Pursue And Leave

Life will not always have to be static but must have change that is dynamic thinking. I feel depressed when I see that my friends in real life have had a change in their life status regarding their spouse. Maybe the collection of calendar changes has become the topic of conversation for my extended family when they keep asking, When is the time? Remember, calendar changes are getting more and more. This is how it is when living in a village, most young people are constantly encouraged to get married immediately because most of the young people do not continue their studies and only become farmers for men and become a housewife for a woman while I am trying to continue my studies until I have a bachelor's degree and am currently working but I realize because they do not know about things like this, how to struggle in the world of education and try hard to get a job.

For some villagers their only goal is to work in agriculture and get results when everything is achieved they will always tell their children or relatives to get married because one perception is when you are married you will work harder and try even though you are young For me this statement is a little ridiculous because they do not understand about the future, not that I look down on their lives but understanding of their lives is only based on one point, namely getting married and working.

This is the paradigm of village people who are very lacking in insight but my awareness of this existence has given positive things too because my life has a purpose to form a family. Since I was born until now, it has given rise to one hope to immediately think and act because in truth a young man has a time when he will not always be the next generation because someone will replace him. life needs change otherwise you will become the subject of people's conversation because that's the reality of living in a village that is much different from in a city that doesn't want to interfere in someone's personal affairs whoever they are is their own business, whatever action I do is my way of expression that's the advantage when I was in town.

Living in a village, there are so many advices about the journey of life, indeed the goal is right, but it is often misdirected and not in the right situation and conditions. That's why I'm often depressed when I have to attend family events, my thoughts are that I will be an easy target with sharp words that become their lethal weapon but I often think of 1001 reasons to protect myself from gunfire that will hurt my heart. Mentally must also be prepared because the villagers are like killer lecturers when they face each other.

I also have to understand that as a man you have to think about the future because there are things to pursue and things to leave behind in the drama of life. I continue to hold the principle that when I get married I will not bother my parents because of that I try to work and get results for the next life because I often think about my parents' fatigue when they work hard for my college fees, what's the point of continuing my studies with a bachelor's degree if I don't work and I'm grateful that until now my degree was not in vain because the diploma was properly dedicated when I entered the work zone of a state institution.

Many plans in my mind but I realized only God's plan will happen in my life. I always pray that He will always give His light for me to pursue and fight for my ribs which may not be seen with my eyes right now. Many loves come and go but true love will last forever, so many women are scattered on this earth but only one will be with me because a real man will only love a woman.