A Baby And The Thoughts After

It is the start of a new month. I am not sure I was able to accurately track my April earnings, but what not. I have already put a mechanism in place for May. My only goal for the month is to publish an article every day in May as I haven't been able to successfully do that since I joined the platform. A lot of factors have deterred me, but I don't want any to do that this month.

I wasn't able to post an article yesterday because the power went pot just when I was supposed to charge my gadgets. Oh well, it simply meant I had to go to bed early. Unfortunately, I didn't have a good night sleep because of the heat and mosquitoes. It wasn't until 5am the power was back on and I had to sleep for two hours before getting up to prepare for church.

I am still sleepy as I am writing this, but I have decided to write it now that there is power supply so history doesn't repeat itself. Anyway, that is not the reason for this article. Yesterday, I held our neighbour's baby for about 5 minutes and for some reason, that was the best 5 mins I had yesterday. The baby is only about 3 months old, so there was this need to handle him with care so everyone's mind is at ease.

It has been years since I held a baby that young. In fact, I can't remember the last time I did. As I held him, my mind wandered into off into the future and the thought of fatherhood filled my mind. I imagined how it would be like the first time I would hold my baby in my arms. I wondered what my father must have had in his mind as he held me for the first time looking into my eyes. A blank eyes that could not begin to comprehend the world he is in now, knowing nothing but how to suck on the breast of my mother. What is it about breastfeeding? A child cries out of hunger and immediately stops crying when he has the areola between his infant gums. Is it magic?

I thought about how two microscopic cells- the biggest being the size of a fullstop- had come together and over time metamorphosed into a human; a complete human. Looking at the baby struggling to hold my pinky finger with his full hand, ten of his hands would fit in my one hand, his time will come. All he needs is nutrition and time. His tiny fragile body will be big and strong. Just give it time.

His innocence warmed my heart. Ignorance is indeed bliss. My aunt came in, saw me and jokingly if I have given birth, I laughed. As though she heard my thoughts, she immediately said in my dialect:

One doesn't wait for money before giving birth because if you do, you may never

While I get the point that delay is dangerous and waiting to be 'stable' before settling down is risky, that is a risk I am willing to take.

Of course being is relative as is almost every other thing. What I might consider as stability might be different from what you consider as stability. What I do know is that i am not willing to consider having a child without achieving my standard of stability.

I have seen how difficult it is raising a child and that comes with a lot of expenses among other things. Also, I cannot imagine a situation where I have a child but can't afford to provide for him/her. But what if? I asked.

What if in trying to achieve the so-called stability, time ran against me. Would I want to have a child in my late 40s or early 50s? I don't think I want to. Perhaps what she meant was that I didn't need to be a billionaire before I start thinking of having a child or marriage. Her angle was about the importance of time. Surely I can not write that off, as I honestly do not think I want to have a child after I am 40. So, I have less than two decades to find that stability, wish me luck. Hahaha.

To my dear readers, I would like to hear your view on the matter, kindly leave a comment below let me hear your opinion on the matter.

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