I was planning to write something funny today however my mind change when I read an article earlier about online class. Then I remember mine, your 2nd year in college started yesterday, I have 8 subjects with lots of units, there's no vacant for weekdays but fortunately I have no class in weekends. Still I feel sad cause there's already a requirement, one of our subject needs laptop cause we need to install AUTOCAD, I don't know if it's a software used in designing electrical wiring in house. Last week, I'm planning to buy a laptop if the market will pump but I became sad yesterday cause the market is so red and my savings decreasing drastically, I was hoping for its increase but it's still dipping until now. I'm always calm when I encounter this kind of scenario, if the market still dips for days then I'll wait until next week hoping that the market will become green again, my plan is to buy a laptop and used it already, I need to install AUTOCAD on it, if I have trouble in installing my AUTOCAD then it's time to ask help on my classmate. That's my initial plan but there's a possibility that the market will dip until next week and I can't handle that. The reason why I always happy when there's a dip before is because I have a chance to achieve my 1 BCH, but now it's not fun anymore cause I have something to buy that is important. I am hoping that BCH will reach atleast 35 thousand so that I can cashout my money and buy a laptop. I feel pity of myself, if and only if I knew that the market will dip.

Another thing is, I'm on second year but I'm not sure if I can handle the course I've chosen, it's not a typical chosen by me because I have no choice that time, there's no extra slot for me and the school year will start that time. I've grab the chance however I didn't knew that I'll experience hardships on it. I've already written on my previous articles that I'm more knowledgeable when it comes to business related courses like my brothers course right now. The funny thing is, electrical is his field while my field is business. I am hesitant what my future holds, if I can get a license on electrical even though I don't know how to compute nor read the layout. How devastating my decisions are, I have no plan yet, I don't know what will happen on me on future, maybe I belong tk those jobless graduates staying at house. Im not sure at my decisions, electrical is not for me and I feel sad about it. I remember during my first year I have low GPA, I feel sad cause my scores are not too high unlike my classmates which really smart. I tried to analyze every problems and equations but it's really difficult due to its complexity. I think im only good at wasting time and eating, I also remember that we have subjects for drawing and IL lshare my drawing at noise, maybe you already saw how ugly my drawings are. I feel bad at myself, I don't know where I'm good at. I have no inspiration to study nor a girl that can inspire me, I think I'm already an alien, can I go back now to my home planet? I wish zombie Apologize will happen and the things I've written yesterday will happen. I feel bad for myself, I feel pity for myself, until this night, I tried to memerize and think what are the things I've done why I failed on what I do.

Then lots of things comes to my mind, I remember now that I'm lazy, I didn't put enough effort to my study that leads to my failure, I'm more focus on games that's why I forgot my assignment, I don't get serious on things that I do that's why I achieve nothing. That's the reason why I decide to change myself, I need to focus on my goals now, I have plans now. If I can achieve to save enough money within this week, I'll buy a laptop on me and use it for my studies. I'll listen now on my professor and take down notes all important lessons, I'll focus now here at noise and read to earn a passive income. One thing I'm sure is, my future is not sure, I'm not sure if I get a job in the future but today I will start to save money for my future, I need to have savings so that even if I have no stable job, atleast I have savings that I can give to my sister and relatives at province, it's important that I have savings. Another thing is, I'll stop myself from playing games, not totally stop but I need to reduce the time, I also need some fun on playing cause life is boring without mobile games. BTW I also start my exercise again last Sunday, I planned to have an exercise 4 times a week using a planner that I've installed on my phone. Earlier this morning, I do exercises based on my plan, I feel pain on my body but they say, if yoy engage on exercise and feel pain, it's normal. The only thing yoy need to do is repeat that exercise so that the pain will gone and it's effective, this morning I do that exercise again and my body pain is gone but still I feel pain cause I'm thin.

Author's Message:

I'm glad that I'm changing my routine, I need to stick to my plan in order to achieve my goal, I just wanna say sorry if you read such drama right now, I want to release my frustration and also release my failures and mistakes I've done, it's OK to judge me, you can hit me with tomatoes then I'll catch it cause I need tomatoes in cooking.