So yesterday, I feel like I've pissed one of my close friends. Then I realized how bad I am!Β
Want to know my terrible sides? Haha. I will share it with you. All of it. Haha. Read this and judge me! XD
Here we go...
SENSITIVE
I am so sensitive. I hate myself. Sensitive in a way that, for example, you just said to me that I'm stupid, slow, and even simple joke(for you) or laugh at me when I made mistakes. I often get mad, though it doesn't hurt much. Hideous, right? Sorry for this one. I'm trying to not be sensitive.
BULLY
I am just a bully if someone is bullying me. You know, I won't let others step in me. Charot. XD For example, you just pull my hair a little, so I will pull your hair harder! That's how I get revenge. Haha. In terms of verbal, if you told me that I'm ugly then I will say "wow you are so pretty like a frog" HAHAHA. Don't bully me if you don't want to hear harsh words from me. XD
JUDGEMENTAL
I only judge those bullied people, bad ones! But still, it is not right. Haha. But I love to judge them as I feel like they deserve it. I enjoy doing that. HAHAHA so sorry, my bad.Β
HOT TEMPER
One of my most hideous characters hahaha (don't get me wrong, I'm not proud! XD). I always get mad when someone talks to me if I'm busy with something. So what do you expect? I shout at them! Even if you don't do anything, once you disturb me, you'll receive harsh words. I'm warning you. But if you are my special someone, you can do whatever you want. I won't get mad, just a little pissed off then just kiss me on my cheeks or forehead. My irritation will fade away *wink*. HAHAHA landi.
IMPATIENT
I think this trait of mine was inborn. π you know, when we have meetings, I'm the early bird. For example, meeting at 8:00 am, I will arrive at 7am-7:30 am. Then when 8:00 am comes, only a few people arrive at the meeting place. I got irritated. I've waited for so long! I traveled far away! While others' whose house is near, cannot be found! Just a walking distance, dude!
In the restaurant cafe... Hey, it's been 30 minutes! Where are my foods?? I'm hungry! Why did it take so long? Argh. Wait wait, I saw at another table... Why are their orders already served? I come first! You will see my nose releasing smoke! Haha.
When it comes to messaging. I'm so annoyed while waiting for your message! Why did you take so long?! Please reply immediately. I miss you already! Come on, you are online, do respond to my messages! How impatient I am! Hahaha.
FOUL-MOUTHED
Five years ago, I didn't want to hear any bad words coming from the mouth of others. But now? Hahaha. I'm the one who you'll hear! But, it is when I'm not in our house, or when I can't control myself to say bad words to express my anger. XD. Am I bad, right? Haha. Having a hot temper causes me to say bad words. Huhu. Sorry. I will not promise to not do it again. Hahaha.
PRIDE
All I can say is that I won't lower my pride to anyone! No way! Seriously, I feel like I have a stone heart when my pride exists. Hahaha. Charot. I will lower it if I realize that I'm at fault and it's only for someone special and family too if I think I should. XD
These are my awful sides. Well, I don't care if you don't like it. I am me. Haha.Β Again, I AM NOT PROUD for having these! HAHA.
I'm trying to change myself or just reduce these awful sides of myself not because of others but for my own good. :) I see progress in me!
I admit, I'm a bad friend, sibling, daughter, and human being. Whenever I fight with them they will hear bad words from me and I won't easily lower my pride for them, it takes a day or more.Β
I remember I fought with one of my close friends, 1 year ago. We are both at fault. The only difference is that she is the one who started to talk about my section. So, as I am hot-headed, I answered her. I don't like what she said about my classmates. She compared it to theirs. Yeah, we have the same course, just a different section.Β
On the next day, I approached her. I apologized and she did too but she pushed me away, literally but not hard. She doesn't want to talk about what happened, so I just asked "we're okay now?" and she replied with a nod. So, okay. Since then we're not that close to how we used to. You know, over these terrible sides of mine, I don't want to hold a grudge to anyone and vice-versa.
I have posted this on noisecash four weeks ago but I added more as I wasn't able to put there all the horrible sides I have. XDΒ
Sorry for the errors. :*
Thank you for reading! β£
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dziefem's note:
Stay away from those toxic people
Judge me if you are perfect. π
Akong ako tong mga to femfem. Grabi wagas, lalo na sa Palamura at Short tempered. Mahilig akong magmura, yaan ang expression ko sa bahay ee. Kahit sa harap nina mommy nagmumura ako. Nasanay na ee, ung pag ginulat ako, naku pah ika'y madasalin ee wag na wag mong gagawin sakin yan at makakatikim ka ng malutong na π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬ ahaha. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam pag nailabas ee, ahahaha. Ewan anyare, high school ako, di mo ako makakaringgan ng mura ee. Pero nong naglaon, ayown ahaha nagka sungay ahahaha.
At dun naman sa mainitin ang ulo, naku wag na wag lang akong iiaturbuhin pag may ginagawa ako at ako'y nagwawala talaga wahahaha. Hate na hate ko yan, pero syempre ibang usapan na pag si kwash ang nang isturbo para mag loving loving, πππ