I Was Her Most Toxic Friend
I must be sleeping before I written this article, but I suddenly reminisce how I almost broke our relationship as a friend. I know that some of you can characterize me as a red flag friend if that's what you want, and this was already occured two years ago. I won't show her real name as a respect for her privacy, and don't be bothered since we're both fine.
When I was Grade 9 and Grade 10, I have a very close friend. She is very intelligent, introvert, kind, simple, organized and the best character that stamped on my mind is being a best companion in every sutuation. If you'll ask my ex-classmates how we're bonding together, they might say that we like sibling. Through private message or either in physical contact, we are exchanging our life struggles. Additionally, we started as a friend where I get to know her more especially she's really industrious. In my whole identity as a student, she's the first friend who'll I ask in academic stuffs.
On the other side, if you'll take a look on her works, you might be speechless as her outputs and activities are flawless and neat. And also, her scores in examinations and quizzes are always on the top. That's why no doubt if she's most likely present in every awardings haha. Oftentimes, I'm curious how many certificates did she already received. She also doesn't like to share posts in her Facebook account, and I'm teasing her if she's a human ba because mukhang hindi eh haha.
Back to the title above, I realized that I was her most toxic friend. I was abusing her kindness, but I'm still keeping my distance from my limits, And in my opinion, we are both toxic. Of course, all of us have toxic sides. Maybe some of you would say that you are not toxic, but we just can't admit it because we are blinded with our self-perception. And if you'll compare who's the most toxic among us, I think I am haha.
When it was still face-to-face, group activities are pretty rampant. Every time we are group mates, I ovbserved that she's not bringing her phone. I don't know why, but she's just acting like that. That's the reason I'm giving her a helping hand to use my phone to browse Facebook if it's important.
Then, she forgot to log out all of her credentials, and that's how we began our conflict. After reminiscing the messaged she resented after I did that, I just prefer to hit my head on the wall. Just found how she's sensitive. I don't have an idea what did I ate that time, but I tried to tease her by revealing her darkest secrets on her Messenger account.
I admit that I was childish back then, and I did something where she became rage. Up until now, I'm still swallowing my bitter mistakes because I almost broke our one year friendship, man. Apparently, I wrecked her comfort zone if she like to pour all of her pain, and I feel like I committed a crime. Here is the screenshot where I almost broke our friendship.
Of course, we didn't talk for a few weeks after she forgiven me, and I assured that it will not happen again. I remember one of my classmates before who are very close in just a couple of days, but they didn't make pansinan which I don't know the reason. Sadly, we are not chatting anymore when we started to become busy. But of course, we'll not forget each other especially in every occasions like our birthdays.
How about you? Did you also realize that you are a toxic friend?
Maybe she's still disappointed at you because of sneaking through her privacy. You just have to be patient, everything will be fine.