morning the rain suddenly came and I could not be able to travel because I might get wet and it will take me about 3 hours of travelling so I decided to posponed it, Hopefully the sun will rise tommorrow so that I can visit her. That would be all for tonight, I hope that you all doing good despite of this crises that we are facing right now, laban lang ng laban. To my beloved **SPONSORS**, thank you so much for sharing your blessings to me, To my **VIEWERS** out there I just want to say Hi, to my **LIKERS**, **COMMENTERS**, thank you for the support always and taking time to stop by at my articles, this means a lot to me. This is me @Dawn_Dii , saying have a good day ahead 💚💚 Date published: March 8, 2022 Time: 2:50 AM

@Dawn_Dii 6 March 2022

My Life Purpose Behind My Name ***Have you ever heard of a person without a name ?***  Of course there's none right, even our pets have their own names. I sometimes wonder where my parents get my name, because As I noticed some of the names are accurate to their birth month, Or to their favorite characters or artist.  I sometimes wonder where my parents get their inspiration from choosing my name. My True name is Dayien, my account name Dawn is from my daughter Sophia Dawn, I named it after her because apparently she is my inspiration to do well in this platform. when I first searched my name in google it said that my name was one of the weirdest names in the world, I don't know why haha.  Recently I read some articles that are related o thier name meaning and it awaken my curiosity to searched also my name on google.com. So here it is.. Let's Start 💚. ***MY LIFE PURPOSE ACCORDING TO MY BIRTH PATH*** My role in life according to my date of birth is to serve humanity as an ambassador of peace, a mediator who understands the hearts and minds of others and helps them to resolve differences. Your purpose is to assist others to find practical solutions to their problems.  My persuasive powers of tact and diplomacy would go a long way to develop harmony and co-operation and to create understanding by merging differing viewpoints. Your strength will come from the support from others who respect, appreciate, and encourage you towards your ideals and goals.  My feelings for people must be understood and translated from an emotional to an intellectual level in order to base your decisions upon clear principles and analysis. Otherwise you could burden and deplete yourself by being too personally involved, and feeling strongly obliged not to hurt or disappoint anyone.  I must learn to merge with others in order to give to them and to learn something constructive from my experiences, yet I must remain mentally individual. Because of the agreeable and easy-going manner of my inner nature, I should guard against procrastinating and being indecisive. Systematic accomplishment would build self-confidence. I could express my potential through counseling, teaching, organizing the efforts of others, or serving the public in some capacity, calling upon tactful and gentle ways to bring people together to accomplish a common purpose without acrimony. As I develop these abilities, people would seek for my counsel.  Keeping confidences sacred would earn me the trust and respect of others. My greatest happiness and fulfillment will come from meaningful and mutually beneficial interaction with others. ***MY LIFE PURPOSE ACCORDING TO MY NAME*** My first name of Dayien gives me the desire for responsibility and takes me into practical pursuits. I could excel in accomplishments of a technical nature where concentration and attention to detail are important. Whatever I undertake, I have the patience and inclination to do well. I feel a sense of security in positions of responsibility where progress is made through systematic, step-by-step procedures.I do have a strong sense of responsibility for the welfare of others and a willingness to be helpful. Home and children are important to me , and I desire a settled environment. In the home, I would seek to maintain order and system through using proper disciplinary measures. There is a tendency to assume more than my share of duties, and others could impose on my good nature, thus over-burdening me with responsibilities that could cause me to worry. ***MY LIFE PURPOSE ACCORDING TO MY SURNAME*** The surname of Camad creates a family that desires an easy, pleasant life. They are content to remain in settled, secure conditions following structured routines.  They attract experiences where they work hard often in technical,mechanical, electronic fields, or in healthcare and human resources. They require the support of others to perform at their best. Because of their overly fussy qualities, they cannot be pushed or rushed as they need the time to do a good job. This surname can be a limitation upon each person's opportunity to express his or her inner potential qualities for, as a family, there is a lack of inspiration, spontaneity, and enthusiasm for new ideas and change.  Source: **www.kabalarians.com** http://www.kabalarians.com ***LAST THOUGHTS:***  Last week as I watched some shows at KBS WORLD, One of the artists there was called a name analyst. All we have to do is to give our complete name and real name with our birthdays. It was just amazing because only through our names they will know who we really are and what we and our family will become in the future. After searching my name, I was amazed because most of it were true my parents did a good job in choosing my name haha.  ________________________________________________ Good afternon read.cash Fam, I hope you all still doing good, after writing the last part of my love story haha, ayun naubusan na ako ng maisusulat, kaya ito nalang muna. Thank you for always stopping by in my articles and taking time viewing, reading, commenting and liking, this means a lot to me, kaya salamat po. To my lovely SPONSORS thank you so much, I could not mention you kasi nahihiya akong mag Tag, but you know who your are, thank you ng Marami. 💚💚 `Disclaimer:` `This humble article is mainly intended for entertainment purposes only.` Date Published: March 6, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 5 March 2022

The Day Has Come ***Time will heal, sabi nga nila and when that time comes all of the bad memories, the pain and sadness will vanish just like bubbles.***  It was May 18, 2014 when we are in a relationship ni Ano (Yung humalik sa akin nung new year at nanligaw.sa akin noong february 14) , officially, that one year round we became friends but he never gave up on pursuing me, but every relationship has its own struggle. My family does not want him for me for so many reasons and that reason doesn't affect me. Those one year of waiting for me, one year of being patient with me showed me so much value like I know we value each other because we are friends but the value I received from him was different.  Because my family was against our relationship we came up with a theme song, It was ***"Against All Odds By: Miariah Carr***ie haha iwan ko kung bakit yun ang  trip ko, sa title lang alam na haha.  We keep our relationship secret because we told them that we already break up for their sake, but we meet secretly. There were times that we crossed paths and we ignored each other as if we didn't know each other but at the end of the day we texted the whole night. I ended up changing his name in my contacts in case they were going to inspect my phone.  It was hard because I could barely see him, we only communicated on text or calls, we also barely saw each other since all eyes were on me, as if I was wanted haha.  But I can see that Love conquers all, and when that person is meant to be your destiny no matter what happens you end up together until the end.  We kept it secret until he personally went to my family for their approval and I am thankful because they approved after more than twenty visits haha, but it's worth waiting for talaga..  Time went by very fast and we reached our 4th year anniversary. I was in third year college back then while He was working supporting me in my studies. Of course my family supported me but he was kind of a responsible boyfriend for me like he was supporting me and helping me with nothing in return.  It was my decision to give up myself to him, because I know I can trust him fully with my life. ________________________As of now, Ako at si **Ano** (Yung humalik sa akin ng new year at nanliligaw noong february 14) we are still going strong hehe, In a four years of relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend we got married on October 28, 2018, and it is going to be four years this coming october. Almost eight years narin kaming sabay sa new year hehe dahil dun nagsimula ang lahat, despite of our busy days dapat pagdating ng new year magkasama kami. Tama nga yong sinabi nya, kung sino yung makakasama mo sa new year sya yung makakatuluyan mo, iwan ko lang haha. It was worth fighting for, because despite the trials that we faced, we are so blessed now to have Sophia in our lives.  Almost Eight years of being together, I know hindi pa namin nalampasan lahat kasi nga marami pa kaming pagdadaanan, but the most important thing is we are one, magkasama kaming harapin lahat ng maaari pa naming pagdaanan.  ***LESSON LEARNED:***  I learned a lot of lessons through my experiences. My experience are not just only about how I fall in love, and how I Hurt from being in love, it also shows how my life flows, how I became just to protect myself and how I stand again and back to my old self.  I know hurting people was not my intention, I know I was doing wrong but being that wrong I am able to know who are the true people who were staying beside me in my ups and downs.  We people do makes mistakes and from that mistake we can learn on how to do what is right and wrong. And of course wag mag madali sa pag-ibig dahil sa kamamadali mo, hindi mo alam na mapupunta ka lang sa maling tao. ________________________________________________ Early afternoon read.cash family, I was about to update early in the morning but our internet connection was lost, I am thankful that it just back on time hehe. This is the last part of my Diary, Actually I intended to just make it short since the truth is my Diary is contained two notebooks na makapal, kung hindi ko eh summary haha aabutin tayo ng isang taon 😅😅 Anyways, thank you for stopping by and taking time for reading this. Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**, **COMMENTERS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for supporting me always. ***Disclaimer***: ***All parts and contents are mine and are purely based on my personal learning experiences, personal thoughts, and personal opinions. This article is mainly intended for entertainment purposes only.*** Date Published: March 5, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 3 March 2022

I Became A Cheater ***I was afraid of getting hurt again, In order to protect myself from pain, I played their games, I became a gamer, I became a cheater.***  Lead image source: Google.com https://m.imdb.com/title/tt11337138/?ref_=ext_shr_lnk Traumatic experience, I was always saying that when someone was courting me, and I don't want to get into another relationship dahil lang sa sinabi nilang napag iiwanan na ako, like I don't care.  It was one night when we were going to a disco with my friends of course, present always sila haha I noticed one guy that was staring at me, nakaranas na ba kayo na parang may mga matang nakasunod lagi sayo?, yes ganun yun and I caught him in the eye.  After that I just ignored him, we bought one case of beer kasi hindi talaga ako sumasayaw ng hindi nakainom haha, when I started to drink bigla nalang lumapit si guy, at ang mga friends ko naman kinilig at iniwan kami. ***" Ikaw si Ano diba?"*** ask nya, I just smiled and nod at him, iniabot nya ang kamay nya para makipagshake hands, at dahil hindi naman talaga ako man hater masyado nakipag shake hands narin ako, yung shake hands na may pisil? yun yong kanya halatang nakikipag flirt ..  At dahil gusto kung umiwas tumayo nalang ako, I approached my friends and dance with them, at nakakabadtrip dahil biglang may nag request ng sweet music kaya ayun may mga partner naman ang kasama ko iniwan ako ng nakatayo mag isa, but he came to the rescue, it was awkward haha.  ***" I had this girlfriend and cheated me with my friend"*** simula nya, bigla tuloy akong na curious sa buhay nya.  ***" One day, she became cold towards me. I didn't know that behind my back, she also had a relationship with my friend, that day I said to myself that I would never fall in love again"*** He was so serious, and I can also feel his pain, I just smiled while giving him some advice, ***" Alam mo sinasabi nila palagi na kaya nawala ang isang taong mahalaga sa buhay mo dahil mas may deserving pa sayo, makakahanap ka rin nun"*** encourage ko sa kanya ***" What if, tayo nalang??"*** ngiti nya ..  Bigla naman akong napa ***"What?"***  ***" Tayo na lang kasi, promise walang inlaban"*** Natawa naman ako.  ***" Pwede ba naman yun? bat magiging tayo kung wala man lang love diba? "***  Hindi makapaniwala na tugon ko.  ***" Why not diba, as long as we're happy and we can never hurt each other since there is no Love involved between us"***  Napaisip naman ako, but I never agreed bigla na lang syang dikit ng dikit sa akin, hinawakan ang kamay ko, sinusuklay ng daliri nya ang buhok ko.  ***" Kayo na ba ni Guy? "*** my friend asked me, at umiling lang ako, nasa CR kami nun..  ***" eh ba't ang sweet ? "*** natawa nalang ako ***" Kami nadaw at walang inlaban"*** tawa ko, pati yung friends ko na curious tuloy na may ganun pala, trip trip lang..  Paglabas namin, nandun si Ano( Yung humalik sa akin nung new year at nanliligaw noong February 14 pero binasted ko) After that kasi we became friends, there was no awkwardness between us.  When we reached our table, syempre Si Ano nakaupo sa tabi ko at nakakunot ang noo nya habang nakatingin kay Guy na umupo din sa tabi ko.  From that moment, nag simula na naman ang mga sweet gesture ni Guy, kami na nga daw kasi wala nga lang inlaban haha.  While we were dancing ni Guy, nakatingin lang si Ano at na enjoy ko na rin ang moment. The next night, hindi nakarating si Guy sa discohan kasi umuwi sa kanila at wala akong pakialam noon, All I know was I want to enjoy my life with my friends, inom doon, inom dito. Someone approaches and wanted to dance with me and I was like GLOBE, Go. lang ng Go. nanligaw si someone sa akin na agad ko namang sinagot atleast may partner ako gabing yun,the next night another someone came at sinagot ko na naman.  I know my past experiences were not enough reason to do such a thing but I did, I was just enjoying my life without knowing that someone is hurting because of me.  Si Ano, He was always there for me, iniuwi ako kapag lasing na ako, sya pa ang gagawa ng excuses wag lang akong pagalitan, He was always guarding me, walang reklamo.  He was always saying that he would wait until I fully recovered from that past, and I felt that I was cheated on him.  Sa kaiiwas ko na saktan sya, nasaktan ko parin sya, I ended up hurting him again and again.. ________________________________________________ Good morning read.cash Family, I hope you all doing good everyday as we go on in our everyday life battle, I am not in a good mood this morning because our dog made a mess in our yard, He destroyed some of my new arranged floweres hayyss But i have no choice to keep calm, letting your mood ruined from a simple thing will make your whole day ruined also kaya sinusubukan kong kumalma haha. Anyways thank you for stopping by here and taking time reading my write ups. It actually happened a long time ago, 2011 and 2012 and 2013 this was my teen days haha puppy love days.💚💚 Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**, **COMMENTERS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for supporting me always. ***Disclaimer***: ***All parts and contents are mine and are purely based on my personal learning experiences, personal thoughts, and personal opinions. This article is mainly intended for entertainment purposes only.*** Maayong Adlaw kanatong Tanan💚💚. Date Published: March 4, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 2 March 2022

Afraid of Falling again ***Sometimes because of the pain, we can be cold towards others, sometimes because of the pain it is hard for us to forgive and sometimes it leads us to the wrong way and sometimes pain leads us to become stronger in facing the reality of life.*** World balance, ito yung tawag sa masaya ka ngayon ang kapalit ay kalungkutan, before I was scared of being happy because I know I will be sad later, I was scared to fall in love again because I know I will be hurt later.  One (1) year later when I finally decided to come home and I miss my hometown a lot, my friends prepared a celebration for me as well as a celebration for the new year since it was December 31, 2012. I was really feel free as I drunk and dance to that loud music and my confidence was really high, sabi nga nila mas nakakaganda kapag na broken hearted ka haha, kaya feeling ko napakaganda ko dahil nga lasing na ako.  I already moved on, I don't feel the pain and hatred anymore but I was still afraid, I was still afraid to give my trust and my heart to someone who might take advantage of my vulnerability again. Hindi ako lasingera pero kahit anong inom ko, hindi ako madaling nalalasing so I was still conscious when someone was dancing next to me and sit next to me when I decided to take a rest from dancing.  ***"Mabuti nakauwi kana"*** He suddenly approached me, I just nodded since I don't really know him personally. He is a friend of my friend and I know his name but I know nothing more than that.  It was a bit awkward kasi kami lang dalawa ang nakaupo, since nasa sayawan ang mga kaibigan ko, he suddenly cleared his throat sabay sabing ***" Masaya akong nakauwi kana"*** I just stared at him blankly, and the memories from the past seemed to be repeated, I suddenly felt afraid that was why I stood up and dance again with my friends, but to my surprise he was dancing while smiling at me, hindi ko tuloy mapigilang mapa kunot noo ***"Anong trip nya"*** sabi ko sa sarili ko..  Everyone was shouting because it was 1 minute left before 12 oclock pero yung iba nagpaputok na ng fireworks kahit wala pang 12 oclock, it was 10 seconds and we were shouting while counting, but someone caught my attention, that guy he's just standing next to me while staring at me, bigla naman akong na conscious, and to my surprise..  He kissed me exactly at 12 Am at January 1, 2013 under the fireworks, yung pakiramdam na nagbunyi ang langit haha, I was so shock that I couldn't even moved, hindi ko man lang sya nasampal kasi nga yun yong nakikita natin sa teleserye diba. ***" Sabi nila, kung sino ang makakasama mo sa new year, sya ang makakatuluyan mo, and I am looking forward to that day would come"*** And then he left, napanganga naman ako, yung literal na nganga talaga.  Syempre tapos na ang new year at pinatay narin ang music pero nandun pa rin kaming lahat at nag kwentuhan except sa kanya, He suddenly left and disappeared.  Kaya ayun tinutukso na naman nila ako, I just ignored them since wala naman akong kilig na na feel kahit pa hinalikan nya ako, it was just a smack, just so you know haha.  It was morning pero ang inabot ko pa rin ay tukso, ***" pwede pala yun kahit hindi  jowa pwedeng halikan??"*** parinig nila sa akin, hindi ko nalang sila pinansin and I went to the store to buy some load, at to my surprise andun sya nakatambay, not him yung kagabi, yung boy nung last year.  He was staring at me while smiling, iwan ko sa kanya bakit nakangiti, " ***Nakauwi kana pala? kaya pala ang iingay kagabi eh ??"*** Sabi nung tendera, I just smiled  ***" Iba parin talaga kapag nasa lugar kung saan lumaki ka, mas komportable"*** I answered, ***" Oo naman, teka diba boyfriend mo sya ?"*** Wow, hindi po pala updated si Ali, napalingon ako kay ano, hayun ang lawak ng ngiti.  ***" Ay naku hindi po, matagal na po yun"*** sagot ko nalang. ***" Pero pag niligawan ulit kita? sasagutin mo ulit ako walang duda"*** Hes confidence, He was so annoying he was really different from the person I know the other year, umirap nalang ako at umalis na.  ________________________Time went by very fast and it was February 14, 2013 when he officially courted me (Yung si Ano, yung humalik sa akin nung new year).  Pero binasted ko kaagad sya, I don't want to give him hope, I don't want him to wait until my broken heart completely healed, I don't want him to become a rebound, because I might falling for him and ***I WAS AFRAID OF FALLING AGAIN…***  ________________________________________________ Good morning read.cash Family, I hope you all doing good everyday as we go on in our everyday life battle, not just like Ukraine and Russia pero yung araw araw na pangyayari na hinaharap natin, This is the third part of my Diary, haha iwan ko kung bakit nasa akin parin hindi parin nawala but reading every content of it made me smile, kinikilig ako 😅😅 It actually happened a long time ago, 2011 and 2012 and 2013 this was my teen days haha puppy love days.💚💚 Anyways, to my lovely supporters hehe, **SPONSORS**, **COMMENTERS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**,**SUBSCRIBERS** , Thank You is not just enough to show how I am grateful and blessed because of you guys. Thank You for supporting me always. ***Disclaimer***: ***All parts and contents are mine and are purely based on my personal learning experiences, personal thoughts, and personal opinions. This article is mainly intended for entertainment purposes only.*** This is me @Dawn_Dii , saying have a good day ahead. 💚💚 Date Published: March 3, 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 2 March 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 2 March 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 1 March 2022

Game Over ***"I smile because He made me smile, I am happy because he made me happy, He made my days brighter, but those smiles suddenly faded, those happiness suddenly disappeared and those brighter days suddenly turned into dark days'.***  I woke up one morning with a call from an unknown number, since hindi ko talaga hilig makipag textmate at uso yun noon, I always declined the call and back to sleep again, but the caller was so makulit kaya sinagot ko na lang ng iritado.  But I heard a chuckle on the other line, that made me more irritated, I was about to hang up but he suddenly talked.  ***" It's me, sorry for not telling you sooner, ang cute lang kasi ng boses mo"*** the voice was familiar na napabangon agad ako hindi ko maintindihan pero nawala ang pagkainis ko.  ***"Where did you get my number ?"*** simpleng tanong ko, ayaw ko namang mahalata nya na medyo kinilig ang umaga ko haha.  ***" Nagpaload ka kasi kahapon, hiningi ko dun sa loader"*** That time gusto kong pasalamatan talaga ang loader haha.  From time to time we became a textmate and a callmate, may mga pasulyap din kapag naglalaro sila ng basketball lalo na kapag may liga at ako ang MC slash Announcer, timer ng basketball game.  It was lunch time when he approached me and asked if I was done eating lunch, lahat ng kabarkada nya tinutukso kami, the truth was walang kami, we were only textmate but my young heart started to have feelings for him.  The next day we met again, he was with his friends and I was also with my friends and cousins, sinadya ko talaga na hindi siya pansinin kasi tampulan na naman kami ng tukso, pero iwan ko sa kanya kung bakit nakabuntot lang sila sa amin, few minutes ago nag decide na akong kausapin sya.  My Aunt from Davao called me at doon ako patitirahin sa kanila para pag aralin, I told him about my plan, I know he was sad and disappointed but he supported my plan, because I mentioned to him that I really wanted to finish my studies.  Late at night I received a text message from him ***" I love you, and I'm gonna miss you"*** hindi ko alam kung kiligin o maiyak kasi kinabukasan na ang alis ko.  I just replied I love him too, and I'm gonna miss him also. I don't know if that was love, maybe it was puppy love .  ________________________One month from Davao and nothing has changed, I can feel his love because from time to time I will receive a text and call from him, kaya kahit medyo malayo kami masaya parin ako.  Until that day came, He suddenly disappeared, no text or calls and I was ashamed to ask my cousin about him, but a week after I received a call from an unknown number, and I never hesitate to answer it hoping that it was him, and I was correct, How can I forget that voice? that voice who was always comforting me, inaway ko talaga sya ng inaway pero tinatawanan lang nya ako, yung tawa na tipong okay na nandito na ako, hindi na ulit kita iiwan.  November came and it was halloween, I was excited to go home because of him, I was excited to see him, gusto ko ring makita ang reaction na kasi medyo kuminis na ang black beauty kong kutis haha. And it was a surprise, walang may alam sa kanila na uuwi ako.  Pag baba ko ng bus, sinalubong ako ng mga kaibigan at pinsan ko, nagtataka sila kung bakit nakauwi ako, but what I did first ?  ***" Where is he ? "*** I smiled widely asking for him, hindi lingid sa kaalaman nila na LDR kami ni ano, but no one answered, I just shrug my shoulders and ignore it, because I am just excited to see him the next morning since I arrive almost midnight.  Morning came and it was our time na maglinis sa mga burol at excited na rin akong makita sya, But my friends really was weird because before I reached the entrance of the cemetery they are all approaching me and they are all present, and they don't want me to enter at the cemetery.  ***" Hey guys, what is wrong?? kahapon pa kayo ahh, ang weird nyo.. "*** Ngiti ko lang at pumasok na, hindi na nila ako napigilan. And I was happy to see him, nakatalikod sya pero alam ko na sya yun, but that happiness turned into pain, when I saw him kissing another girl. Tahimik lang akong lumapit, naisip ko sa mga araw nayun, sana nagpapigil nalang ako. ***" Welcome back to me "*** mapait ang ngiting tugon ko, hindi yun malakas pero sinigurado kung narinig yun ng boyfriend ko, na pagkatapos ng eksenang ito ay Ex ko na sya.  They were both shocked while staring at me, it was so painful on my part because I was trusted him, but maybe because of the hardships that I encountered in life, natuto akong mag tago ng emosyon, na kaya kung tumawa kahit ang sakit sakit na, na kaya kung ngumiti kahit hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pa. He was trying to explain himself, but silence came after when a slap landed on his face, Oops not from me huh, it came from the girl na ka kiss nya.  I walked out silently, **THE GAME IS NOW OVER**…  ________________________________________________ Good morning read.cash Family, sorry for this lame part two, haha anyways still I am thankful because you always taking time reading my articles here, and of course I am beyond bless with my Lovely SPONSORS, LIKERS, VIEWERS, SUBSCRIBERS, thank you so much for being with me and my journey here in read.cash. SALAMAT KAAYO 💚💚 Date Published: March 2, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 28 February 2022

*Wink* ***I was so happy to be with him, he was my dream and I want that dream to become a reality, All I wanted was to be with him because being with him was the most precoious moment of my life.***  I was drunk that day, it was my first time being drunk and we were so happy with my friends, dancing, shouting with that loud music, and then someone grab me from my wrist.  *" Is this your first time being drunk? "* bigla nyang tanong sa malamig na boses, I just smirked at him and said *" why bother asking ? "* and then I dance again just like I don't care.. He grab me again at my wrist and it made me annoyed at him.  *" Ngayon lang kita nakitang uminom, may problema bah ? "* napataas naman ang isang kilay ko. *" Who are you ?, at anong pakialam mo ?* iritado kong tugon, Well technically I know him, his name actually but I never know him as a friend, because we are not friends and all I know was his name.  *" I care because I know you have a problem, I never seen you this way"*  Gusto kong matawa, hindi ko alam dahil sa lasing lang ako at nakikita ko sa mukha nya na nag aalala talaga sya sa akin.  *" My parent's does not care about me, so you try not to care also. "* snob ko sa kanya at sumayaw ulit, but to my shock, he suddenly hugged me and said. *" I don't care if they don't care about you, basta ang alam ko mahalaga ka, and I care for you"* The sincerity of his voice melt my heart, that was the first time that I felt that way, my heart started to pump blood faster and it seems that my stomach has a butterflies inside.. What is this feeling ?  Hindi ko alam kung bakit biglang huminto ang ikot ng mundo ko ng panahon iyon, o dahil lang lasing ako.  ________________________ I woke up in the morning with my headache because of the hangover. I went outside of our house and I noticed that everyone is staring at me, bigla akong na conscious, anong meron? I cleared my throat and asked them what was going on but they only smiled widely and it really annoyed me because my curiosity killed me. Suddenly one of my cousins approached me and asked me.  **"How was it ? "** nagtaka naman ako.  **" Bakit anong meron?"** hindi ko talaga alam ang mga nangyayari since kakagising ko pa nga lang nun.  Inirapan naman nya ako sabay sabing  *"Duh, dahil lang naman sa kalasingan mo nag passed out ka, and guess what ?? si Ano (nguso dun sa kabilang bahay) binantayan ka cous, hinaplos haplos pa ang pisngi mo"* kilig na kilig nyang tugon, ako naman napatingin sa kabilang bahay na itinuro ng nguso ng pinsan ko, at nandoon nga sya staring at me seriously, Iniwas ko nalang ang tingin ko kasi bigla akong nahiya haha, kahit wala naman sana akong hiya 😅😅. That afternoon,  my aunt ask me to buy some veggies to cook  at the next veggies store, and I was just walking while staring at my cell phone, but suddenly someone caught my attention, I was just passing by with my blank expression but I don't know why I am nervous that  I think i could not move my steps.  But he called my name, yung pakiramdam na ayaw kong huminto sa paglalakad pero bigla kang napahinto ? Ganun yung nangyari parang may sariling isip ang mga paa ko at bigla nalang huminto. He approached me and asked if How was I ? I just shrugged my shoulders as a response.  *" Don't do that again, I am worried you know "* gusto kong ma irita pero bakit hindi ko magawa? I was just staring at him reading his face,but he looked so serious.  Hindi na ako sumagot kasi parang may mga kabayo na naman sa dibdib ko, I walk out as fast as I could, but he called me again, and again my feet suddenly stop walking, iwan ko pero ayaw nya talagang maglakad ( Ano ba!!!), nung nilingon ko sya… He suddenly wink at me, and I don't know but I find it really attractive, His eyes seems to care a lot about me, hindi ko na lang namalayan na naglalakad ako pauwi na may matamis na ngiti sa aking labi.  ________________________________________________ Good morning read.cash Fam, First day of the month and second day of the week, I hope you all doing good like me haha, anyways I was suddenly inspired when I back read my diary haha, well guess some of this article are based on my true story wahaha, feeling ko ma rereveal na talaga dito kong ano ako dati haha. Anyways thank you for taking time reading this one, this will still have a part two, at iwan ko bakit bigla akong kinilig haha, it was all in the past anyway 😂😂. This is me @Dawn_Dii, Maayong adlaw 💚 Date Published: March 1, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 28 February 2022

ME?; Shy But Unstoppable I woke up late today because of the pain in my abdomen. When I came out of the house I was happy because the sun finally showed up, and the air wasn't too cold. Sophia was also happy because finally she can play outside the house. I decided to do the laundry despite the pain that I felt because my laundry  was stuck for a while since it was raining the whole week.  While doing laundry, I heard my neighbors having their videoke time since there is a birthday party, and I am thankful for my neighbors because they gave me an idea on what to write, two months here and it seems that my brain is not working anymore, I just had to think a bit harder so that my brain would function haha. So here we Go …  ________________________We Filipinos are accustomed to the fact that when there are salo salo, Birthdays, weddings, and any gatherings videoke is always present especially when pandemic has not happened.  I remember when our cousin organized a thanksgiving party when me and my girl cousin graduated from highschool. He rented a videoke for us to have fun, it was my first time being drunk and I ended up singing the whole night haha.  When we were in college, we spent our free time singing at the videoke bar near our school rather than studying. Maybe that was when we were in first and second year college, we didn't mind if we didn't have an answer for the upcoming quiz or midterm exam as long as we enjoyed ourselves.  In our group, there were different styles in terms of videoke.  **Taga hanap sa Songbook**  I have this friend who doesn't sing in videoke yet doesn't want to be left behind when we want to hang out at the videoke bar, he just sits at the table while holding the songbook and asks us one by one what the title of what we're going to sing is, that's how he finds the song in the songbook that we will sing. **"Akin ang Chorus"** We also have a friend who doesn't want to choose his song, kapag may nagustuhan syang kanta sasabihin nya kaagad na " Uy akin ang chorus ahh" o kaya " Hati tayo ako sa second stanza" ganun sya haha.  **Dancer** There is also one of us who even though the song is emotive, she still dances, especially when it's a disco haha. **Sintonado** There is also one of us who wants to sing even if he is out of tune, wala syang pakialam basta gusto nya ang kanta at kakanta talaga sya. **Feel na feel kumanta hindi naman nadidinig sa mic.**  There was this friend of mine who really want to sing but you can't hear her voice on a mic, yung tipong nakikita mo sa expression ng mukha nya yung feel na feel nya ang emotion ng kinakanta nya , pero wala talagang boses na maririnig kahit naka on naman ang microphone 😅😅 **Shy but Unstoppable** Me ? among of them I am shy especially when there are a lot of  people who are listening, nanginginig na yung kalamnan ko, but when I am going to start singing a song, I am unstoppable, unstoppable kasi simula pa lang yan, kung wala nga lang klase baka maghapon pa ako at umagahin haha. **Has a nice Voice** Among of us, there was this friend of mine has a good voice, napapatayo talaga ang balahibo sa kamay namin kapag sya na ang kumakanta.  We had different styles in terms of hanging out on videoke but we cared a lot for each other. It didn't matter if She or He had a nice or not so nice voice as long as we were happy and having fun with each other's company.  ________________________________________________I already missed my friends while writing this, If I could just go back in time, and if they could read this one haha, anyways that would be all for today, thank you for spending your time reading this, I know it is a bit lame I don't know why, maybe because I am tired and my I am still suffering a pain from my abdomen, hoping for your kind and consideration .  To my Lovely **SPONSORS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**, **READERS**, **SUBSCRIBERS**, thank you for all your time. God bless us all and have a happy day ahead.  This is me @Dawn_Dii , saying Maayong hapon sa tanan 💕 Date Published: February 28, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 27 February 2022

A Two  Months in a Roller Coaster of Emotions When I started read.cash I wanted to stay anonymous since there are some of the users here knows me in person, and my only goal was to write anything not related to me, I planned to write some love stories since I like to read love and watch love stories and I intended to write some in my highschool days. But I ended up writing my whole life story here in read.cash.  **WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE THAT YOU PUBLISHED HERE IN READ.CASH?** I love all my writings here in read.cash, since I put all my effort, emotion and dedication in every words to sentence into a paragraph of it, specially when I don't have any idea on what to write, but specifically what is my most favorite articles that I have written here in read.cash: **STRUGGLES OVER PASSION: READ.CASH JOURNEY** https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/struggles-over-passion-readcash-journey-8cc29f56 This is one of my favorite articles in my 2 months here in read.cash, maybe because I really struggled a lot but still I am able to cope up and adjust with it. It is natural to be an ignorant newbie on the platform, but we can also learn by exploring all the time, and of course with the help of my virtual friends who help me all the way through these two months. **I am weird for being A Black lover ?** https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/am-i-weird-for-being-a-black-lover-366e5736 From being anonymous, this is where I started to show who I really am. I remember that time when I was really struggling on what to write, and suddenly asked myself, why not write what is my most favorite color among them all haha. And of all of my writings, this was really a HIT like Rusty or @TheRandomRewarder really supported me in this article, and this was the beginning of my never ending self story. haha **1BCH GOAL: BUILDING NEW HOME** https://read.cash/@Dawn_Dii/1-bch-goal-building-new-home-786c0c84 I remember writing this after reuniting with my mother. I was in my one month here in read.cash and I set my goal so that I cannot withdraw my earnings without a  purpose, and I am still writing now just to reach this Goal. **WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED FROM THIS PLATFORM?** There are a lot of lessons that we can learn here in read.cash. I learned to be more open to the comments of the other users, and I also communicate with the others, what I learned the most here is patience and never give up that easily. Patience because not all the time Rusty or @TheRandomRewarder will tipped me, it never came into my mind to question him for not giving me tips haha but never giving me tips gives me more motivation to write more because I know one of my articles will still be a HIT when the right time comes. Never give up easily is my motto when I joined read.cash because when I reading some of the articles they are struggled a lot than me, some of them received a tip smaller  than mine  but they never give up, and reading such article like that gives me more strength to just write and write until the perfect time that someone will notice me also. **WHAT ARE YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS HERE IN READ.CASH ?** Time went by very fast, it's just like yesterday when I started to join this platform but now, Wow!! I have been a user for two months here ..  **$150 in my wallet** Two months and I am bragging a lot haha sorry, I am just excited haha anyways, what are my achievements in my two months?, yesterday I check my block chair to know the statement of my wallet and I was so shocked because I already reached $151 that is my total recieved amount of money but As what I have written in my previous articles, I already spent $20 for the medicine and vitamins of my daughter Sophia and the rest is history haha.  As of now I am just having $100 in my wallet, not bad for my Goal right? haha more published to go and I can realched my Goal. ****23 Subscribers**** It is not bad for having 23 subscribers in two months, it is a blessing actually because I know there are still a lot who are interested in my stories hehe, and I really thanked my subscriber for being interested in me .  **4 SPONSORS** It is my greatest achivement that I have this people who really motivates and inspires me to write more , and I am lucky enough having the four of them.  In every achievements or blessing we unlocked or recieved we should be thankful even if its small or big, that was always what my late father said not to me but also to my siblings.  ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, thank you for taking time reading this, and of course To my **SPONSORS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**, **READERS**, **SUBSCRIBERS**, thank you for being with me for my two months and I know we have still many months and years to share in this platform, congrats to us.  Thank You for reading, this is me @Dawn_Dii , have a good day ahead and God bless us all💚💚 Date Published: February 27, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 24 February 2022

"It was just a DREAM, but He ended up Lecturing Me" Family is one of the most important things in our lives, a family that we can rely and trust on. All of us are wishing to have a good and happy family, even though we don't have enough money to buy all the luxurious things in this world. And having at least one serious conversation a day will make a relationship stronger everyday 💚 ________________________ Yesterday was one of the days that I stayed inside our room and covered myself with a huge and thick blanket because of the weather. It was raining so hard early in the morning and the wind was moderately strong, so we closed all our windows and doors and then we all stayed inside our room.  I had a dream the other night, I saw a lot of money inside my bag and I don't know if where it was came from, All I did was to hide the money under our floor at the kitchen so that no one will noticed, no one should not know and no one should get suspected us, I don't know why I had to hide the money. I woke up in reality. It was 4:30 in the morning since I had to prepare food for my husband. I saw my bag hanging on the wall and laughed at myself, What If ?  My friend Mr. Google.com  *said that money in a dream is symbolic of* ***self-confidence, self-worth, wealth, power and prosperity.*** *Hence, when you dream about finding money in your dream, it literally translates to the richness you're feeling in terms of your pursuits for wisdom, spirituality, love or abstract knowledge.*  I was amazed by what My friend Mr. Google.com answered my question haha. because if it is the elder said that the opposite of  your dream can happen.  I shared my dream with my husband. I was laughing and kept on asking him, what if one time comes that we see a bag of money, what will we do about it?  But He only answered me, What you all need is **LOVE**, **HAPPINESS**, **STRENGTH**, **HEALING** AND **PEACE**.  I was so shocked looking at him like what???? He is seriously staring at me and starting to talk again. According to Him: **LOVE** from your family, friends and those people who supported you throughout these years.  **HAPPINESS** from family, friends and those people who supported you throughout these years.  **STRENGTH** from family, friends and those people who supported you throughout these years, and of course strength to overcome the failures and circumstances that come in your life. **HEALING** because you suffered a lot and it also heals me when I see my family healthy.  **PEACE** because we can live longer if we find peace through ourselves.  **Money** is only a material thing, In order for us to make money and find money we should work hard for it and it's not right to just pick it up everywhere.  Me:  "It was just a dream, unless I'm lucky if I can find real money, and one thing my God early enough for your  lectures, what's gotten into you? You are so serious !!!. HIM: ( he just smiles and back to his old self again) I was so shocked of him because the truth is He is so childish enough to open a conversation like that haha, anyways at least for four years of in a relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend, and almost four years of marriage, this is the first time that he opened up like that, and I am new to his other side. ________________________________________________ That would be all for today💜, woah it is really cold and the rain is moderately strong, I guess I had to find new Korean Drama to watch over in this kind of weather haha, ***" The King's Affection"*** is on the way 😅😅. To My **sponsors**, **Likers**, **Viewers**, **Readers**, **Upvoters**, **Commenters** and to My **Subscribers**, Thank you for this day that that we are still hanging with each other, God bless us all in this platform 💚💚 This is me @Dawn_Dii , saying that have a good day ahead. Date Published: February 25, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 23 February 2022

She has her Own Style Each of us has his or her unique style of clothing, even though others say that it’s weird, funny, scary, the only important thing of all is that we’re happy, comfortable and we don’t step on anyone else’s. When Sophia turned three years old, I noticed that she had a lot of changes. Before she wanted me to take her a bath, but not now because she always said that she knows how and she is already Three and that she is already an ate.  Before I was the one who changed her clothes after taking a bath, but not now because after taking a bath she is now the one to choose what clothes that she wanted to wear. It's just admirable to think that even though she is still a baby or a kid her thinking is not accurate at her age because she acts and thinks like a mature one. ________________________ This afternoon I was just busy doing house chores and cleaning up the mess that Sophia made, and I was thankful because she didn't disturbed me cleaning but, of course there is always a but. 😂😂 I almost laughed because when Sophia came out of the room this was  what she was wearing. As you can see in the picture, she is wearing a dress and a skirt with yellow leggings on the inner side. I don't know that she has her own style of fashion haha She requested some photos of her, I wanted to change her clothes because she said she would just play outside, I didn't want other mothers to see what she looked like but she really didn't want to, she said she was beautiful and that she also wears a beautiful dress.  When her father came home from work, she was really excited to show him her newly and unknown style of fashion haha, anyways she was always saying that " **Pang, gwapa nako nice akong sinina" (Pang I am already beautiful and my dress is also nice),** well it was absolutely nice haha,.and she was really happy about it. ***Final Thought:***  being a child is only once, so it's happier that even in a little something,  we can make them happy. We know that always saying yes is not good, but what's not good is not letting them be happy in their own ways,  but if they are just exploring  we should be there for them, support, guide, take care of, and most of all understand and love. ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, aw tonight rather 💜, I am just happy to see Sophia in her outfit that is why I am sharing this one, to my **SPONSORS**, **LIKERS**, **VIEWERS**, **READERS**, and of course to my **21 subscribers** hehe, every little thing counts, kaya maraming salamat po sa suporta palagi. This is me @Dawn_Dii , saying be happy and always be happy 💜 Goodnight 😘😘 Date Published: February 23, 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 22 February 2022

"Start Up" Have you experienced having pen pals or have you received some love letters from your crush,  lovers or secret admirers ? Well Me, I don't experience such things since when I started dating there is a cell phone, and it's kind of bothersome writing a letter and then wait for so many hours or maybe days to receive a reply, but in some reason it feels sweet receiving such letters from the one you admire, as we think of all the effort and feelings when He or she wrote some love letter. ________________________ This blog is actually inspired by a Korean Drama Series **"Start Up"** starring Bae **Suzy, Nam Joo- Hyuk, Kim Seon-ho, Kang Han-na.** The series revolves around a woman who has dreams of becoming an entrepreneur like Steve Jobs, and her love triangle between a man who is secretly her first love and another man who is pretending to be her first love. I didn't know that this drama was existed  and was launch on 2020, If I haven't seen this picture on my facebook wall, I had no idea that I had missed one of my favorite actor Kim Seon-ho in this drama. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Steve_Jobs I can’t help but be intrigued as to why netizens focused on this picture, A Philippine Adaptation of A Korean Series "Start up" And many were not happy, some even said "RIP KDRAMA". And because of my curiosity, I started to search in my Bilibili app for the movie. And because it was rainy and cold earlier, I decided to watch all day while taking care of Sophia. What I learned from the beginning of the movie ? As a wife and a mother, my responsibilidad was to take care of the family and of course to support the decision of every member of the family, maybe because of the hardships that we were facing, we can’t help but somehow loosen up even a little bit in order to make a living. But being a mother you need to understand and support your spouse so that your relationship will be stronger, because the more pitiful are your children. it's just sad to think that because of your dream, it's okay to break up your family. I just ended watching with  three episodes  but I've lost a lot of tears, my stomach hurts because I laughed so hard  and my "Kilig"  is intense, and I'm already shivering because of the villain haha. That's probably the reason why many reacted when someone released the Philippine Adaptation of Start up, because they have high expectations for every role played by their Korean Idol. For me there is nothing to mess with, as long as I finish watching the korean version hehe. ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, I know I can't sleep tonight because my goal is to watch all the remaining episodes tonight.. Yey **thirteen (13)** more **episodes** to go, and I'm ready with my snacks since I can only eat junkfoods when Sophia is already sleeping.  This is me @Dawn_Dii, saying have a good night ahead everyone and sweet dreams 💜 Date Published: February 22, 2022

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@Dawn_Dii 21 February 2022

Sophia Saw A Ghost !!! **Do You Believe in Ghost or something like paranormals ?** Because,  me  I just believe in such things, but I never saw at least one ghost, who dares right? Well at least I know and see some in the movies, I really like paranormal movies, or series but everytime I watch every scene of it I was hiding from the back of my husband, that is why he is getting annoyed with me in terms of watching horror movies.  ________________________ Yesterday my husband decided to catch some fish at the river using "Bingwit" and also we accompanied him (Me and Sophia). Sophia was excited wearing her new bought boots, but still when the soil was muddy she still wanted me to cuddle her.  When we reached the river, she said she wanted me to take a picture of her, and after that we sat at the stone and watched her father, but she suddenly said that there is a person who is swimming and almost drowned.  I asked her again what she saw, and she said again that the person who is swimming has no legs. I just laughed at her but she said again that she was referring was staring at us.  ***Said the older children are the ones who see ghosts more.*** So instead of laughing, I was suddenly felt terrified, especially when Sophia said that she would take a bath like the person she sees. When I told that to my husband, he said that we were going home, maybe he was also scared hehe, if it's for the child's safety,  who won't be afraid right.  So when we got home, Sophia suddenly started crying, and she said she really wanted to take a bath with the person she saw without legs. And all of a sudden she got hot, the type that she seemed to be on fire, so we didn't hesitate to take her  to the ***"albularyo"*** near us, the "***albularyo***" said it was good that I didn't let her take a bath because Sophia might be gone in that afternoon. It's just scary to think what really would have happened, I might not be able to cope. ***LESSON LEARNED:***  Sometimes we don't believe in the saying of the elders especially since we are in the modern world, what I learned the most  from what happened yesterday, that is not bad to believe even if it is not proven yet it's better to listen and don't just ignore everything, nothing will be lost even if you believe. **________________________________________________** That would be all for today, anyways Sophia is Okay now and she's playing again with her playmates as if there was nothing happened yerterday.  To my **Old** and **new Sponsors**, thank You so much for trusting me and filling my sponsor's block, it is a great help for me to achieved my goals in this platform. To my **Likers**, **viewers**, **commenters**, **Tippers** hehe thank you so much, it is also a great help for me and motivates me everytime I am here in this platform..  **God will bless you all always 💜** Thank You for reading, This is me @Dawn_Dii , saying that have a cold and rainy day ahead everyone💜 Date Published: February 21, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 20 February 2022

Thank You so Much sis @renren16💜 For the sponsorship,More blessings to you And of course More BCH to come to your wallet .. I love you sis, Thank You 💕

@Dawn_Dii 19 February 2022

I wanted to Die, But OoooopSss !!!! ***Romans 8:37-39*** https://www.sermoncentral.com/bible/new-international-version-niv/romans-8-37-39?passage=Romans+8%3A37-39 *“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, no anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”* Source https://www.sermoncentral.com/bible/new-international-version-niv/romans-8-37-39?passage=Romans+8%3A37-39 **" I wanted to Die"** This is what we always say when we are angry, when we are hopeless, when we don't want to live our life because it is really unfair, this is what we say when we feel we are alone and have no sympathy. **" I wanted to Die"**  It is easy to say but it is hard to do.  It's easy to say especially when you have no hope but hard to do when you realize that it's not good to do. I remember when I was still in Highschool, my mother left us and my father died, and of course I only lived with my cousins,and my siblings and I split up, someone else lives with our aunt, someone lives with someone else and I live with my cousins, That's the most painful things that happened to me because we lost our father, a mother left us , we split up with each other, and I really can’t help but to feel sorry for myself. I thought then, I did everything but it still didn't matter. I have always thought that life is unfair, to all the peoples around the world, why was it me ?  Why was it too early for me to face the world of cruelty alone?  I was a jolly person, I laughed a lot that you could not imagine that I had this other side of me, I really wanted to die.  When I was in a stress mode I always cut my hair, and make it short, When someone asks me why my hair is so short I always answer ***"It's better to cut my hair than to cut my neck"*** **I really wanted to Die, but Ooopppsss !!!!** ________________________________________________ I had really wanted to Die, but how can I die in my situation, I laugh at the thought of wanting to die but I still have a lot of worries. **I'm worried, what if I die who will buy my coffin?** **I'm worried, what if I die where should they put my coffin, since I don't have a house?**  **I'm worried, what if I die, who will buy coffe's and bread ?**  **I'm worried if the people who will vigil will have something to eat when I die?** **who will dig my grave?** **who will buy cement for my grave?** If it's you? do you still want to die if even if you really wanted to die but you still have a lot of worries? Because me, I was suddenly scared to death haha, I was scared to think "who" and "where"? who will help me to rest in peace, and where should I rest in peace 😂😂 Anyways, for your concern hehe, I am now okay😊 and I don't want to die yet because Sophia is still a baby 😊, and as of my siblings and my mother we were totally okay and I know my father is happy now watching us from heaven.  ________________________ That would be all for today, For my Sponsors thank You so much for just hanging in there for me💚, my commenters, likers, viewers, and even those who read and view my writing without a trace, thank You so much 💛💛 Date Published: February 19, 2022

@Dawn_Dii 18 February 2022

Boredom Yet Not A Boring Day ❤ The weather yesterday was actually good, It was not that so hot and not so cold and I know this day is one of my boring days again hayys so in order to not get bored, I decided to clean our surroundings, I think I cleaned it not long ago but look at these now, the grass are all grown and it's a bit messy here haha, pasensya na po 😅😅, minsan talaga hindi ko na aaquire na maglinis sa paligid dahil naka cellphone lang ako lagi. And since I was in the mood to do the cleaning,I really tried my best to do the manual hand weeding, It is a bit hard since the soil was so dry and it has a lot of small stones, but still after 4 hours I managed to do clean it and I was finally done with it. Since I was so bored I downloaded some movies in Bilibili App, I really wanted to watch it in netflix but I can't download some movies, since I have to insert coins in a wifi vending machine, I had to pause my time if I am not using my internet, that is why I downloaded movies offline to watch when I had to pause my time. While waiting for the episodes to download, I called ny husband and trying to trim his hair since it is already long but he don't want me to trim his hair, well of course I am not a barber haha and I don't really know how to do haircuts 😅,I am just trying to insist maybe he would be agree haha.  And because I can't force him, I just braided his hair and it actually looked good to him, he always said that I always made a joke of him, I just told him that since he does not want to cut his hair, I will always maintain it and I braid it always. After Braiding his hair, I decided to transplant my babies, hehe my succulent flowers since I could not take care of it always, I also transplanted my petunia babies, I can't wait to see it blooms 🌺 I was so tired doing all those stuff, and the time went fast and it was lunch time again, I notice that we had no viand, so I chat my cousin to buy some eggs and noodles, and because I don't have cash hehe I bought it with my savings in Gcash, this money was from my very first widrawn here in read.cash, and I really tried not to touch it because I wanted to save it for emergency purposes, but sophia was crying and wanted to eat eggs, her favorite, so I had no choice.  I am actually happy that I teach my cousin on how to use Gcash, but it took me some time to convince her with Gcash because she was scared with it, and thought that it is what they called "666", and some other said that it is a scam.  It is really hard to make people understand with their own perspective, that is why I am always silent and I am thankful because she approach me and told me that she is willing to learn.  And because of that, I can buy at her store without a cash on hand, it is very convenient for me because everytime I cash in and cash out with Gcash I had to go to the another Baragay and paid for fair back and fort.  ________________________________________________ That would be all for today, thank you for taking your time reading this and comments also be accepted ❤ To my ever likers, commenters,viewers, and of course to my sponsor, thank You so Much for staying with me 💕 This is me @Dawn_Dii, saying have a good day ahead everyone💕 Date Published: February 18,2022

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