I am tough, but why have I become so depressive now?
Article # 152
December 07, 2022
Hello, my lovely virtual friends❗how's everyone today? I guess many of you are now excited and busy preparing for some activities for the Christmas party at the School of our children and our respective workplaces. Please, do enjoy the moment and make the best memory that we can bring up to the new year comes.
For today's blog, I just want to share some things that make me bothered lately. I don't know what happened to me this past day, there are times I get too emotional even over small things, I get easily annoyed and I want to be alone. But the hardest is, I tried not to make them feel what I was going through because I don't want them to get worried especially, my family. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, I thought it was just normal and it will go sooner.
Because of what happened yesterday, I realized that I need to open up about my self-issues. First time in my life to open up about my problem and only here ever.
My problem is that I become unintentionally Forgetful not only once but many times. I find it weird and it distracts my mind so badly.
I feel tired and weak sometimes, but I know in myself that I should not be like this because I have my family needs me, especially at this time.
I always feel low about myself and that I am a failure and incompetent. every time I am all alone, I feel stressed and I get a hard in sleeping at night. No matter how I tried to become strong, I have this other side of myself in which I become weak and a loser.
Am I Depressed?
Maybe I am? I guess it just happened because of my environment surrounded by toxic people and unhealthy relationships with them. I want to change and make a new version of myself. I want to become better and more realistic about everything that happened around me.
I know I am the only one who should fight my inner self, no one can dictate I be okay and yes, I am tough and straightforward to step up for my goals in life. What I feel now is miserable, but I can handle it. I will prove that I can overcome whatever trials and challenges come my way. I have my God who is always with me in times of trouble and doubt.
I looked at myself in the mirror, and let out all my heartache with tears in my eyes and at my reflection saying these words " who are you? You are not you, you are supposed to be the strongest woman I ever know".
For now, I just need to unwind, relax, release all the worries that keep me bothered and give myself time to accept the fact that I am human, and not the time I can do all things perfectly according to plan. I only trust myself to be fine and it does.
I feel relieved now, I finally shared this all with my read cash family.😌
How about you? Do you have problems you cannot share to the people around you? LET'S TALK ABOUT IT HERE AND BE CONFIDENT TO SHARE☺
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Maybe you just stress out and lots of load in mind. That's the thing I wished never to have, being forgetting things that usually to be done, just take some breath and rest.