Dear ex,

It's been 5 years..., 5 years when you told me you that you are sorry "Sorry for being the worst person I have met"

I just want to say:

Thank you

• Thank you for the love and care

• Thank you for not being a gentleman.

  Thank you for not opening your car door for me. Thank you for not carrying my bag. Thank you for not being protective enough. Thank you for not doing things that made me get used to it. At least, I did not look nor miss such actions.

• Thank you for letting me realize that I can lean on someone (at times)

• Thank you for driving me from here to there

  For fetching me from the office and driving me home through car or motor. I know you are in to buy and sell of cars, hence, thank you for letting me experience riding different cars. Thank you for the free rides. At least I was able to save transportation expenses during those times.

• Thank you for dealing with my mood swings

  I'm a moody person and I appreciated how you dealt with it (through offering something sweet).

• Thank you for the jokes and funny stories you shared

  It's your charm that attracted me. As you have said, I'm really not into physical appearance.

• Thank you for the sweet moments shared together, for making my heart flutter...

• Thank you for the gifts

  I still have the pink hoody and still using it once in a while and the shoes gave up just a few months ago. Yes, I was able to take care of those items for that long. It's just you who did not choose to stay longer.

  Sorry for the stuffed toy, it was sold already. Not because it reminds me of you, but just because of the need to declutter things not being used. Since you gave it to me, took a picture of it and returned back to its bag 😊. At least someone out there is appreciating it now.

• Thank you for the coffee dates.

  Thank you for choosing coffee shops/ restaurants that are not common/ more private. At least no one has seen us dining out together alone. And thank you for treating me most of the time...

• Thank you for not having a picture of us together.

  At least I have nothing to delete or to be reminded of. And there will be no posts or memories of us that Facebook might remind us of every year.

• Thank you for making me feel I'm beautiful despite of my shape and height...,

• Thank you for motivating me to continue with my post-grad studies (unfortunately still not able to finish it.., not because of the separation, but because of my laziness)

• Thank you for keeping our relationship to ourselves. For not announcing to anyone that we are into a relationship.

  For not telling other people about it. At least, I don't have to explain to others why we broke up.

• Thank you for not telling me personally that you wanted to end the relationship.

  Thank you for just sending messages and telling me things are not working for us through text. At least, you did not see how I reacted. At least I did not see your face and would not have the last image of you giving the bad news.

• Thank you for not telling me the real reason for breaking up.

  Thank you for not telling me you went back to her. Thank you for not telling me you preferred to be with her rather than with me. At least I did not blame the other girl.

• Thank you for leaving and making me realize that I need to work on my self-improvement.

I'm Sorry

• I'm sorry that I was never enough...

• I'm sorry for being clingy...

• I'm sorry if I did try to persuade you not to end the relationship for a couple of days...

With what happened

At least I was able to say to myself:

It's OK...,

If you are hurting right now, please bear with it.

Trust that one day you will be ok. One day you can only laug remembering this.

The only way to remove the pain is to go through it and move forward.

Soon I can say:

Why it did not work with anybody else..

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It might be late, but I still want to acknowledge and thank the following:

• @ARTicLEE

• @Bloghound

• @Momentswithmatti

• @bbyblacksheep

• @Marinov

• @TheRandomRewarder

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