Strangers
I was watching how bright the moon is a while ago. Counting the stars and trying to connect to make some stuff but everything feels quite hard. I just got dizzy for doing nonsense. I looked up at the sky for a long moment then suddenly my tears fell slowly to my face without hesitation. I don't know why if I'm just tired or what. I really don't know the reasons, all I know is I am in pain.
The burden that I was keeping inside is like lifting the heaviness of something that weighs too much. It also looks like eating your soul.
*"We are so addicted to our thoughts. We cannot change anything if we cannot change our thinking."*
That's the ending line of the story that I was reading, I fix my things and get ready to go home I realized that I should change my mindset on how to look at something, then I tried to look up and the sky again and then I was shocked when I try to connect the stars then make a heart shape and a smiley emoji. Maybe it depends on your mood, I guess.
Walking through the big dancing trees together with the bird's rhythm is just perfect for a peaceful and extraordinary place. Being myself and enjoying my time is my favourite thing to do.
Reading books while leads me to a portal the goes to the other side of the dimension of their realm, fantasizing everything but I should stop daydreaming coz it only happens in the world of fiction.
Way to go home while daydreaming about the book that I was reading earlier made me bumped into something hard.
*"Oh it hurts man, sorry"* - he said
Is he human? I won't deny the fact that he is a perfect body by scanning him up to down... and back to the center of attraction, his eyes were greyish-blue, pink lips and... Suddenly hears a snap oh shoot, I'm dead for examining him >_<
*"Are you okay? "*
*"Uhm... yeah yeah, I'm good sorry for bumping you tho, I was thinking of something and I didn't realize that there a person on my way."* Stop staring at me, please.
*"Okay, then."* he just smiled and pat my head. What was that for? I'm already at my bed thinking about that guy who just pats my head and smiles sweetly at me and suddenly fell asleep. ('-')
~~~~~~~~~
There was a girl who caught my attention while I was walking on my way home. The girl is sitting on the grass while looking at the sky, she looks calm, sweet but her smile faded away that fast. She's ready to go and she almost caught me. That's why I decided to walk fast but suddenly bumped into someone, ugh what a lucky day for me isn't it?
I tried to check out her if she's okay but I was surprised that she is the girl that I'm watching earlier. And oh, she's looking at me like scanning through my whole body, is she going to report me to the police? Did she saw me staring? Doomed. Rip self.
*Are you okay?* - I asked her
*"Uhm... yeah yeah, I'm good sorry for bumping you tho, I was thinking of something and I didn't realize that there a person on my way."*
What? Oh lucky enough, she didn't notice me.
Okay, then. I pat her head and smile to her, damn she's pretty. (*-*)
-End.
Extra~ extra ~extra.
Sa bawat pahina
*Sa Ilalim ng puno ay tahimik na nakatanaw sa kalangitan na para bang sa bawat pag ihip ng hangin na humaplos sa aking mukha at pagsayaw ng aking buhok ay sadyang napakasarap sa pakiramdam. Tila para akong niyayakap at dinadamayan sa aking nararamdaman na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko maunawaan.*
*Napaka payapa ng kapaligiran ngunit ang isip ko ay sadiyang naguguluhan. Bakit ang hirap at ang sakit sa pakiramdam? Sa totoo lang hindi ko maintidihan, sa aking luha na sa bawat pagtulo ay nag uunahan hindi ko na rin alam dahil sa tuwing maglalakas ng loob ay parang walang may paki alam.*
*Kinuha ko ang libro na aking dala-dala at nag umpisa sa pagbabasa. Muling tumulo ang luha sa bawat pahina ay sadyang nakapagtataka mgunit ramdam ko na parang kami ay iisa.*
*Sa bawat pahina ay may saya. Subalit may kapalit na luha at hinanakit sa para sa iba.*
*Sa bawat pahina, hindi laging ikaw ang bida. Sa bawat pahina hindi ka nag iisa. Hanggang saan pa ba?*
*Ang aklat ay nanatiling bukas pa, walang katapusan at blanko ang huling pahina.*
*Dahil ikaw mismo ang susulat sa sarili mong libro, hawak mo ang balaraw na siyang magtatapos nito.*
*-carisdaneym*
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless! :)
Ps. just trying to mess up with my avid readers 🤣
The moment before I close my eyes. (Caris ft. Scarquinn/k.sinner)
Then the typing began at this moment.
The feeling is interminable. I don't know if this is real but I keep on thinking about him. We used to be so close enough to share some secrets that we never had a chance to share with anyone.
Whenever I watch the clock, staring its hand move to another number until I got dizzy, there you are. Hearing the sounds of the clock ticking is like my heart beating.
The moments before I close my eyes it was you that I can hear, the softness of your voice is like a lullaby to me that gives some peace to my dark soul.
One night, while I was waiting for your call I tried to open my book then read some chapters that made me think broader about something that really bothers me. The guy in the book describes your personality, funny right? A fictional character that almost perfect and so are you. I cannot hide the fact that I was thinking about you and felt the butterflies inside. It's insane to think about that since we're not into that level, we're just friends who love and enjoy the company of each other. And then I finished reading the book and I never heard about you, if you're busy with something or not. I keep on asking myself when it's been 24 hours without replying to my messages. The 24 hours became one week, one month, and now one year had passed still no communication with you. I already read thousands of stories while trying to figure out what's wrong and what happened to us.
The moment we shared foods, watch movies together and hang out. It's just me and you who helps each other when needed a hand. You're my pillow to hug, my hanky for tears, my umbrella when it rains and my knight and shining armour at all times. But things are not like that anymore. You left me hanging and dumbfounded.
-c
*The memory that feels like yesterday.*
I was busy with my study for the past 4 years and I decided to look for you when I graduated. I go to where you live but you're not there anymore. When I asked about you, someone got too emotional and cried. I was so confused at that time but the moment she said those last line, my heart broke for the last time, she gave something to me and when I looked into it, it was a small box with a letter written inside.
*Hey love,*
*I never had the chance to explain nor to prove how much I really love you. Of how much I cared for our future that's why I also never had the chance to say goodbye. I just didn't friggin' realize that the last time I will see you is the time to that you're hurting because of me. Because of what I did, because of me . . . leaving. I know my sorry will never be enough and will never make you come back. All that's left to me is the memories. I was too busy building our future together that I forgot to put effort in our relationship.*
*Now, all I can do is mourn, cry and blame myself for everything. I am now scared to move forward. I am scared to move on without you. If only I could bring back everything and make things right. I never meant to make you suffer. But until my last whiff, I called your name name, I still love you the same.*
*I'm sorry.*
-k
***I still love you anyway***
*Why does it hurt to feel alone?*
*No one cares if I'm not home*
*It feels like I'm in a big dome*
*But here I am crying, alone.*
*I wish that we can be together*
*Watching sunset until forever*
*How I wish that you're still here*
*Hugging and talking to each other.*
*I didn't take you for granted,*
*I love you coz that's what I wanted*
*You left me dumbfounded*
*that's how our story ended.*
*You left me so voiceless*
*You left me like I was worthless!*
*You left me, You left me!*
*And I become heartless*
*The sorrow and tears of yesterday*
*It doesn't fade away*
*Even if you passed away,*
*I still love you anyway.*
-C
Disclaimer:
Story collaboration with @scarquinn
Not a real story of mine. It's just me being bitter whenever I read my poem. I really don't know why I wrote this poem years ago😆
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
APRIL GOALs ( Thank you, BCH)
Time flies so fast that I cannot believe that it's been a year when COVID-19 ruined my future plans. But the fact that the eagerness of wanting something to get and achieved won't fade away easily. And of course, my dreams will be the same.
Dreams are something that you want and you might think impossible for you to have. But for some reasons, it might be possible considering the perseverance and dedication you put to make your dreams come true.
I am one of those people who always dream big. Life is hard for me to back then. Things are rough, I started to become a working student when I was 15 years old. It is not just because my parents forced me, It is my choice because I wanted to continue my studies. They say that they cannot afford to support me anymore for the reason that I have a lot of siblings, nine (9) to be exact. I cried a lot but I have no choice but to continue living because that is the path I chose to walk in. I became a sales lady at an early age while pursuing to study and do some household chores too, I go to school then work and home. School, work, home. That is my routine for the past 5 years. Experiencing that kind of situation makes me who I am right now, I must say that I become more Independent and Responsible. I am not the kind of person who is very time-oriented but I can say that when I want to achieve something, I will be eager to achieve that.
Now I am already a college student who is very determined to achieve my future goals. Since I became a working student at a very young age, I can say that it helps me to understand people and society. I became stronger whenever there's a problem. I can stand alone and not mind the people who degrade me as a person and accepting constructive criticism makes me mature enough to become a better version of myself.
Dreaming is one of my motivations to continue to live on and fight for the problems that I encountered. I applied to a lot of scholarship programs to support me but it was not enough so I didn’t stop working while pursuing my college degree. It was very challenging for me but lucky enough, I got accepted to become a scholar in our university and that helps me to provide what I needed to support my financial needs especially now that the pandemic starts.
Five years ago, when I started to support myself financially without the help of my parents. Well, they support me with love (before) and that’s enough for me. With the perseverance and dedication I have, here are some of the things I bought for myself that I think I made the right decision.
I bought this when I got my first scholarship fund at college. It is not a brand new one but still manages to look decent and works fine until now. I know this will help me a lot to continue fighting for my dreams. I just need to be practical and consider the budget that I have since my parents cannot afford to buy it for me. And I guess what? it helps me a lot just like now while typing this article of mine.
This is the second phone that I bought for myself, the other one got broke years ago and this is actually new. I just bought it a few months ago, I worked hard when the pandemic started because I'm sure that it will gonna be hard for me while I’m doing my class online (It is asynchronous so I had a chance to work and study at the same time)and yeah, I made it and I am so proud of myself. I don’t mind if it is expensive or not, I am also being practical when I bought this one. Phone and laptop are what I needed right now for my studies and I didn’t buy this just to show off because there is nothing to show off after all. I just wanted to inspire someone like me who is also struggling in life and it's okay because everything happens for a reason and I know that you can make it through, you just need to trust the process.
These are because of my noise.cash earnings, I am very grateful that I discover bitcoin cash, and helped me to buy things that I wanted. As I love crafting, writing, and reading, buying these kinds of things is my happiness and I considered as an award for doing better :)
Anyways, those are some important things that I bought without the help of my parents. I understand our situation and I know that we cannot get what we want in an instant, we need to go through a lot of processes but it’s okay, the important thing is no matter how long it could be, we will there soon.
Next stop: Printer
And now, my next goal will be the printer. Printer because I want to hold paper while was studying and also to avoid destruction and lessen the time usage of my gadgets a day. Computer shops are very far from our house, we need to go to the market first when we need to print something and it will take too much time and kinda hassle to do that every time we need to print or copy something.
Btw, My $300 goal is not yet achieved, I'm still lacking $30 to complete my goal for the month of March, and because the price of BCH dropped my goal will be delay haha :(
And instead of planning to aim at $400 for the month of April, I chose to accomplish the printer first before the semester ends.😆
This printer is worth **PHP 7,195 or 148.48 dollars.** This is what I wanted to buy for the month of April. I am actually saving some BCH for my printer.
As of now, I have **US$51.22** but the price of the printer that I wanted is worth **$148.48** that's why I need to save more for this month. If you believe in something that you can do, you will. Before I was just dreaming to have those things but since I trust myself, I work hard to achieve it. Even though someone is mocking me and keeps on saying that I will be staying at the bottom forever, instead of taking that as an insult, I used those statements as my motivation to prove that I can go higher. I know that you can do it too.
Believe in your dreams. :)
Your dreams are the essence of your life, You just need to follow your dreams and you will feel the happiness. As long as your dreams appeal more than your fears, you will find the courage to move forward. The more you pursue your dreams, the more exciting your life becomes. God is always there for us no matter what so please continue dreaming, but dreams are not enough, you also need to act.
The Club1BCH
And yes, of course, MY 1 BCH GOAL this year hehe. Being a member of this club is one of my inspirations and motivation to keep on aiming and achieving my goals.
Where to start? kindly read this.
**Club1BCH - The Genesis** https://read.cash/@PVMihalache/club1bch-the-genesis-dbb27252
**Club 1BCH 😱** https://read.cash/@Eybyoung/club-1bch-df96508b
**What Is #Club1BCH?** https://read.cash/@bmjc98/what-is-club1bch-914bdccd
**Club1BCH is Up!** https://read.cash/@Eybyoung/club1bch-is-up-fbf69cde
**Author's Note**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Just let me breathe.
We have different kind of struggles in life. We invariably say that **"struggle is real"** easily but we also know that is the truth no matter what, struggles are always there to test our patience and make us stronger when we try to keep going. In a life that full of challenges, we must keep reaching the objectives that will make us satisfied with the results.
**In a life that has a lot of chaos, what are you up to?**
Oh, I think I should respond to my query too. I am having a roller coaster emotion right now and I can't even organize my thought so I think, it is better to write it down. To be honest with all of you I still have a lot of stuff on my plate right now, I have lots of things that need to be done but I am here writing just because I wanted to express myself not minding the people who infer my decision in life. I am not discouraged, I do motivate myself to overcome my dilemmas but sometimes there are still some thoughts that I think much better to take it gradually but certainly make an action afterwards.
Yesterday, I shared my story with a good friend of mine in a virtual world. I shared my perspective on how I look and analyze the situation, It was hard for me to understand why do have to experience it that's why I need some advice and another point of view about that matter. This friend of mine explains why and I re-read it again until I realize that at some point, I was wrong too. It's easy for me to accept constructive criticism as I know that it will help me to improve my personality and be a better version of myself. Anyways, thank you for listening to me. You're a good listener and I like how you explain it in a way that you can't hurt my pride. A morning realization that awakes my sealed judgment. 💚💚💚
*Just let me breathe.*
*Let me blink, and let me think.*
*Let me find my essence that sink.*
*Let me get up and make it up.*
*Let me breathe to make it on top.*
*Let me be inspired again.*
*Reading and writing wake my soul to begin.*
*In the realm of the world,*
*let me fight and win.*
How to let go of a painful pattern?
You need to recognize that you developed certain patterns of behavior due to a belief programming you absorbed from those around you in the past-or because of these behaviors kept you from feeling unwanted anxiety and hurt. You must now recognize that these old patterns of behavior are not working for you in present. At this point, they are causing more harm than good. You must accept that if you keep doing what you're always doing you will keep getting what you're always getting. -*Karen Salmansohn*
Time is like a river
As they say that you can not touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Let us enjoy every moment of our life for the reason the we cannot go back the time and opportunities we've missed. Let us enjoy the flow and and do not let the boat leave you again to swim harder.
*Susulat para sa kinabukasan, if sa tingin mo hindi mo na kaya, magpahinga ka lang tapos laban ulit. Hindi ka naman nag iisa, maraming tao ang mas mahirap ang kinahaharap pero nagagawang maging positibo sa buhay. Kailangan mo lang maging malakas para sa sarili mo. Hindi ka nag iisa huwag mong kalilimutan iyan. Laban lang, laban para sa kinabukasan. Everthing happens for a reason and I know, you can do it too. Fighting!*
**Author's Note:**
I miss sharing my thoughts on read. cash! Sorry for not reading your articles these past few days, I encountered a huge problem this month and I can't still figure out how to make things better on that one. Too many requirements to finish but yeah keep fighting! Lalaban habang humihinga! 😊 Thank you for always reading and sharing your opinions in the comment section. I really appreciate it all :) God bless you all people! 💚
Waaaaaaahhh thank you so much po ate @eommaZel for the huge upvoteee😚😚😚💚💚💚💚
My $300 in BCH Goal update for March
This month is super thrilling yet enjoyable for me, I met new friends again here in read.cash and noise.cash and did some new exploration about the crypto world.
Well anyways, this article of mine is about my activities this month and also my update about my $300 goal in bch for March.
I usually include the dates when I achieved something but I was too occupied to record the exact date due to some family problems and school works and that was the main reason why I wasn't active for almost a week and didn't publish any article.
**I as officially became one of the members of Club1BCH**
From the very start of this club, I really wanted to join therefore, I was afraid that I won't able to achieve it at the said time. I was holding a few cents of bitcoin cash when this club is flourishing to the different BCH Communities such as read.cash and noise.cash and to make that happen, I started to make my own goal which is to accumulate $100 in a month and I was so shocked when I really achieved it. After that, there are too many activities happen that **I became one of the admins of** @bmjc98 **'s Facebook group which is to** **Earn and Learn BCH** **and Mommy** @Yen **'s Facebook page to spread** **Bitcoin cash awareness.** https://web.facebook.com/groups/237769798056371 https://web.facebook.com/BCHNE
And the most exciting part when they announced me as an official member of the Club1BCH. I am so grateful for the sweet acknowledgement of @PVMihalache @Eybyoung @bmjc98 and also for all the members of the club. Thank you, everyone. https://web.facebook.com/BCHNE
For me, supporting BCH is like telling them how it really change my perspective in life and how it really helps me financially. To add more, writing here my thoughts helps me to express the real me. So I'm kinda devoted to what I'm doing for the bitcoin cash community.
By the process of learning about cryptocurrencies and bitcoin cash, another opportunity comes for me to grab. I will start to discuss my new activity about NFT, I already wrote an article about this one when **I earned** **$60+from the 1st to 14th day of Juungle**. I am also one of the pioneers who observed the juungle and witnesses how fast the improvement in a short period of time. And of course, it was designed around BCH exchange that's why I love this Marketplace as a bitcoin cash supporter.
Being inactive here on read.cash, I still don't miss posting at least one to my noise.cash account about my rants about online class, my photographs and also my activity that relates to Bitcoin cash. And because of that, I was able to achieve my **1000 subscribers**. I really don't have any idea why they are subscribing to me as more of my content wasn't worth reading. To all of my subscribers out there, may I know your reasons why? Haha. I really appreciate this huge number, how I wish it can be converted into cash haha. (just kidding)
After one week of procrastination, I still received this notification saying that my articles reached **2,500 views and 156 subscribers** after two and half of publishing an article here. I feel honoured and grateful at the same time when the users read my article then leave a good and very heart whelming comment. The tips they put also helped me to achieve my goal and save some funds for my dream printer that cost more than a hundred dollars 💸
Wallet Update
**$100 goal achieved for January** https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/a-100-in-bch-achieved-747ac690
**$200 goal achieved for** **February** https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/the-200-in-bch-achieved-am-i-late-to-save-and-hodl-bch-184a9502
**Road to 1BCH: A step by step process** https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/road-to-1-bch-a-step-by-step-process-49cb72f0
As of this writing, I have a total balance of ****US$241.95**** **($521.31 bch value)** in my bitcoin.com wallet and ****$21.60**** in coins.ph wallet for a total of ****$263.55**** **in BCH**
I am almost there to achieve my goal this month but I was tempted to buy WAIFU NFTs and hold them. Half of them are worth **$5+ each** when I bought them and half of them are from the faucet.
**I have a total of 20 waifus,21 ponies and 6 zombies.** I will post my collection for my next article. For now, **I still need to accumulate $36.45 before March ends haha. I still have six days for that.**
Hopefully, I will be able to achieve that.
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Why Juungle is the best NFT Marketplace for me.
The Non-Fungible Tokens are very new to me and I find it hard to understand them first and also I find them weird when they are spending thousands of dollars for that token. Just why? so I got curious and try to explore more and I still find it weird not until I discover waifus thanks to my good friend here @Constant1995 Actually, I don't have any idea about the faucet thingy. I just love to share my thoughts and rants here on read.cash and then I found someone whom I talked to a lot about bitcoin cash then he suddenly invited me to claim waifus on the faucet which I ignored at first since I wasn't interested but then again he's kind and patient to explain everything that I needed to know so I tried claiming and I found myself excited whenever I claimed one haha. I remember I just laughed when he published his article and how he talked about how he loves the 2d girls so much and I cannot deny the fact that I'm enjoying it too. Lucky enough, I was able to claim at least **14 waifus out of 30,000** before they closed it. I only had 2 days to claim so I'm kinda regretting why I ignored the opportunity to earn more.
After that, juungle came and I was amazed again as I witness how the site improved in a short period.
Are you curious about **Juungle?**
*As the developer said: This exchange is designed around Bitcoin Cash, everything can be done with 0 confirmations so it's super fast. Actually probably the fastest NFT exchange today. And because we use SLP and Bitcoin Cash the fees are very low. There is a 2% market fee (0.5% lower than rarible), AND with the low transaction fees to use this it's quite inexpensive, so it will be like night and day compared to Ethereum based NFT exchanges.*
*You can buy NFTs even without an account, directly to your wallet like how sideshift works. For selling all you need is an email address/password.*
*We also built a whole api suite, so new NFT applications can integrate Juungle / build on top of it, to make it really easy to launch new applications that involve NFT trading or exchange. The information for this can be found at* *https://docs.juungle.net*
*and I am one of the supporters of BCH that's why I like this project and of course, sir Marc de mesel also support this as he funded it. Isn't amazing? for me, YES!*
So how jungle works, some of the users already published about this one I'll just gonna leave their links here.
@Ruffa Not your typical Waifu: NFTs Collection https://read.cash/@Ruffa/not-your-typical-waifu-nfts-collection-d2ed417f
@Constant1995
**Welcome to the juungle** https://read.cash/@Constant1995/welcome-to-the-juungle-buy-and-sell-adb4f503
**I earned .557 BCH within one week** https://read.cash/@Constant1995/i-earn-557-bch-within-1-week-just-buy-and-sell-nfts-at-juungle-8bf52ca8
These articles are very great to read so I suggest you read this one and don't miss the opportunity to join us on the juungle!
A few days ago when they update the site and fixed some bugs and it became a very user-friendly site. Now it has a search box at the top and sortation of Nfts :) loving the new update.
The first and main collection of the jungle is WAIFU NFT and now there are so many options that are available in the marketplace like Bitcoin Cash NFT, Photoyshop, BCH.games, Zombies, MicahArts, OilPicture, JLV, and many more oh, you can also mint your own NFT so if you are interested to make your own read here. https://read.cash/@VideoGameDana/how-to-create-an-slp-nft-that-displays-artwork-properly-on-both-slp-explorer-and-juunglenet-021e54a3
Here is the example of minted NFT from my friend. He chose sir @MarcDeMesel as his first minted NFT as a token of appreciation for funding and supporting this project.
**See asset here** https://www.juungle.net/#/assets/14a5c17bcae258725668157ddb7c6549200523c15850fd695a8bcdde94ddea38
**My sold waifus.**
I regret my decisions for selling them at a lower price but for some reasons, I know that I gain some profit by doing that and also gain more waifu and it is also a win-win situation because some users had a chance to buy waifu at a lower price.
**My remaining waifus.**
I'm so happy that I had a chance to claim some waifu and discover the juungle on the first day of the released. Although I may be busy with my chores, I still find time to spend time with my waifu friends.
I also love the way how approachable the developer as they listen to the suggestions and fix the problem right away when they encounter some errors at the site. I can see that this will be successful. I'm so thankful that it really helps me to earn more BCH and found some good friends because of this I was able to earn **$62.34** and I still have my 17 waifus. How? I decided to sell one of the waifu that I got from the faucet then make it my capital to buy two more waifus so in that case, I will gain profit.
*"Buy at a lower price then sell it at a higher price"*
**My earnings here at juungle will be added to savings for buying my own printer and also, it helps me to achieve my $300 goal this month. So this is a simple appreciation to the developer and to the team and sponsors behind this project. I love you all!**
**The marketplace where you can able purchased the NFTs:**
**https://juungle.net**
**Wallets that support Bitcoin Cash (BCH) NFTs:**
**Zapit.io** https://read.cash/@Constant1995/1st-edition-bitcoincash-nft-collection-ce80c8fa#bad-link
**https://electroncash.org/**
**https://signup.cash/**
**Telegram channels:**
**https://t.me/juungle_net**
**https://t.me/juungle_net_listings**
**https://t.me/waifuresearch**
**Waifus lover Ph** **(**I created this group chat together with senpai constant1995 to promote jungle and also guide some users who want to know more about nfts in the juungle) https://t.me/joinchat/-iMezXyJ4K01MTc1
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Thank you for the sponsorship ate bmjc98 💓
Finding my Ataraxia
The images that represent my temperament.
This kind of realm that has a lot of crusades is not easy to withstand and we cannot tell if we can survive just by trying to survive. We usually do things that can help us to find our inner peace and follow where our hearts lead us to.
As I was saying, the reasons behind the pictures I uploaded are not just a photo to show by everyone and for you to know that is one of my methods to express how I really feel when things are getting rough. Thinking why the world is unfair for some people but how do you know? They might have a lot of money but they also have some struggles in life so I cannot really tell that the world is unfair. You're lucky to have your parents, some are not. You're lucky that you are still alive.
***Let me breathe and drink.***
***Let me write and think.***
***Let me try to blink.***
***Find the reason why It's a sink.***
I am clouded with my emotion, thinking why do you need to say that in front of many people.
I will write again and again for the reason that I cannot scream it all. She's in pain and I am too.
Sorry for not being a daughter as you *wanted me to be. I'm trying, and trying and trying again. It's hard for me and you. I'm emotional and you are too. We're kinda same you know, of course, you're my mom.*
This is what happens when you are close-minded and not ready to listen to others. This is making me feel miserable. I'm tired. Tired. Tired. Pain is real.
I'm emotionally, mentally, physically and financially drained.
Let me get some strength to fight against my battle.
This flower reminds me of myself, some may look at you like you're not worth it to live and some will look in repugnance. But hey, do not forget that some people can see how beautiful you are and they didn't look at physical appearance but the beauty you have inside your soul.
*I cannot show my love for you with money... I don't have that yet. I will be successful someday, I'm claiming it, can you wait for that to happen?*
Aaahhhhh I ignored my studies today, I need to analyse her situation. She really hates us as she revealed. So why bought some gifts for amiga instead of saving it? Why took some loan when you can't afford to pay for it? Why buying unnecessary things when you can save them? I cannot explain it to her because she will gonna say I'm a rude and useless child again. I don't have the money yet, we need to make a plan mom so we can be successful together.
*Please hear us. Understand us too. We need you and your understanding. Please cooperate. :(((*
You know, you can't solve the problems if you will ignore them and walk away. You can't compare us with others, we are visualizing better for our future. You cannot dictate what we should and shouldn't. We are not perfect daughters and you are not a perfect mother. But we need to understand each other, money is not everything we need. :(((
*You can't measure our love with money. It's priceless mom. It's priceless. Stop making me feel terrible. Don't walk away, We have a better plan. Just wait. We're still in the process.*
As we accept our good and bad characteristics, as we understand each other and work together. Isn't it beautiful that despite that, we manage to make it wonderful?
Happy happy Mother's Day to you Mom, everyday.
A place like this where I can find my peace of mind. Look above and share the story that I have, why do I have to experience this kind of life. And there is one question in my mind, what's the purpose of my life?
Will continue beyond...
*I was tired, then I took a rest... I got tired again then took a rest.. Little did I know, I don't need to rest because what I need is peace. I am living in a peaceful province but not in a peaceful shelter. They admired how it looks like beautiful but the person who captured it was falling into a place that she wanna stay, still looking for ataraxia for a long time yet there is still no progress. Just letting the teardrops fall to lift the heaviness of the burden in her heart. She is tired that doesn't need a rest, she is tired and she wanted some peace in her heart.*
**Author's Note:**
Photos are all mine.
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Hello, did you noticed me?
The reasons why I am here and the reasons why I am doing my best not to feel discouragement when things are getting rough. We usually envy people who are doing great and wish that we can be like that too but things are not going as easy as we want, we asked ourselves what was wrong with the actions and efforts that are we doing that we keep on thinking again and again, why?.
Hello, did you noticed me?
Let me ask you one thing, did you compare yourself to others? Like hey, I am an adequate writer than everyone but why they are being noticed than me, their works are being acknowledged by the top tipper and lots of users too, having lots of views then I got fewer views. Hey folks, what was wrong with my works at all?
I usually don't want to hear your answers about this one because for some reasons, I do ask myself that moreover. But whenever I am feeling that way, I will slap my face haha (not a good idea tho) and I will read some of my articles, my journey and the motivations that I wrote why am aiming so high and of course, my inspiration of everything.
Then if my old self comes back, I do good things like I wanna motivate newcomers, I wanna guide them too and encourage them not to give up if they really wanted to be successful. I am being careless with that one because you know, I cannot really assist you with all your queries for the reasons that I am still learning too but I will surely promise to express and give my support as long as school works won't be a hindrance.
The generosity within me is because of the blessings and supports that I got, this is the way of my giving back to others. Do you believe in saying that **"the more you give, the more you will receive"?** I always hear this statement from my father when I was a youngster and I always keep that in my mind. We are lacking in money but I have my parents and 9 siblings and they are my treasures, motivations, inspirations demotivation and aspirations.
Let's go back to you, in that case, this is the only rule or principle rather keep me stay here and continue writing and sharing thoughts, ideas, journey and rants (my favorite topic).
"If you want to be noticed, acknowledged and appreciated make them feel it too"
That's my principle here in read.cash and noise.cash, I do share it with my companions, treat them as my newly found friend, family and support group hihi. (I'm so cute guys right?)
Do you believe that this girl established a group chat on telegram? And whenever I found some users who are having trouble and asking for my help what should they do, my friendly advice will always be connected to my principle. We called this group as **Noiseristificationism**. I only accept and invite users who I think really needs help and not someone who just wants to gain attention and will follow the rules and avoid doing something that violated the law of my cuteness 🤭💚 oh, what I mean is remember the **Do's and Dont's here in our friendly community read.cash and noise.cash.**
Hello, are you still there?
Hey folks, just remember to encourage yourself and trust yourself that you can do it too. YOU DON'T NEED TO COMPARE YOURSLEF TO OTHERS BECAUSE YOU ARE **UNIQUE! YOU ARE YOU** AND YOU'RE NOT THEM SO THAT'S NOT REALLY MAKES SENSE TO COMPARE AND MIX THE OIL WITH WATER.
But hey, if ants are small, let's established the support for each other that makes them not to treat us like small creatures that have no sense because we are not. **SMALL BUT TERRIBLE.**
The sun will rise soon and I think I need to finish this to watch the beautiful scenario and talk to the flowers**.**
See you next time on my next nonsense but make sense article.
Typing here on my phone for almost one hour haha I need to drink my coffee and greet my beloved community noise.cash💚🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Road to 1 BCH: A step by step process
May this perseverance that I have will push me more to aim high even though I am encountering a lot of challenges but despite that, a lot of positivity in life motivates and inspires me just like reading their articles here and spreading positivity and chill vibes on noise. There are some ups and downs here and it reminds me of the status of bitcoin cash that makes me scream sometimes. I remember my newly found friend a 14-year-old crypto kid says something about trading: **Risk what you can lose, trade with no emotions, and never trade against the trend.** It is really great to learn from different kinds of people while sharing some knowledge with them they are also sharing some with me and it was great! It's a win-win situation. Now, I will share my journey from where I really started.
A Moments to Remember
Now, I tracked the day I registered on read.cash. **September 10, 2020,** you can see how proud I am of earning **$0.50** for my first day. That time, it was okay to publish short articles like that because it was a point system. Some of you know about that but I cannot explain more since I do not have a lot of experience. I got busy and abandoned my account because of my part-time job and online class. It was **ate Florie Mae's** article that makes me inspired and **ate sc's** giveaway events and even her article-like comment haha. Back then, I am earning points by interacting with the users and that's the best part of it. I remember **ate Ruffa's photography**, **ate Jane's** giveaways too, and some users that I don't know where to find anymore maybe they left read.cash when the random rewarded (bot) showed up because most of us got discouraged when we thought the bot will notice only someone whose good at writing and lots of subscribers. So I think it is better to focus on my work and studies.
If I remember it correctly, after the first semester I go back and check my account on read.cash, it was still okay so I joined **laurenceuuu's** giveaway event, he noticed my work and give some tip worth **$0.50** because of that I remember sir **ErdoganTalk** he is the first one who upvoted my article and it was exactly my first day on read.cash when he noticed my short article and upvoted it worth **$0.50** we also had some short conversation in the comment section telling me that I shouldn't stop writing and inspiring more student like me. Until now he still noticed some of my articles and leaving a comment to continue writing. With that, I decided to be active on read.cash but my phone got broke and laurenceuuu noticed that my comment was on spam. Like some users, I also got discouraged that time but it was **December 24, 2020,** when **noise.cash** came so I created an account but I just leave it when I saw that it was still new. No notification bell, you cannot change your picture, you cannot upload any picture, there is no heart reaction and there is no renoise feature.
**December 27, 2020**
This is the day when I started to check my noise and be active again and try to make a post something like quotes or riddle thing. Then I saw ate Eirolfeam2 and laurenceuuu profile so I subscribed to them and try to interact again. I noticed renren because of Doraemon and ate Florie's unique name. I found new friends and try to look for more by interacting with them. I can say that on my first day of being active noise was a great experience again. After one week, I decided to create another account on read.cash to write an article about my first week on noise.cash.
New year, new challenges, and new Goals
**January 03, 2021,** when I started to create this account because my old account was on spam already when I visited it. Maybe it is because of inactivity or someone downvoted my articles? or I violated some rules, I don't have any idea.
That is actually the most viewed article of mine, I know it's a trend one because noise.cash is still a baby at that time and I was able to earn that big. Most users got curious then read my article and to tell you the truth, it wasn't clickbait when I said that **I earned more than $25 within one week.** (click the link to know more) https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/how-i-earned-more-than-25-within-one-week-with-noisecash-and-readcash-45fa1bef
**January 15, 2021**
I was aiming to achieve $100 in one month and came up publishing an article about my goal. **Read here** https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/a-100-in-a-month-with-bch-fba0355c
Then **here's what happened** at the end of January. I was happy that time, imagine my first goal being accomplished as I planned. My progress is fast than other users, maybe I am just an active user who wants to achieve her goal so I published articles as long as I can. Abusing my sem break haha, it was also the month that I decided to quit as a part-timer on a hardware store. https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/a-100-in-bch-achieved-747ac690
**February** came and I set to accumulate **$100 this month** and I was shocked when I achieved it again a few weeks ago after I published my goal. The random rewarder is so nice to me lately and many generous users are always upvoting my articles, and for all of my sponsors **Thank you, everyone!**
Towards my $200 in BCH Goal. The $200 in BCH achieved https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/me-towards-my-200-in-bch-goal-this-month-and-how-bch-shaped-my-perspective-in-life-7c37d4ca https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/the-200-in-bch-achieved-am-i-late-to-save-and-hodl-bch-184a9502
Yesterday, **March 03, 2021,** I celebrated my two months of earning while learning here on read.cash. And yes, of course, **my next goal is to make my $200 into $300 before March ends**. After two months of being active here on these two platforms (read.cash and noise.cash) I can say that I really had great experienced spending my time here and the best thing that happened this year. I am so blessed to meet new friends again and for supporting campaigns to spread BCH awareness.
Happenings
Ms. @Yen invited me to be an admin to promote our **Facebook page** **Bitcoin cash-Nueva Ecija** It was my pleasure to be part of her campaign to spread BCH awareness. https://web.facebook.com/BCHNE
After mommy yen, Ms. @bmjc98 also invited me to be one of her moderators in our **Facebook group Bitcoin Cash: Earn and Learn** I am so grateful that she chooses me to be part of this community, through these social media platforms, I can easily share my journey with bitcoin cash and spread awareness at the same time. I am so excited for more. https://web.facebook.com/groups/237769798056371
Another thing to share this month, I was able to get this badge when my first month and I am happy that until now the badge remains beside my name. It shows that even though there are times that she was not around, just remember that the cute rewarder is on her way to help you! Thank you for reading my articles or rants rather, for leaving a like and comment. I really appreciate those things and for my silent readers out there, thank you. A lot of thank you to everyone who made me like this.
Reading some appreciation who mentioned me in their articles, even some users who messaged me and keep on saying thank for what I've done makes me wanted to aim high more and more with them. Helping some users, and guide them makes me happy and I remember myself when I was once started with nothing, this is my way to give back to all the people who support me.
And of course, last but not least joining this club #Club1BCH motivates me to achieve my **1BCH GOAL** thank you @PVMihalache for creating this club together with ate @Eybyoung and other members of this club. More BCH to come!
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
A frustrated Writer, BCH Hodler and a fellow student.
I have lots on my plates these past few days, the things are not that important to know and not worth sharing. I cannot even tell that I am a very studious person it's just passing grades are enough with me. I already shared my reasons for that so if you're curious, you are always welcome to browse my previous articles.
Anyways, I lost being one on the dean's list last semester. I got my very first 3.0 in our major subject and got a lower grade on our sports subject. Imagine having higher grades on our law than physical education? That sounds absurd to me, I got high scores on written works and exams but yeah I failed to send my video playing table tennis alone not because I didn't do it but because of having a poor internet connection. I finished my exam on time yet I marked it as done late already because of the signal. Where's the justice on that? Well, I didn't approach my professor since he's not accepting the direct message, I'm too embarrassed to announce that on our group chat.
I have no motivation to write, I cannot pour my juices into writing and I think this article would be all about my rants. Why do I even write? Come on, I'm here to express what my heart and soul want. And a few days ago since the bot is offline, most of the writers are also nowhere to be found and that makes me frustrated even more. Whatever, I am one of those who did not publish any articles too for the reason that we have lots of activities last week and I got sick for a week too. Not including to even bother accomplishing all the activities we had I only submit what I thought was important.
Trying to be active and updated at the noise.cash, at least I have a decent earning on noise ranging to $2-$4 a day. Bitcoin cash gives me roller-coaster emotions by dumping at a very low price and I can't even buy some! I even sold some of my BCH to provide a load for my E-loading business and also for my internet connection for my online class. Yes, I am a frustrated writer and frustrated BCH hodler too and a super-duper, frustrated student.
But to think and believe that bch will rise again, it is the time that we grab this opportunity to earn and hold more. Happy to announce that even I'm not publishing articles due to some busy days, I still manage to earn a decent amount and oh, by the way, I got lucky that I am the first one who decoded all the clues and imported the wallet to swipe the balance at bitcoin.com wallet. @Alpher's game which is the #BCHtreasurehunt, I really enjoyed this game that I always wait for the next clue. I even encountered a new friend mayzee, one of the smarty women I encountered on noise.cash and a very deep individual on read.cash.
That time, 1:33 am March 01, 2021. I wanted to sleep but I can't, I just really don't wanna leave this unsolved. When the moment that Alpher gave his last clue, I finally noticed what's incorrect in my answers and successfully import the wallet. This game was really fun so I encourage you to join us for the next round.
I have lots of different combinations of seed phrases haha. I even asked myself what's more important than $5 or my health? I will always choose health if both options are not available.
Okay enough with that one. Today's Monday but I can't see myself be productive at all. I always procrastinate! That makes me frustrated 😩 Ain't cramming but skimming 80 slides for 10 minutes is not a good idea especially when slides are more on graphs and formulas😂 lucky enough, I still manage to pass the two quizzes without having proper review. Noise.cash made me do it. And for the activities that I skipped and ignored, I managed to earn **$20** here in read.cash and that's the reason why I'm not being emotional with what happened. Those activities won't affect my future at all😂 but imagined hodling the $20 in bch, it will mature more. So spend some and hodl your bch, that's a good investment.
What to share more? I got to invite more users here to read.cash! Spreading BCH awareness on every social media accounts that I have. If you want some proof, just visit my noise.cash account, well I do not need to prove myself to someone, I'm doing it in my own way so don't bother if you don't believe what I'm saying here haha.
And another good news arrived, I got to renew my scholarship yay! hello, **$300! Welcome aboard!** so far, my February had ups and downs but yeah that's life. We just need to go with the flow, it is up to you if you will join the ride or let the train leaves you. Good luck in our future endeavors, we may be facing lots of challenges right now but always remember to trust the process. Be inspired and keep it up!
**Author's note:**
Paglangoy sa Dagat ng Kaisipan
Nagsimula ang pagtipa nang tumutok ang kamay ng orasan sa eksatong oras na alas-dose ng umaga. Marahil nailathala ko na ang aking saloobin sa aking dagat ng kaisipan na patuloy sa paglangoy kahit hindi alam ang pupuntahan o kahit nasaan ang tamang daan.
Bakit patuloy pa rin sa paglangoy sa direksyon na walang kasiguraduhan? Minsan na akong napaisip, naguluhan at sinubukang wakasan ang buhay. Sa lalim ng Dagat ng kaisipan and daming bagay ang maaaring maging dahilan na kung bakit hanggang ngayon maraming nalulunod sa dagat at sa direksyong iyong tinatahak. Sa oras na tumuntong ang hating-gabi, mga alaala ng kahapon na pilit hinuhukay sa pagkabaon pero ang sakit lang, ang sakit sakit lang dahil hanggang ngayon, pilit mang hukayin ang nakabaon, hindi pa rin makaahon.
Nahihirapan pero patuloy pa rin sa paglangoy, ninanais na makuha ang nag iisang perlas sa kailalim-laliman ngunit sadiyang hindi sang ayon ang panahon. Nalunod ka, sa hirap huminga nabitawan ang nag iisang perlas at walang sinuman ang nakakita pa. Ngunit sa kabila ng nangyari ay nagising ka na lamang sa gilid ng dalampasigan kasabay ng pag buga ng tubig at nakasisilaw na sinag ng araw. Tinanaw mo ang dagat, ngumiti ka at nagpasalamat dahil hindi mo man nakamit ang iyong nais ngunit nolagtas nito ang iyong buhay.
Panibagong simula, kasabay ng paglangoy ng mga isda, kasabay ng pagkipad ng ibon sa himpapawid. Ikaw ay tumungala at nagpasalamat na sa kabila ng lahat, mayroong gumagabay sa atin.
Sinubukan mong lumangoy ulit ngunit hindi para malunod, lumangoy ka ipagpatuloy ang hamon sa buhay, sinubukan mong mabuhay at humuli ng isda para sa inyong pananghalian.
Makalipas ang sandali ay natutunan mong makuntento at hindi maghangad ng mga bagay na kay hirap kuhanin sa isang iglap. Hindi sa kadahilanang ikaw ay sumusko bagkus ito'y naging dahilan upang ikaw ay maging mas matatag at matapan sa paglangoy sa iyong dagat ng kaisipan.
Inaabot na ng ilang oras sa pagtitipa, nalilito kung nasa tamang direksyon pa ba? Pahinto-hinto na at nauubusang ng pasensiya. Hanggang saan pa ba? Hanggang saan ang aabutin? Hanggang saan ang dapat languyin? Kasabay sa pag agos ng mga alaala ay ang paglangoy sa dagat ng iyong kaisipan. Huwag mong hayaang ikaw ay masilaw at malunod dahil darating ang panahon na matatagpuan mo rin ang isla ng kapayapaan ng iyonv puso.
Sa bawat paglangoy ay may balakid, ngunit sa bawat pag langoy at may mga bagay na inaagos palayo sayo, at may mga bagay na makatututlong sa iyo.
Inabot ka na pala ng ala-una ng umaga sa pagtitipa pero ang iyong diwa ay gising na gising pa. Maging payapa na sana ang bawat paghinga, bigat na nararamdaman ay ialis na at palitan ng mga bagay na makapagpapasaya at maipaparamdam na ang nag iisang ikaw ay sapat na.
Salamat sa lahat ng alaala,
Salamat sa mga alaalang naging dahilan ng pagsaya.
Salamat sa mga sandaling kapiling ka.
Sana ikaw ay masaya na sa piling ng iba.
Hindi istorya na mabubura dahil isang imahinasyon lang na minsan ay naging akin ka.
Sa paglipas ng maraming taon, muling babangon at haharapin ang mga hamon. Susubukang muling magtibay at magpakatatag.
Sa pagsulat naipapakita at naibabahagi ang damdamin at kaisipan, magulo? Magulo talaga ang utak ko at madalas ay nakalutang ako😆 hindi mawari ang dapat iparating at ipahiwatig ngunit alam kong ang ilan sa inyo ay mahihinuha at mapapalalim pa ang dagat ng kaisipang patuloy na nilalangoy ko. Magulo ma sa inyo, magulo talaga ang mundo. Baliktarin mo man ito, tingnan natin kung kaya mo. Baiktarin mo man ang lahat, babalik at babalik ang alat sa dagat.
Ito ay aking tatapusin na. Hanggang sa muli aking mambabasa, paalan sa ngayon ngunit pinapapangakong hindi mapapako, magbabalik at may ngiti at sabik.
The $200 in BCH Achieved! Am I late to SAVE and HODL BCH?
I was excited to announce my $200 goal this month but some fortuitous event just happened. I really don't know what to feel now. I already achieved it yet in just a blink of an eye, I did lose lots of dollars by trading. But if you would like to ask me if ever that I regretted my decision, it's a no. As I've said before, I'm investing what I can afford to lose and it happened real quick.😆
This article was supposed to be published before the dump of bch but it happens that my fever stopping me to do so. And what I did is rewrite this article for the new update of it.
As you can see, I have **$151.05** in my Bitcoin.com wallet. Every week, I will transfer $10 in my coins to fund my reloading business so in that case, I can still reward myself for doing better.
I just hold my **$20.40 in bch** here for the meantime since I can't sell it for now. I still don't know what to buy. I'm trying to choose among the top ten coins but I just can't decide, my heart belongs to bitcoin cash. I'm still looking for some coins to buy but of course, I need to do my own research so that I won't blame anyone except for my decision but online class stopping me to do it now. I wish I had a lot of time to learn more.
This is what I have for my coins.ph, As of now, I have PHP **756.24 or $15.54** it is very useful since It really helps me to earn, save and provide an internet connection for my online class. Also, I already bought books! and not just books but also some shirts, foods and school supplies. Yay! Thank you Bitcoin cash😚 without the people behind these projects like noise.cash and read.cash, I won't be able to come this far and to all the users who supported me along the way. Thank you so much, everyone. I won't stop telling you that I will always be grateful for everything.
I have **$20.36** on my detoken. But since I bet it all yesterday night. I lost it all. I did try the spot trading on binance but I'm not happy with the result I got lol, then I tried detoken and once again, I experienced to feel my roller coaster emotion. I'm frustrated, excited at the same time and the most important thing is I learned something. It's okay to make mistakes sometimes, failure can lead to success too right? Let's just try and try and try until we reached the summit.
A big thanks to @Pisces-jr15 and @Angel_183 for the knowledge you shared about trading😚
The thrill is just priceless and still worth it.💖💚 I won't stop myself from learning more and more.
For the summary:
Bitcoin.com $151.05
Binance. $20.40
Detoken. $20.36
Coins.ph. $15.54
Total= $207.35
I already achieved my $200 for this month days ago, but since the BCH is dumping, and lose some for trading, my $207.35 is nowhere to be found😆.
Whatever the reasons are that won't make me discouraged because I know that I can gain more than what I lose and bitcoin cash will surely fly to the moon again.
I already learned my lessons and will accept criticism that will surely make me better.
I am not yet late to Hodl my earnings, I am not yet late for saving it. And oh, by the way, all the members of #Club1BCH really inspires me and happy to announce that I want to join the club! Since we do have the same goal right? To hold and save more BCH☺😚😚😚
Thank you @PVMihalache for creating this club and ate @Eybyoung for the logo you made, I just love it! And for all the council and members they never failed to amaze and inspires me so joining this club will be great!
Let's Hodl and aim for 1BCH! TOGETHER, WE AIM HIGHER!
CLUB1BCH https://read.cash/@PVMihalache/club1bch-the-genesis-c74a66a2
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
A day without you
I hate being sick even if it is just a mild one because once I catch a cold, it will surely take days or a week to recover. The why it takes too long it's because I didn't want to drink capsuled medicine or anything that is not natural, I would rather sleep and do nothing but this time, I really experienced too much headache and body ache that I can't wait anymore so I decided to take some medicines but sadly, It is still hard for me to swallow the pills that it made me cry for being stubborn. Then after my dramatic post on Twitter, I decided not to use my phone for at least 24 hours to take care of myself, and yes it works! so what did I do without using my gadget for more than 24 hours? allow me to share this with all of you.
After my not-so-dramatic post on Twitter, I hide my phone where I can't get it at one grab when I opened my eyes. Then, when my sister woke up, I gave it to her and ask her to give me my phone unless I feel better already. She accepted it because it is for my own good after all. Then after a minute, I got bored already haha I already miss making some noise at **noise.cash,** and reading some articles at **read.cash** but I cannot break my promise not to use any of my gadgets so I just stick to plan and think of something that I can kill my time.
The first thing that came to my mind is to go outside and wait for the sunrise. This will always remind me that another day is another life and another blessing. After that, I just go to the farm and see the fruits and veggies that needed to harvest.
I ate breakfast then I don't know what to do next. It happens that I saw my paper and pen and decided to make some ***art of boredom.*** This work of mine was inspired by the molecules and distribution of electrons that no scientist can explain except for me haha.
I remember one of my classmates doing this in our 7:00 am class and he looks sleepy at that time. By the way, I am one-hour late but still, decided to enter the room haha I only have 30 mins to kill and I can't follow the discussion so I decided to copy what he's doing. he laughed hard when he saw my work but I do enjoy it so I keep on doing it and make it as my stress reliever too.
The next thing I did was playing this Rubik's cube. Imagine this is your crush, don't be too serious and frustrated just play with it if you know that you're meant to be.
But after playing that one, I keep on looking at them holding their phones lol so to distract myself I get lyre and start making sounds into it. I learned how to play this when I was still young. I watched my ate played this then copy her but my mom hid this thing and didn't allow us to play with it. I want to learn more, I envy my classmates when they are making music with this but I can't do anything since we cannot afford the tutoring lessons.
Now, whenever I have some time, I always watch some videos on youtube then keep on practicing because I just want to. As of now, I'm practicing to play ***"At my worst by Pink Sweats"*** I'm just in love with the message of that song.
I keep doing something to distract myself. After the lyre, I just found myself strumming the guitar.
I was 15 years old when I got hooked on the sound of acoustic guitar. The memory of myself who had a suicidal thought back then. The breakdown.
My 15-year-old self is the most fragile one. My problems started pouring and I don't know what to do anymore with my life. Hopefully, my Christian friend invited me to attend their event and I got to share and express myself with them. There are challenges that help me to find myself again and the first strum of the guitar, my tears fell down as my heart beat so fast because, for the first time in my life, I found him. He's the only answer to all of my problems. I am still thankful to my friend that she made me close to him and then the next day, I found myself writing my devotion. I keep on writing whenever I can until the suicidal thought fades without even noticing it. This made me thankful for God every day. God made me realize that nothing is impossible. :>
As I was saying, I just strum the guitar, I still don't know how to play it haha I wanted to make some noise at noise.cash but I can't use my phone so I just strum the guitar lol. Maybe I'll find a boyfriend who knows how to play it so that he can teach me. *wink*
But my day didn't end with that one, after taking a bath I started to look for board games. I know how to play chess and scrabble but am not that good, I just know how to play it and my favorite board game is **snake and ladder** haha. Finally, I found this one so I try to make some words then fell asleep. If you want to sleep faster than usual, play scrabble alone haha.
Before finishing this article, I want to make a mini-game. The mechanics are simple, all you need to do is try to make a paragraph using some of the words I created at the scrabble. The more the merrier and more chances of winning. I will choose at least **"First (10)** **best comment"** and will upvote their comment for **$0.50 each.** I know this is just a small amount because I don't have that huge amount on my wallet yet. We still need to save for a better result. and of course, I will still give some tips to all the users who will leave a comment as my token of appreciation. You can mention some friends too. **(exclude my username) valid until I have some penny on my read.cash wallet**
I think that's all. Good luck guys!
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
STRUGGLES that keep me going
I was once planned to be aborted by my parents. How did I know that? Well, I can hear it every time and that stuck to my mind while growing up.
My life was endangered when I was a baby because of dehydration and the sensitivity of my skin and experienced the 50/50 of being alive.
I was an outcast before, am not good at school, I don't have any talent either. I was just a girl trying to survive at everything.
They always want to compare my achievements in life, like what's the point of living here if you are useless.
I was just a girl who loves to read stories about the origin of something, the history of the economy, and of course, fairytales and romance novels.
***Junior High School***
I tried to change myself when I started to attend secondary education. I study hard but it is not the best for them, I became top 2/50 and awarded as the most responsible student in the class but no one appreciated it. Another year passed, I got into trouble but still manage to be on the top 6/51. Still, no one appreciates it. Another year, being the third year I started to be a working student and I was 15 years old *at* that time and it was really hard for me because this is the year that forced me to support my financial needs or else, I cannot attend school anymore. Then I strived harder and tried to prove to myself that my life is worth fighting for. I became top 2 of the class and was awarded as being most responsible again but I was frustrated that I can't beat the top 1 of the class. Not because of my own good but for my parents who expect more from me. It makes me cry once more, I feel so demotivated and hopeless at all. I still have one year, I told to myself to keep fighting and fight for my dreams. The grading system changed and they challenged the student to get 90% on average to become one of the achievers, this is getting crazy because I was tired and no motivation. I am tired of being compared with my sisters and brothers, cousins, and even the children of our neighbors. Having a good grade? I wasn't like that, I hate being like that. I don't wanna be the first at all. I hate it. And you know what is the worst scenario I experienced? My science teacher changed my grade with an average of 98% for the last quarter, the reason why I got an award as an achiever of the year and of course as being the most responsible student. Why? I actually don't know why she did that for me. I was ashamed of myself because in the first place I don't deserve it at all.
***The Moving up ceremony***
Four years of attending the recognition no one accompanied me to hang the medal on my neck, it is always me and my adviser who will congratulate me every year on the stage. During the moving up ceremony, I was crying as I walk alone having no parents to go up to while receiving my diploma, my adviser was busy at that time and no one really walks with me. Why? because they need to attend together with my sisters and brothers recognition day. I need to understand the situation.
***Senior high school***
I just enrolled in what I think is the best so I chose the strand **ABM or Accountancy, Business, and Management.** I don't care about my grade anymore all I think was having a passing grade is enough, I don't wanna strive for more. With the help of the encouragement of my friends, I still managed to graduate as being one of the "***with honors awardee and most benevolent award"*** *and finally my older sister accompanied me to the graduation ceremony.*
What happened before is not an achievement at all, It is my struggles that keep me going just to survive and prove to them that my life is worth living. I hate myself for being like this.
Being a working student while trying to make them proud is my nightmare. But in the end, we are family. I understand that they just want a good future for their children but being controlled is too much to handle.
Why am I writing this? because writing is my sweet escape from reality. I have too much drama with my life but I will still choose to be positive at everything.
**Author's Note:**
*"I am getting frustrated with myself, but I won't be discouraged. This is testing my patience, but I won't be discouraged. Now I wonder, How far can I go? I shouldn't be discouraged right? Yes, I should not be because I type with purpose."* ***-carisdaneym*** https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/me-towards-my-200-in-bch-goal-this-month-and-how-bch-shaped-my-perspective-in-life-7c37d4ca#quoti-am-getting-frustrated-with-myself-but-i-won039t-be-discouraged-this-is-testing-my-patie
Thank you for reading, God bless. :)
If there are Grammatical errors please, kindly correct me.
Me towards my $200 in BCH Goal this month and How BCH shaped my perspective in life
There are so many facets to why am I doing this kind of stuff and these are the reasons why I wanted to aim more and more every month while enjoying writing and interacting with my virtual friends.
*"I am getting frustrated with myself, but I won't be discouraged. This is testing my patience, but I won't be discouraged. Now I wonder, How far can I go? I shouldn't be discouraged right? Yes, I should not be because I type with purpose."* ***-carisdaneym***
When I discovered these types of earning sites (read.cash and noise.cash)brings me about how wonderful and amazing bitcoin cash is, it certainly helped me to refresh myself this year. I know that it cannot be replaced for your job and it is considered to be an extra source of income but for me as a student, I decided to quit my part-time job and be active here because I chose to find myself where I can express my emotions.
****Fun fact!****
*Do you know that* ***$1*** *is equivalent to* ***48.22 Philippine pesos****?*
*Do you know that* ***$1*** *helps me to survive every day?*
*Do you know that* ***$2*** *helps me to have an internet connection for one week just to attend my online class?*
*Do you know that I cannot provide that without the help of BCH?*
*Do you know how bitcoin cash altered my perspective in life? It is because of all the people behind these projects.*
****What a journey it has been.****
A few weeks ago when I shared that **I already achieved my $100 goal** for the month of January, and now being determined and having the perseverance that I want with a little procrastination made me push this far to aim more. https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/a-100-in-bch-achieved-747ac690
I've been writing here whenever there are juices in my mind. It's either sweet, sour bitter, or salty. Just like what I said before, writing here while expressing my deepest emotion makes my problem lighter than the air and I can easily put myself back into pieces while trying to build a new life that will give me another chance to refresh everything. With that, I can develop and improve my writing skills too and make myself better for being a positive thinker and a goal-oriented one.
Back to the topic, **I am aiming to achieve 200 dollars before February ends and will continue to aim for 100 dollars every month.** I know this is not going to be easy as I expected by just writing here and posting something in my noise.cash account that is why I decided to explore the world of trading cryptocurrencies. I need to make my holdings bigger and challenge myself to learn more while making progress to achieve my dreams in life. I believe that practice can make it perfect and failures can lead to success too. Maybe, my definition of success would be like living with my true purpose in life and having a positive impact on the lives of so many people by uplifting them and inspiring them to think very carefully and act in ways that they may not consider before. My way through success is kinda different for some but still, this is me and this is my way of living. If some people degrade your personality, prove to them that they are wrong. Success is being grateful for what you have. Success is when you finally began to see your true purpose, and that is to live with no regrets.
I am investing what I can afford to lose and I will surely learn from my mistakes too. I don't want to pressure myself to aim higher, I will do it certainly but gradually and let me enjoy the journey of taking a step-by-step process.
These are my wallets. I need to do that to make my little goals come true. The short-term goals are to buy a printer, fund my e-loading business every week, and just leave something for the satisfaction of my stomach to motivate and reward myself for doing better. I really need a printer right now because I can easily be distracted while studying if I am using my gadgets and also we are living in a rural and there is no computer shop or whatever near our area. And about the future land, That is the long-term goal I have for now. I do want to buy land and invest my money there and take profit when I got older. I actually have some savings at my sister's bank account, I save some of my scholarship funds there if I don't need it since I am a working student, I know how to manage my income and expenses.
I am almost there to achieve my $200 goal before the end of the month, but I cannot guarantee its success since the bot is not visiting my articles lately. However, with determination and perseverance, I wanted to claim it now then make it happen with all of you.
Achievements and Appreciation
And being a one-month-old user, I already achieved 100 subscribers and 1000 views! I would like to take this opportunity to say my deepest appreciation for always supporting me here. I love you all! 🌹
***A journey with all of you, let me appreciate you.***
***Bitcoin cash, read.cash, noise.cash, and everyone, a big thank you for all of you.***
***Without further ado, allow me to share this with the fabulous you.***
Another thing, I cannot make another article to promote our Group chat @Telegram since I am busy with everything However, I would like to add it here since some of the members of our group are already promoting it haha. I am the creator of that group chat. At first, I created that just to have some chitchats with my virtual friends but when I realized something, as being one of the start-ups on this platform I want to guide the new users about the **Dos and Don'ts** to avoid being mark as spam or violating the rules. And to help them by encouraging, motivating, inspiring, and supporting each other as we climb higher while aiming our goals. @Laurenceuuu said once to me that building camaraderie here is noteworthy and I agree with that.
As of now, we are already 10+ members of that group, and I am still looking for new users who want to learn, be inspired, be motivated, and be encouraged by us and also, I am looking for some users who are willing to guide us.
**Name of the Group:** ****Noiseristificationism**** https://t.me/joinchat/FflZVxDGrChO4agZ
**Members:**
Eirolfeam2
Ruffa
AA-Admiral
Laurenceuuu
SassySissy
Luna09
Myleganders
kingofreview
Angel_183
francescawrites
immaryandmerry
Mathilde
Thecuterewarder (me)
**Join here!** https://t.me/joinchat/FflZVxDGrChO4agZ
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Hello guys, good evening or not good at all.
It's been spinning to my mind all over again ang again about someone who didn't care about her surroundings. Is it okay to be like that? Well, sometimes you chose not to care about judgmental people and keep on doing what you think is the best for you right? And that's okay.
How about the good judgments? I mean they keep on advising what is better for your own good but that's sucks when you think they are controlling you sometimes, kind of. And you're tired of thinking, you're tired of hearing those things and all you wanted is to be at your peace.
How about opening your mind and heart? Acceptance. On this one, you try to think wider, broaden your mind and think critically and carefully. Then what's next? You respond to them like it's not you're going to argue but to accept that like yours, they also have their own views and opinions about the subject. When you think broader or what you did is, simply accept and respect them.
Can I ask about this one, if you ignore someone ang you ignore her/his too without communication if what's the reason for ignoring each other, the next day some of your friends confronted you two then the problem resolved because there are no problems at all except for misunderstanding?
I forgot that this is not an article my post is getting longer lol. Anyways just a friendly reminder. Prioritize your peace.
The generosity within me
I wanted to write it here since some users are confused by my actions and they might be thinking that I did that for some hidden agenda and few of them are accusing me of doing something when in fact, my main intention is to help the one in need.
A few days ago when I encountered someone who asked me why am I being generous and assumes that I am doing it with purpose. Instead of supporting my actions, this user accused me of doing something wrong then I asked myself why would I need some reasons if all I wanted is to help and if I was just being appreciative? I was like that ever since like I'm willing to give my food to beggars and starve for an hour just to see them smile in a meantime. I would rather wait longer if someone is wanted to be the first one. I would definitely share the blessings that I have.
For some reasons, I do receive help and support from others and I am forever grateful for that. If you know my friend @immaryandmerry she's one of the great people that I know, she's always willing to help me when I was feeling down and when I need financial assistance. Allow me to share some funny moments however a very heartwarming experience for me.
***Flashback***
The class is done and we are all ready to go home. My friends and I are walking cheerfully but I cannot hide the fact that I was so hungry that time because I didn't eat that much during lunch since I can't afford to buy more, ***(I already shared that I am a working student and I am the only one who supports my financial crisis at school so I learned how to be practical and budget my tiny wages for a week without the help of my parents )***
While walking I saw a bakery, the smell of loaves of bread really tempt me and makes me feel hungrier so I ask my friends if they have some spare coins and telling them that I wanted to buy some bread but the money I have is not enough, I only have **$0.21** allotted for my transportation fee. But they said that they don't have extra money too since they already spent it, I was sad because I am really hungry at that moment. Luckily, @immaryandmerry have some coins for about **2 pesos** or **$0.04.** She gave it to me so I can buy some but they are laughing because it's only $0.04 well, I accepted it like a flash, it's still money after all haha. They challenged me to go to the bakery and buy some using my $0.04. That's not a big deal for me because I'm hungry and I was lucky enough because they are selling ***"pandesal"*** **the cheapest but the best bread of all time for me.**
The customers and the sales lady and even my friends are laughing when I said that I wanted to buy ONE PIECE of pandesal, they even recorded it.😆 I did not mind them because in the first place I did not steal the money and the bread. With that one pandesal, I think I absorbed enough carbohydrates in my body to have some energy to go home.
That is one of the reasons why I wanted to help others. A simple token of gratitude and appreciation can bring a bright smile to some people. If you're still confused about why I always give tips to some people, it's only because I do appreciate their effort, I want to encourage and motivate them as long as I can and of course, I am always willing to help those people who needed some help. I will try my very best to help and support them.
I know that I also need to earn but I cannot hide the fact that I have a good heart when it comes to helping people. It's too hard for me to say no. One of my friends still have some balanced that needs to pay for one month only but it's almost a year yet she didn't even bother to respond to my chats. I just wish her to have a decent life.
Now, one of my friends is asking me if I can lend her money worth $100 and she needed it right now because her mom spends her budget for that. She needs to pay it at our school or else her loan will get bigger if we added the penalty. She's a good friend of mine and I can't say no either, I discussed this topic with my sister because she's the one who holds my money at the bank (thanks to my scholarship, I have some savings) but then she says I'm the one who needs to decide for this. A $100 is no joke for me but I will still choose to help my friend, I am earning bitcoin cash right now and I already introduced it to her. She's not that active tho because she has a lot of things to do.
No matter what happens, they are still my friends. I just need some explanation and I will surely understand whatever their reasons are. I learned to give not because I have much but because I know exactly how it feels to have nothing.
**"The more you give, the more you will receive"**
**Author's note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
My Painful Valentine
Another story of mine will be divulged. Twenty years of surviving on the planet earth seem to bother me whenever I remember some incident of my life that put some scar on my memory. Perceives like every year will torment me again and again.
Through writing here I will try to narrate what happens to my Valentine's day. But before I start sharing let me warn you not to read this if you don't wanna ruin your valentine's day.
I was so full of love and I always got excited whenever lots of people are celebrating their Valentine's day. I was young and free and I do enjoy watching romantic movies, reading a love story, everything that makes my heart flutter, and feeling the butterflies inside my stomach. I never had a boyfriend until now, It is just like I cannot find the guy that I was looking for. You may say that I do have very high standards but it is not like that. I do admire a man but I cannot feel the love and if someone is trying to hit on me I will try to entertain but nothing seems right at all so yeah I decided not to be serious about that since am still young after all but anyways let's proceed to the real story of my valentine.
My valentine with my grandma: A fragile Background
When I was still a baby I do not have a healthy body and mind, I can't hear people properly and I have a skin disease. They found out that I was dehydrated and my life is at risk.
***Dehydration*** occurs when you use or lose more fluid than you take in, and your body doesn't have enough water and other fluids to carry out its normal functions. If you don't replace lost fluids, you will get dehydrated.
A baby may be dehydrated if they:
have a sunken soft spot (fontanelle) on their head
have few or no tears when they cry
have fewer wet nappies
are drowsy
and I have them all when I was still a baby, I still remember my story with my Grandmother. My parents need a huge amount of money to deal with my illness and my father doesn't have that much and I was in a critical condition and I might leave the earth in a single snap. He tried to ask for support from my grandma but she didn't provide any single penny. Based on the story of my auntie, my father is carrying me while kneeling in front of my grandmother trying to convince that it is too early for me to leave the world However, she did not show sympathy for us. When I heard that story I can't stop myself to get mad at my grandma but I cannot hide the fact I do love her regardless of what happened. I forgive her as my parents did. Luckily, I have the support of my auntie the reason why I survive that time.
I wish I can forget that memory so that we can start together but I cannot so what I did is forgive her, yet leave a scar in my heart. She is strict like ***Miss Minchin*** (Maria ***Minchin***) - *the main antagonist of Frances Hodgson Burnett's novella A Little Princess.* She has a very strict personality that we all got scared of whenever she's talking to us but she's still giving us candies whenever she visited us that why I can tell that she has a softness in her heart.
It was Valentine's day when I heard the unexpected news.
Six years ago, I was at school to attend the program we had for Valentine's day and I was there for the sake of attendance for the reason that I was an introverted person before and was not a very active person. I just love to read and enjoy my time with myself.
Back to the subject, It was afternoon when I received a call and I needed to go home as soon as possible. My mom notified me that my grandmother died that day and that's the reason why I started to hate valentine It just reminds me of my deceased grandma and I don't know why am I being bitter whenever Valentines Day day is approaching. I shouldn't be, right?
I couldn't tell more because I am crying right now while recalling the past so I guess I needed to end it here now.
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
Ps. I'm fine now I just need to remind myself to drink water 💧
**Understanding is deeper than knowledge**
I just leave it here. Many people know your name, however, just a few of them who knows and understands the real you.
There are times that I wanted to give up, but I ofc my dreams and perseverance always push me to climb until I meet the summit.
When I was in high school and until now I guess, I love the quotation from Nelson Mandela that **EDUCATION IS THE MOST POWERFUL WEAPON WHICH YOU CAN USE TO CHANGE THE WORLD** I'm not referring that you need to go to school and study hard. I understand that as no matter how hard our life is, you can still educate yourself. you know, just to have some manners and discipline to yourself.
Be humble as long as you can, try to lower your pride sometimes, forgive and forget to let go the heaviness you are feeling right now and please do understand the situation of others.
Sometimes I got even frustrated too but now I can manage to do the **inhale, exhale and think before you speak method**
Just some random short thoughts. Enjoy your life until you can. Make a progress for yourself and be the better version of yourself. 💓💖💖💖
UPDATE FOR MY FRIEND @Maemaeee
I already sent the collected tips that we got from all of you guys, again thank you so much!
Here's the proof.
https://noise.cash/post/1r25zn90
A friend of ours.
`Note: This article is written by` @Nezuko_Kamado `to support our friend who needs some help. We decided to published it in my account for the reason that our friend can't make an account for now because she is the only one whose taking care of her parents and we hope that someone will notice this`
*I wrote this for my friend that I met at noise.cash, Her name is Alpha mae Yumul. She is an active user of noise.cash and working hard to earn tips from other users. She subscribes to my account and always comment on my post. We've talked a lot in noise.cash and then I ask her Facebook account, she gave it to me then we had a long conversation. I asked about her personal life then she told me about their family situation right now. While she was telling her situation I know that she's not lying because I can feel her burden.*
*Her father had an operation, hopefully, it was successful but the problem is they have lots of debt. Due to the operation, her father can't do heavy jobs that is why they have no source of income.*
*I asked her to send me a photo because I want to make an article for her so that other people can help in her situation. Her situation is so difficult, while she was telling her situation it made me cry a lot when she also told me that her mother had a kidney stone, they have no money to let her mother have a check-up and she worried about her mother. Her situation made me realize how lucky I am. Even though, I have parents I'm still lucky that I have a sister which takes care of us and gives what we need. I feel pity for her situation, both parents are unemployed and they have no source of income. she had a younger brother who took an online class, which makes their situation worst because his younger brother needs an internet connection.*
*She also stopped schooling due to financial problem, she's currently a 2nd year college but she was forced to stop and need to find a job for family. She told me that she got a job for 3 months but she left there because her boss had a ugly attitude.*
*Now they have no source of income, she's making a way to earn at noise.cash and every tip she got makes her thankful. I witnessed how hardworking she is to earn money, I can feel her burden because shes the only one who's making a way to pay their bills and debt since her both parents are unemployed and his younger brother is at 9th grade.*
*She told me that she's problematic on how to pay their water bills, electric bilIls and the medicine to provide for her parents. I know that she's crying while telling me her situation and she don't know where to get that huge money for their Financial needs, she already saved 500 pesos at noise.cash but she used it to pay their electric bill. Her earnings at noise.cash is not enough to pay their water bills and the due date is today. I feel pity for her that's why I voluntarily helped her. I gave her 550 pesos to ease her burden, I send the money through coins.ph. At first she don't want to accept it but I told her that its not debt but its a help for her. She’s very thankful to me and I promised her that I will help her ease her burden.*
*I made this article and I'm hoping that someone will help her not by giving her money but by giving some tips to this article. I am also hoping that random rewarder will notice this article since my friend needs another money for her financial needs. I don't know her personally but there's a conscience in my heart saying that I need to help her.*
*I hope you'll help me to ease her burden, I'm thankful in advance.😊😊*
He asked me if I can publish this on my account then I agree and try to contact Alpha mae Yumul to confirm this and he's really telling the truth so my precious heart also got swayed by her story and I think I need to do something to help her. I contacted ate @bmjc98 and send some proof of our conversation because I know that she is looking for some people using her charity box and lucky enough, I got a response to her telling me that she will help maemae and I feel so touched and overwhelmed by her action because she's super kind and generous, I really admire her dedication for helping others.
Maemaee noise.cash account https://noise.cash/u/Maemaeee
The photos below are the picture of their bills and the medicine she needed to buy for her parents.
**Author's Note:**
We really don't want to bother all of you and I will make sure that the upvote that we can get here will be directed to maemaeee or you can go to her noise.cash account and leave some gifts for her. You can also contact her through email at **Amyml1515@gmail.com** https://noise.cash/u/Maemaeee
This is all I can do to support her and I will make sure to update all of you. I'm still convincing her to make an account here so that you can help her there but she said that she doesn't have a lot of time as of now. Every little cent counts and we will appreciate your kindness and support for this.
Thank you for reading everyone, God bless! :>>
I just don't know.
I still remember the day when she said to me to get out because she doesn't want to see my face anymore. Out of frustration, anger and discouragement, I decided to follow her words without thinking carefully.
It was a late evening and the moon didn't shine so bright that night. I am wearing a sleeveless shirt and shorts, wandering on the street and crying alone. That time, I'm not afraid of the darkness because my mind is full of agony and the sadness is overflowing to control my emotion. I don't have anywhere to go.
I saw a group of guys drinking alcohol near the store of aling Nena but I didn't mind them because I was also busy crying out my best and if I remember it correctly, I was fifteen years old that time.
That's the first time that I encountered a lot of different people to degrade me as a person and even she, who is having the same blood as me. I was so tired back then, I used to blame the world why am I living this kind of life? Am I not enough? Am still doing fine back then but the moment that you lay down your hand in my face is remarkable that leaves a huge scar in my heart.
My fifteen years old self that needs to fight against the world without the encouragement of the people that I wanted to hold my hand and support me as I walk barefooted and didn't mind the broken glasses to step on it.
It taught me to be a strong and independent woman and not to ask for help to some people anymore. I just don't know and I got tired and sick of it. I don't want you to pity my old self that's why I needed to be strong for my own good. At least there's still progress.
That night, I also realized my mistakes when I tried to breathe and speculate what happens on that incident but I stick to my pride and not to go home for the meantime. I just walk along in the middle of the night then little fireflies stay beside me to guide me and I decided to go and sleep in our old house. After crying out loud about in the street, I am still lucky that it's midnight and no one notice my cute complexion.
This is one of the reasons why I pursue to work hard and achieve my dreams in a short span of my life that I have, I may not be good as anyone but I am good because I am being me and no one gonna make me fall again, and if ever they did it I will stand up and fight for it until I got the victory.
What's the purpose of sharing it? It is because to express my deepest thoughts before they eat my mind. I trained myself to control my anger as long as I can, I trained my self not to burst it out when I'm frustrated and I trained myself to be the better version of myself. I don't need any approval because I am the ruler of my own life. No one's gonna break it even though they tried to stab me again and again. I won't stab you back but I will embrace you until you find the calmness on your heart.
As I was saying, writing here helped me to make my problems lighter than the air and it is really incredible to express myself here without the judgment of anyone. I will keep writing and sharing my rants, my happiness and my achievements to express my deepest emotion at the same time so you are free to unsubscribe me because most of the time I am not talking about Bitcoin cash and I just wanted to escape and express the reality that I am withstanding right now.
A lot of life lessons to be remembered.
A lot of mistakes to understand the world better.
A lot of hard work and sacrifices to appreciate how beautiful our life.
Having suicidal thoughts is no joke so it is better to pull it out and talk to someone to lessen the burden of your heart and also helps you to fully appreciate the precious gift that you receive every time you open up your eyes. Showing your brightest smile and live while we can.
To that person, I just wanted to say that you raised me the more than I can be. I'm still thankful for giving me a life that makes me who I am now. Thank you.
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
How deep can you go through to understand the critical thinking of one person?
How deep is your perspective and perception to formulate and conclude what's wrong with this person.
Ako ay natatanging ako lamang
**Maricar, kaya mo iyan.**
Ngayong buwan ng Pebrero ay nalalapit na naman ang araw ng kapanganakan ko o ang pagsilang ng isang natatanging ako. Saan nga ba nagmula ang pangalan ko? Ang katotohanan ay natuklasan sa pamamagitan ng aking malayang kaisipan patungo sa pagtuklas ng aking pinagmulan at ang naging dahilan sa pagbigkas ng aking pangalan. Sa isang baryo ay may namumuhay nang tahimik at payapa sa maliit at simpleng tahanan. Ika-anim na anak at may kasunod pang tiyak, nagmula ang aking pangalan sa isang kilalang artista at sa tingin ko ay alam niyo na naging dahilan at bunga. Marahil kayo ay aking napatawa, kung ganoon ay tama ang iyong hinala o haka haka.
Isa ako sa mga batang nagsusumikap sa bawat hakbang sa pag abot ng aking pangarap para sa ika gaganda ng aking hinaharap. Menor na edad pa lamang nang harapin ko ang bawat pagsubok na bumabalakid nang pagsabayin ko ang aking trabaho at pag sustento sa pag aaral ko. Mahirap? Oo ngunit wala ito kumpara sa mga taong alam kong mas mahirap ang dinaranas mabuhay lang sa mundong ito.
Hindi gaanong kilala sa pagiging matalino pero nakilala sa pagiging masipag, mabait, at may prinsipyong tao.
Ako ay natatanging ako lamang, mahigit na apat na taon nang lumalaban sa hamon ng buhay. Naging tindera sa bayan, naging katulong na rin nang minsan. Tumagal ako sa pagiging tindera sa tindahan ng mga kagamitan sa pag gawa ng bahay, Isa itong *hardware store* kung saan ay marami rin akong natutunan. Naranasang makipag usap sa mga propesyonal, mga inhinyero, karpentero, tubero at mga construction wroker na sumasideline para may ipakain sa pamilya. Ang daming aral sa buhay na matutuklasan sa ibat-ibang antas ng buhay, mayroong masiyadong mapagmataas na maiiyak na lamang ako pero hindi ko kayang isuko ang panagrap ko at darating ang araw na makikila talaga kung sino ako at ang nasa likuran ng pangalan ko. Isa rin iskolar ng bayan at maaasahan sa pagluluto mula umaga hanggang hapunan. Anak na may paninindigan, kapatid na masusumbungan, kaibigan na matatakbuhan at kaklaseng hindi makopyahan sapagkat walang sagot sa mga tanong na dapat punan sa kadahilanang hindi na nakapag-aral sa sobrang pagod at puyat na aking nararanasan.
Nag eensayo sa pagsusulat sa pamamagitan ng pagbabahagi ng aking karanasan at ng malayang kaisipan. Ibabahagi ko na rin na isa ito sa aking pinagkakakitaan. Nakatutuwang isipin na hindi lang basta may pinagkakakitaan dahil ako ay mayroon ding natutunan. Naging takbuhan ko ang pagsusulat sa tuwing may mga problemang hindi agad masulusyunan, madalas ay problema sa bahay na nagiging dahilan kung bakit ang hirap intindihin ng aking inaaral. Sinusubukan pero madalas ay basta na lamang makapag *pass* na kung tutuusin ay ang hirap at ang bigat sa pakiramdam dahil para ka lang nag-igib ng tubig pero butas ang iyong imbakan.
Patuloy na lumalaban at lumalangoy habang pinipilit na sumabay sa agos ng dagat ng kaisipan. Nahihirapan, oo. Masakit isipin pero iyon ang totoo. Inabot na nang madaling araw pero heto pa rin ako. Lumalangoy patungo sa pangarap ko kahit alam kong maraming balakid sa daraanan ko maabot lamang ang kaligayahan ng mga magulang ko. Hindi pa dito nagtatapos ang kwento ng natatanging ako, ito ay simula pa lamang ng hamon na kina haharap ko. Unti-unti ay alam kong pasasaan pa at makakamit ko rin ito, maglalaan lamang ng tiwala sa sarili at gagawing inspirasyong ang mga taong ni minsan ay hindi sumuko sa pagsuporta sa katulad kong minsa ay nawalang na ng gana at pag asa. Isa lang sa mga batang may gustong mapuntahan. Ako ay natatanging ako lamang.
Maligaya sana ang iyong kaarawan.
**Author's Note**
Maraming salamat sa mga bumati at sa aking mga bagong kaibigan. Mahal ko kayo😚☺😘
A Book
How can you tell if someone is telling the truth or not? Can you explain human behavior in terms of the interactions of various components of personality? Let us talk about this book, a psychological thriller, and guess who's the criminal.
THE BREAKER - by Minette Walters
**Just a short summary of the novel.**
*She drifted with the waves, falling off their rolling backs and waking to renewed agony every time saltwater seared down her throat and into her stomach. During intermittent periods of lucidity when she revisited, always with astonishment, what had happened to her, it was the deliberate breaking of her fingers that remained indelibly printed on her memory and not the brutality of her rape.*
*The child sat cross-legged on the floor like a miniature statue of Buddha, the grey dawn light leeching her flesh of color. He had no feelings for her, not even common humanity, but he couldn't bring himself to touch her, and he was enthralled by her immobility. He could break her neck as easily as a chicken, but he fancied he saw ancient wisdom in her concentrated gaze, and the idea frightened him. Did she know what he'd done?*
*Twelve hours after a woman's body is washed up on a deserted shore, her traumatized three-year-old daughter is discovered 20 miles away alone and apparently abandoned.*
*Brothers Paul and Daniel Spender are exploring near Chapman’s Pool on the Dorset Coast when they come upon a woman whom they think while sunbathing in nude. It's not long, though, before Paul, the older of the two brothers, notices that the woman has not moved and that in fact, she’s dead. They give the alarm, and PC Nick Ingram is soon called to the scene. When he arrives, he meets the Spender boys and Stephen Harding, an actor who’s traveling in the area and who actually reported the death to the police. Also on the scene is Maggie Jenner, a local stable and boarding-facility owner who’s been out riding. When her dog runs off and comes upon Harding and the Spender boys, she gets drawn into the investigation as well.*
*While Ingram is beginning the process of finding out who the dead woman is, another mystery is unfolding in the nearby town of Poole. A small child, not even three years old, is wandering the streets, apparently unsupervised. A local couple notices the child and takes her to the police station, where WPC Sandra Griffiths puts into motion the process of finding out who the little girl is and what she’s doing wandering around alone. Hannah is strangely unresponsive and an assessment of the child suggests that she has suffered psychological trauma. The police broadcast the child’s photograph on television and by chance, Angela Sumner sees the picture and recognizes the toddler as her granddaughter, Hannah Sumner. She calls her son William, Hannah’s father, and before long, he’s in touch with the police.*
*When William Sumner arrives at Poole to identify Hannah, the two threads of this case come together. Sumner’s worried about his wife, Kate, who should have been with Hannah, and who seems to have disappeared. His description of Kate matches the description of the dead woman whose case the Dorset police are investigating, and it’s soon established that the body is Kate’s. Somehow, Kate and Hannah got separated and Kate ended up raped, choked, drugged, and drowned on the beach near Chapman’s Pool.*
*Nick Ingram, DI John Galbraith, WPC Griffiths, and Superintendent Carpenter begin to work together to find out how and why Kate Sumner died. They interview her co-workers, friends, and relations to try to piece together what happened, and as they do, three likely suspects emerge. One is her husband, William Sumner, who can’t really account for his time during the murder, who lies about his wife’s private life and who wasn’t as happily married to Kate as it seemed on the surface. Another is Stephen Harding, a sexually-obsessed actor with whom Kate flirted more than once. A third is Harding’s room-mate, teacher Tony Bridges, who knew Kate better than he admits to the police. But at the end of the investigation of the police and detectives, the suspect is Stephen Harding, a sexually obsessed actor who was arrested.*
**Just a Theory**
**Psycho-analytical Theory**
It's often difficult to understand a crime, either real or fictional without understanding the personalities of the people involved in the crime. Very often, those personalities are keys to the motive for murder as well as clues to the murderer.
The story of ***the Breaker*** is based on a **Psychoanalytical theory.** here are some lines that will support the said theory.
*"How was I hard to him Miss Jenner?" "oh come on! You all but accused him of lying." he was lying " nick Ingram said.*
*" what about? "*
*" I'm not sure yet" I know when I've made a few inquiries. "Is this a male thing? "probably" I could hardly avoid it. He wasn't wearing that shorts to disguise anything perhaps, it was his wallet. There was a precious little room for it anywhere else. "didn't you find it interesting?".*
This is a psychoanalytical theory because I think it deals with how the characters think in the story.
Several elements tie this story together, one of them is the painstaking work that is a police investigation. Throughout the novel, the detectives conduct interviews, gather and make some forensic and other evidence and slowly build their case. They draw the wrong conclusions at times and when they do find out what really happened, it's not because of magical discovery. Rather it's the process of sifting through the evidence and clues and tying together various things that witnesses have said. In that sense, this is a police procedural we follow along with the police as they pursue their leads and work on the case.
Another very important element that runs throughout the novel is characterization. So in that sense, this novel is a psychological crime novel. The various aspects of Kate's character unfold slowly as the police find out more and more about her. For instance, we gradually learn what kind of men William Sumner, Stephen Harding, and Tony Bridges are, and why each of them is tied up in this murder investigation. As the police e interview these men and talk to the people live in their lives we see a slowly developing portrait of each person. Through this process, we also get a psychological profile of the kind of person who would commit the rape and murder crime that killed Kate Sumner and also get to know a little about Hannah Sumner and we learn might be behind her strange behavior.
The ongoing, sometimes frustrating police investigation and the slowly - unfolding psychological portraits of the characters tie the various strands of the novel together. So do the Dorset and Hampshire settings where the most action takes place. These elements underlie the story and add important layers of interest and tension as the investigator gets close to the truth about Kate's Sumner murder.
**Reflection**
Everything feels quite cursory. We meet a cast of characters, but never quite get to know any on a level that would allow for connection and concern for their fates. The three police officers involved bleed into one lump, and at times it's difficult to remember who is who. All of the suspects are pathetic, miserable men who have thrown away their lives, and the child involved is by turns annoying and creepy. The victim is quickly revealed to be a greedy, grasping woman, and the side plot involving old money women fallen on hard times is fairly by-the-numbers, and while it shows a glimmer of interest here and there, it is ultimately rushed to a quick and unsatisfying conclusion.
There is little detecting going on in this mystery, as the entire cases of the story is driven me by what the suspects and people who know or have observed them say. Much of the time it feels like a very artificial, " Okay, now I'm going to assume this person is the killer, and now him, and now him." When the reveal finally happens, while it is disappointingly the very person the novel appears to be pointing to from the very first pages, it reads very much to me like a last-minute rush to a conclusion. For me, The reveal comes crashing down in a rush of information, some of which is entirely new and does not appear to fit with what we know from the rest of the story. Without a better foundation of clues laid, the ending falls quite flat.
And as much as I enjoyed the small moments between Nick Ingram and Maggie Jenner, there simply isn't enough room for their relationship within the plot. Walters provides a smattering of moments that are clearly supposed to provide enough for the reader to fill in the details, but some of it especially Nick's baffling insistence that painting someone's house is a form of courting simply does not have enough in-text proof to suggest any depth between them. Their resolution, too, is rush to the conclusion.
Ultimately, I was propelled through the novel mostly because I wanted to find out if I was right about the killer. And that's it I enjoy reading this novel.
**The Characters**
**Kate Sumner -** The dead women who had been raped and strangled. She is the mother of Hannah and the wife of William.
**William Sumner -** Husband of Kate Sumner.
**Hannah -** The three-year-old daughter of Kate Sumner and William Sumner.
**PC Nick Ingram -** A uniformed police constable in a tiny police station on the Isle of Purbeck who fell in love with Maggie. His investigation reacquainted him with stable yard owner Maggie.
**Maggie Jenner -** A local stable and boarding facility owner, Nick Ingram admires her natural, equine, and human beauty she lives with her mother. and later on, fell in love with Ingram's charm.
**Stephen Harding -** The obvious suspect. A young actor, a handsome loner obsessed with pornography whom Kate flirted more than once.
**Tony Bridge -** A friend of Stephen, respected high school chemistry teacher
**Celia Jenner** - Mother of Maggie Jenner.
**Angela Sumner-** mother of William
**Paul and Daniel-** Spender brothers who saw the dead body of Kate using their binocular.
**Detective Inspector John Galbraith-**The detective who investigated the case of Kate's murder.
**Detective Superintendent Carpenter-** He also investigated Kate's murder together with PC Ingram and DI Galbraith.
**WPC Sandra Graffiths-** Police stable who is on duty when Mr.and Mrs. Green reported the child which is Hannah Sumner saw on the road alone.
Photos are mine.
just a story analysis.
Thank you for reading.
Thank you for the upvote sir @ErdoganTalk💚💖
A $100 in BCH Achieved!
Procrastination vs. Determination
Establishing Goals and objectives is not my thing but when I got to know more about Bitcoin cash, I become a positive thinker and slowly becoming a goal-oriented person (maybe). My journey here is indeed amazing as I was able to find you. Yes, if you're reading this right now, thank you. Without all of you, I won't be able to come this far.
Procrastination is my number one enemy when I am trying to achieve this goal of mine but since I am a very determined person, mark my word and see what will happen. Allow me to share my journey from the very start.
My Journey
**JANUARY 03, 2021**
I created this account and published my first-week earnings here in read.cash and noise.cash. It was a great experience after all when I got to earn more than $25 in a week. Because of that, I got to know more about how to interact with the other users and I got a lot of views and comments for my first article although, the bot seems to ignore me that time and at least, I was able to earn $1.62 coming from the wallet of my virtual friends, readers, and supporters. Thank you! https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/how-i-earned-more-than-25-within-one-week-with-noisecash-and-readcash-45fa1bef
**JANUARY 07, 2021**
Since my first week is indeed amazing, I started blabbering about accumulating a hundred dollars for January.
You know him right? He's one of the bully here yet an achiever and a supporter and a good friend of mine too. I used to be part of his giveaway event in my previous account then it happens that I also found him in noise.cash because of Doraemon (uh my fave anime character). Anyways thank you for the motivation and frustration @Laurenceuuu he never let me down and continues to support me while teasing me every day. I do admire how goal-oriented he is and a very good influencer.
Just to be clear. Stop making an issue about us hahaha he's younger than me. I see him as my naughty brother yet a goalkeeper :>
A few days ago when the BCH pumps and reaches the $600+, I posted this on my noise.cash account.
**JANUARY 15, 2021**
On this day, I published an article when I am being determined and confident to challenge myself to achieve my $100 goal before January ends. I already have $61.56 at that time that's why I am being confident that I can do it. I also got a lot of support from many users especially from all the members of #Club1BCH. I'm still thinking to join their group but I promise to myself to take a little step, make a progress slowly but surely. I don't want to pressure myself and I enjoy expressing myself here through writing my thoughts and ideas and even my rants. As you all know, my mind always works when midnight comes like a nocturnal one. https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/a-100-in-a-month-with-bch-fba0355c
That time, I posted a short post about sponsorship, and to my surprise, I got six sponsors within 24 hours. I wonder why they do that haha.
Special thanks to this man ( @lucas ) he's not just a sponsor but a friend of mine every midnight but morning for him, to express my thoughts and rants he also taught me a lot of life lessons. (To be honest with all of you, My nose is bleeding every time he talks so deep, I always bring my tissue beside me just in case.) Check his profile and try to read his well-written articles.
Thank you so much for encouraging me to write more @jane @Eirolfeam2 @Laurenceuuu@bmjc98 @Sayonara showing your supports makes me wanna cry right now because, in the first place, I am not confident of my works but it happens that you are there to inspire and motivate me. ( I will promise to do the same for the newcomers and will support them as long as I can)
**JANUARY 16-18,2021**
I didn't share that much here because I'm being lazy hehe.
**JANUARY 19, 2021**
I'm quite happy and excited when I checked my wallet, I am almost there to achieve my goal for the first month of the year 2021. Looking for more blessings💚
**JANUARY 20, 2021**
This is cute actually because I'm bragging about reaching 500 views and 50 subscribers. Anyways, thank you for always reading my article (hello to my silent readers too) shout out to my best commenter on this month @Ruffa and @SassySissy
**JANUARY 21, 2021**
Bloody red but at least, I'm almost there.
**JANUARY 22, 2021**
Don't have anything to say because my $91 goes down to $70. I don't wanna check my wallet when the value of BCH dumps to $380 (can't buy either). But still, I got 222 subscribers in noise.cash (what a coincidence of the date hihi)
**JANUARY 23, 2021 and so on**
I am frustrated and busy at the same with the enrollment process and renewing my scholarship. Nothing seems to be fine at all this week not until at the end of the submission of renewal, I still managed to pass the requirements needed (What a break it is!).
I also remember that I published something about my **noise.cash addiction** because I can't focus on everything and happy to know that I am not the only one who loves noise.cash and read.cash. https://read.cash/@carisdaneym2/noisecash-addiction-a947f1ed
**JANUARY 31, 2021**
Final checking of my wallet. The BCH goes down and up and I experienced a roller coaster feeling until this moment comes.
And here it goes. Yehey!
The $18 I have in my main wallet is my first week earning. I don't know how to create a wallet at that time.
I did not intend to keep my earnings just for my self, to appreciate the new users like me, I also want to inspire and motivate them by giving some upvotes on their articles. And after one month of sharing and caring, I climbed up to the top tipper😻💖💚💗
I would also like to say thank you to this amazing user who also motivates me to continue committing good deeds.
@SassySissy @Luna09 @leomar
@immaryandmerry @Myleganders
Realization and Appreciation
*I am so grateful for all the people who make this a successful project, when read.cash, and noise.cash happened to be part of my life. when I discover how amazing Bitcoin cash is. Without you read.cash and noise.cash team. without you Sir* @RogerVer*, Sir* @MarcDeMesel *without you my friend rusty* @TheRandomRewarder *my first inspiration here* @ErdoganTalk *and without all of the user herein read.cash and noise.cash I won't be able to find my inner peace without the help of every one of us.*
Before I quit my part-time job, I only earned $80 a month so earning this big makes me wanna cry already, tears of joy. Thank you, everyone, I love you all.
*I am sorry for the mentions. your brightest smile is all I want because I want you to know that every one of you really had a huge impact on my life now. I am so blessed that you guys happened to be part of my journey.*
**Author's Note:**
Thank you for reading, God bless!
@carisdaneym2
