I was afraid of getting hurt again, In order to protect myself from pain, I played their games, I became a gamer, I became a cheater.
Traumatic experience, I was always saying that when someone was courting me, and I don't want to get into another relationship dahil lang sa sinabi nilang napag iiwanan na ako, like I don't care.
It was one night when we were going to a disco with my friends of course, present always sila haha I noticed one guy that was staring at me, nakaranas na ba kayo na parang may mga matang nakasunod lagi sayo?, yes ganun yun and I caught him in the eye.
After that I just ignored him, we bought one case of beer kasi hindi talaga ako sumasayaw ng hindi nakainom haha, when I started to drink bigla nalang lumapit si guy, at ang mga friends ko naman kinilig at iniwan kami.
" Ikaw si Ano diba?" ask nya, I just smiled and nod at him, iniabot nya ang kamay nya para makipagshake hands, at dahil hindi naman talaga ako man hater masyado nakipag shake hands narin ako, yung shake hands na may pisil? yun yong kanya halatang nakikipag flirt ..
At dahil gusto kung umiwas tumayo nalang ako, I approached my friends and dance with them, at nakakabadtrip dahil biglang may nag request ng sweet music kaya ayun may mga partner naman ang kasama ko iniwan ako ng nakatayo mag isa, but he came to the rescue, it was awkward haha.
" I had this girlfriend and cheated me with my friend" simula nya, bigla tuloy akong na curious sa buhay nya.
" One day, she became cold towards me. I didn't know that behind my back, she also had a relationship with my friend, that day I said to myself that I would never fall in love again"
He was so serious, and I can also feel his pain, I just smiled while giving him some advice, " Alam mo sinasabi nila palagi na kaya nawala ang isang taong mahalaga sa buhay mo dahil mas may deserving pa sayo, makakahanap ka rin nun" encourage ko sa kanya
" What if, tayo nalang??" ngiti nya ..
Bigla naman akong napa "What?"
" Tayo na lang kasi, promise walang inlaban" Natawa naman ako.
" Pwede ba naman yun? bat magiging tayo kung wala man lang love diba? "
Hindi makapaniwala na tugon ko.
" Why not diba, as long as we're happy and we can never hurt each other since there is no Love involved between us"
Napaisip naman ako, but I never agreed bigla na lang syang dikit ng dikit sa akin, hinawakan ang kamay ko, sinusuklay ng daliri nya ang buhok ko.
" Kayo na ba ni Guy? " my friend asked me, at umiling lang ako, nasa CR kami nun..
" eh ba't ang sweet ? " natawa nalang ako
" Kami nadaw at walang inlaban" tawa ko, pati yung friends ko na curious tuloy na may ganun pala, trip trip lang..
Paglabas namin, nandun si Ano( Yung humalik sa akin nung new year at nanliligaw noong February 14 pero binasted ko) After that kasi we became friends, there was no awkwardness between us.
When we reached our table, syempre Si Ano nakaupo sa tabi ko at nakakunot ang noo nya habang nakatingin kay Guy na umupo din sa tabi ko.
From that moment, nag simula na naman ang mga sweet gesture ni Guy, kami na nga daw kasi wala nga lang inlaban haha.
While we were dancing ni Guy, nakatingin lang si Ano at na enjoy ko na rin ang moment.
The next night, hindi nakarating si Guy sa discohan kasi umuwi sa kanila at wala akong pakialam noon, All I know was I want to enjoy my life with my friends, inom doon, inom dito.
Someone approaches and wanted to dance with me and I was like GLOBE, Go. lang ng Go. nanligaw si someone sa akin na agad ko namang sinagot atleast may partner ako gabing yun,the next night another someone came at sinagot ko na naman.
I know my past experiences were not enough reason to do such a thing but I did, I was just enjoying my life without knowing that someone is hurting because of me.
Si Ano, He was always there for me, iniuwi ako kapag lasing na ako, sya pa ang gagawa ng excuses wag lang akong pagalitan, He was always guarding me, walang reklamo.
He was always saying that he would wait until I fully recovered from that past, and I felt that I was cheated on him.
Sa kaiiwas ko na saktan sya, nasaktan ko parin sya, I ended up hurting him again and again..
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Good morning read.cash Family, I hope you all doing good everyday as we go on in our everyday life battle, I am not in a good mood this morning because our dog made a mess in our yard, He destroyed some of my new arranged floweres hayyss
But i have no choice to keep calm, letting your mood ruined from a simple thing will make your whole day ruined also kaya sinusubukan kong kumalma haha.
Anyways thank you for stopping by here and taking time reading my write ups. It actually happened a long time ago, 2011 and 2012 and 2013 this was my teen days haha puppy love days.💚💚
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Date Published: March 4, 2022
Yes, we just have to enjoy our life to the fullest na walang nasasaktan na tao, Ika nga we only live once. So parang globe go lng ng go, enjoying the moment.