Where Is The Goal-Oriented Self That I Used To Know?

It has already been 6 days since the month of November started but so far, I had only published 2 articles yet. Actually, it's going to be 3 articles, including this one here, so it's going to be a 3-on-3 standing. Last month, I also missed 6 articles due to stress from playing Axie with my old team and doing so many things at the same time.

I don't know why but even after having a new Axie, which makes my team even stronger than ever, I still couldn't find the will to be productive like how I used to before. I always feel physically and mentally exhausted that thinking about writing is already giving me stress, which is why I choose to skip instead. I did, however, promise to catch up for last month's absences, so hopefully, I can still find reasons to write just like before.

I would sometimes ask myself how on Earth did I manage to do all those grinding, doing so many things at a time, and now, all of a sudden, I couldn't do it anymore? Aside from my issue on publishing articles, here are some of the things that I have barely done lately:

Reading and upvoting articles on read

Since I don't write very often lately, I also avoid checking my read.cash account. I wanted to read and upvote some articles here but unfortunately, my body and mind are just too lazy to do anything.

To everyone, I apologize for not visiting your articles. I don't know what's gotten into me. Is this a sign of aging or just something else?

Responding to some comments on noise

I'm also not that active on noise either. I still make noise every time I can but responding to their comments is something that I can no longer do as well. I guess I'm just busy grinding in Axie to the point that everything else seems so impossible to do.

Joining airdrops, meme contests, and NFT giveaways on Twitter

When NFT was still new to me, I was so eager to participate in every giveaway back then. I even spent one hour or two just responding to all the mentions from NFT collectors but the longer I got into this hype, I started to lose interest. The same goes with airdrops and meme contests. Gosh! I need the inspiration to get myself involve in this fun stuff here.

Chatting for long hours on Telegram

I used to chat with my club fam on Telegram for long hours before every single day but since I joined AxieBCH Dojo, I barely stayed up late there to chat. Although I still visit our chatbox, it's no longer the same anymore. Sorry, fam, it's just that my real-life friends are also on Discord and being on that side makes me feel like we are still in one room talking nonstop just like before.

Plus, we do a lot of live streams to learn more strategies and share ideas on how to be a more effective player. You know we have a quota to maintain in order for us to stay in the game.

Buying Sep20 tokens during the dip

I have missed so many opportunities lately due to my laziness. One of these is CATS. When CATS was so cheap, I got so busy grinding in Axie to reach my quota, which was to reach at least 800 MMR, that I forgot to check the market and buy more CATS while it was still low. Now, I missed the opportunity to enjoy the pump because of my stupidity.

Checking StormGain and Coingecko

This is probably the easiest thing to do yet I also failed on this. Clicking the collect button doesn't take 5 seconds but here I am, still having a hard time staying updated. Ugghhh!

Plans to improve my productivity

If I keep doing this routine, I might lose a lot from BCH to supporters, so the best way to prevent this is to make a plan. Well, when it comes to making plans, I'm good at it. The problem is, following the plans is the hardest. Nevertheless, there's no harm in trying. As they say, try and try until you die. LOL. And you'll never know the outcome if you don't give it a try. So here are my plans:

• Creating a wallpaper with my to-do list. This way, I can easily be reminded of what to do next every time I open my phone. I will also update my computer with the same wallpaper as my phone. I know it's simple, but I think it's better than writing a sticky note and losing it after a few days.

• Doing 1 task at a time. No more multi-tasking. The more I multitask, the longer it takes to finish. For instance, I want to write an article, I will just use that time to think, write, and finalize my article. No more writing 1 article while playing Axie and watching a movie because it will only compromise the other tasks.

• Taking 1-hour break every time I finish my task. Another problem that I noticed about myself is that I wanted to do a lot of things in 1 day that I even forgot to rest. Whenever I tried to rest, I end up doing another thing until I got exhausted. So now, I think I need a real break where I don't do much at all.

• Setting a time limit for everything. For example, 30 minutes time limit when it comes to chatting on Discord. Instead of chatting for longer hours, it's best to make a time limit so I could also do other things like checking Twitter or Telegram.

There you have it! Sounds easy but we all know they're not. I think the key to achieving all these is determination. I also need to remind my goal-oriented then self to stop slacking and just focus on the important stuff. Not doing these plans will only make it more unproductive. I know I'm also earning by just playing Axie but read.cash is my main source of income as well so there's no way I should let it go. And if I want to earn more BCH for the house, I need to work my ass like how I used to before.

Closing thoughts

I used to be a goal-oriented person before but something happened that I have already forgotten how to be one again. So now, let's try to do it one more time and face all the dilemmas so that I could be the goal-oriented person again like the once you know.

I know it's not easy, but I can do it because I will do it! I can still have fun, though, while doing any of these so if they can, there's no way that I can't! Fighting!